I don't wanna hide
I don't wanna hide away
From the past
I only want to be free
Be free
Be free with you
I don't want to have to ever choose the past over you
I don't want to hide anything
I don't wanna
Be the one to spread my wings
Without finishing the last part of my story
I only wanna be free
I don't want to have to leave
I don't wanna hide
I just want to be free
And love the life I have with you
Please don't ever think it was because of you
Because I do and always will be the one who loves you.
Going through my past
Has not been easy as
Say ripping off the bandaid
By love was both beautiful and ugly
But I am still glad I got to share the part of myself with you and I know that you love and care for me and I do know that this journey of rekindling the spark we once had is going to take time and with both of us together I know that you are the one that I always want to treasure and my heart belongs to you as you belong to me too.
I love you and I miss you
You are the light that is in my life
The spark of us that I feel at night
I love you and I miss you
And all I want is to be free with you
And always know that no matter what I can love you and be the one who found you again in my HighSchool life but still moving forward to be with you in the future.
"I tired because it is you that I am missing
My brain feels like there is a glitch in my system"
I'm running around not knowing what I am thinking my feelings feel like they are hidden
And behind a mask is what I have been feeling and it is like I am trapped but I know that I used to be your baby and I will always be grateful to the years that you gave me and I hope when I can reconnect with you it will feel like the lights have went off when I was with you and it is like my brain knows what I am missing and I am running around thinking where I am and how I got into this position but I know that my mind circled back to you and all the love I thought that I cherished with you to be coming back with the past on my shoulders kind of like "my mind has a glitch in my system" and I have been running around like the waves in my thinking one second I am fine and the next I am afraid of the questions but that does not mean I do not have all the answers because me and you know the story of us that brought us together for what feels like a hundred times before we were able to call us a forever and now we are dancing in the dark with you between my arms falling around underneath the stars playing the songs like we could hear the lyrics from mars and you paint me a picture of the story of us unfolds but the longer we wait for reality catch up to the days we have had in our dreams seems so faraway but loving the experience for us has been a blessing and I know that this love has been up and down but here with you is what I call a perfect moment away from the world and as tell each other of our secrets and the life that we both used to live where stories became stepping stones and the past of us began to unfold but once the future comes we will look back on these dreams as if they were only memories.
You captured me in and out of love
Made me a believer that I could fall
For something real and someone who knew me
From the inside and out of the person you saw a spitting image of when I was young to the future of me now the girl who is all grown up and is still trying her best to reach her goals of happiness everyday.
The you of who I love
Is the one of you
Who has my heart
And runs me like a high
Where me and you
Are the ones who are trying to come back to love.
Looking at you
Through the moon
And capturing the butterflies
That filled in the spaces of the roses
Between the reality and the dream of
The hourglass where the piece of the puzzle finally fits as the complete picture of the story.
The power of thought that always starts
With the mind and comes about through our minds
Just like us when we dream of the life we want to live as the two of us but to me and you
We have always had the love that seem to last even if it did seem to take about tens years to come and I hope to see the dreams that come to us like waves of the ocean and count down the time like it is from the morning to the sun and the nights from the day it falls with the moon of you and me.
You seem to be making the life seems to be the real life I have been craving but nothing holds a candle to you of how I seem to love the life I have with you in our dreams what is to be real with you and me.
Whenever I was hugging you
The feeling of you made me fall asleep
Because I was so caught in how you touched me
With the heart of your chest that I ended up falling in love with more than just the feeling of being around you in your presence and this past year all I could ever think about was you and me
In my thoughts and dreams.
The days are out the status are numbered
All of the streets have quieted
As there is no noise to be made
Only the silence of our thoughts
That store away all that we are thinking
Some thoughts might have went away others took time to reach the clocks and strike as the time began to fall and I was running past the finish line and up and down through the train tracks to get back from my dreams as I had lost my train of thought.
Coming back and hearing the sands
Speak the name of where the journey of our story
Has started but ended and when our wings began to fly we could only have hoped that we would be the ones to catch the butterflies.
The thoughts ran like wildfire through the night as we both only had a small passion for our dreams and left the writing up to the past of our stories.
It was beginning to feel a lot like a dream without reason that came to me and made me believe that twenty fours without a thought was like a break that came went the internet was no longer in the palm of my hands but reaching through my dreams felt like I was catching the moment that felt just like touching the wings.
In those moments we find silence
That is alone with our thoughts
To read our names and no book was mentioned
Only a word of a few that was expressed on the outside of the title page.
We both ran like the wind into our dreams that filled in the blank spaces and loved who we were as more than what we could be even if we were past the clouds of the rain.
Sneaking to the waves beyond the surf
Coming back and asking for a change
Came like waves that brought back the night from the day.
Hitting the storybooks line after line
Because every word captured the story
From one letter at a time.
Dear me,
I know you what I want now and that is to be me
And to have the life I have always dreamed and being with him the one that makes my heart skip a beat and fills in the blanks of only the stories that I could read and remembering even the littlest details that made me complete to be with the one and only you and me.
Love,
Me
Dear me,
I faded like the ground
And tried to capture the colors that fell
Just like the stars from the sky that completed the photograph just like a rainbow of colors where each one painted the canvas and kept me thinking of what art actually painted?
Love,
Me
Dear me,
I still love being you and I know that we both may not know each other's past but we are still willing to find out the other half of the other side of the story and complete the dreams that we are fighting for to get back to being me.
Love,
Me
Dear me,
Keeping the memories hidden between us
To where each of the others are hidden behind all of the magic that loves with the flowers of the roses that only started to bloom just like the petals.
Love,
Me
Dear you,
I loved the getaway I have gone with you
And hope to bring on new and exciting adventures along the way as we continue to make those memories of us throughout the days of the week that we are there and not let anything from my past keep us from being us.
Love,
You
Dear you,
It has felt like weeks
Counted into days
And this is the time
Where we both have
Spent away.
Love,
You
Dear you,
The stars awaked
With the love I have for you
In my dreams that connect the stars
Even with you and me.
Love,
You
We'll be okay
As you love me
And the dreams that let you
Have me and the memories
I want to have with you.
Spending the love
That I have with you
As we go away from the start
That brought us together
And now we are okay
With the love that is more than the words
Inside of our stories.
Loving you even though
It is inside of our dreams
That may keep the dark away
But the light continues to capture our memories
That hugs like the ocean waves.
Touching your hand
Touching hand
And holding me close
While never letting me go
And keeping up the dreams
That love me and keep me in my heart with you.
Love that you and me
Keep us with our dreams
And love all that you and I are to each other.
Dancing with you in my heart
Keeping me warm by the fire
And dancing with you like we are underneath the moonlight almost like our dreams are home to you and me.
Loving you with all my heart
And spending my life with you in a dream
While living and loving you for eternity.
I painted him as a wolf
I painted him as a wolf too back in HighSchool but now he is someone who paints the moon and I am someone who is the rose petals in a dream that loves both him and me but also finds a way to mend the broken pieces of the puzzle.