A/N: Hi! Here's my update for today. I'm so sorry for being inactive here.
Anyway happy reading!
P.S. sorry for the typos!
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DAPHNE'S POV
“Kunsabagay sino ba naman ang hindi maiinlove kung ganito ba naman ka-gwapo ang asawa”, she said while looking at the picture of Apollo on my phone.
And yes I never deleted our photos on my phone. I want to keep it for our memories.
I want to keep it because for once in my life I married the man that I've been dreaming for.
I married my long time crush even if it was just an arrange marriage.
Marrying him was like I won the lottery.
"Woah remember something about your past? Your smiling again like an idiot there", Lyra said that made me roll my eyes at her.
"Why are you looking at me like that, I was just stating the fact", she said.
"You want me to call Lucien", I've said to her that made her change her mood.
I laughed at her reaction.
"Subukan mo, tatawagan ko rin ang asawa mo", she said as she get her phone from her pocket.
"Go on", I said while typing something on my phone.
Nanlaki ang mata ko ng literal na tinawagan niya si Apollo.
Isang ring pa lang ay agad na itong sinagot ni Apollo na ikinalaki ng mata ko.
"Hello who's this?", rinig kong tanong ni Apollo mula sa kabilang linya dahil naka-loudspeaker ito.
God I miss his voice so much. Everytime I miss him I will just look to our pictures on my phone. Because all I have now is our memories that I will treasure until I die.
I will be forever grateful to our parents because of them I experienced being his wife even in a short period of time.
Hindi man kami umabot ng taon pero masaya ako dahil naging asawa ko siya kahit pa arranged marriage lamang kami.
Alam ko naman na para sa kaniya ay para sa business lang ang kasal namin at wala na akong magagawa doon.
I can't make him fall for me. And all I need to do is to accept it.
Normal na rin naman ito. Dahil kapag nainlove ka sa isang tao ay hindi naman siya agad maiinlove sayo asahan mo ng pwedeng mainlove siya sayo pwede namang hindi. And all you can do is too accept it. Dahil hindi naman lahat ng pagmamahal ay nasusuklian.
"If your just playing games with me please stop I'm busy finding my wife right now so I don't have a f*cking time to play with you", rinig kong sabi ni Apollo bago niya ibinaba ang tawag.
Nagkatinginan naman kami ni Lyra dahil sa narinig.
His busy finding me huh.
Oh well goodluck then my husband este my ex-husband pala.
I've already sign our annulment paper. What does he want now.
Lumayo na rin ako para sa kanila ni Stephanie. Ako na yung nag-adjust sa kanilang dalawa.
Maybe he was just lying that he was looking for me. Because why the hell he would look for me when I already sign our annulment paper.
Wala naman akong utang sa kaniya para hanapin niya pa ako.
Napatingin ako kay Lyra ng magsalita siya.
"Utang jpeg.", she said na ikinalaki ng mata ko.
Napalakas ata ang pagkakasabi ko dahil narinig niya ito.
Mayamaya pa ay biglang nagbago ang expression niya habang nakatingin sa phone niya.
"Gaga ka ano tong sinasabi ni Lucien na miss ko na siya", she said that made me laugh.
Pinakita niya pa sakin ang phone niya.
From Lucien panget:
Miss mo na daw ako?
Natawa ako sa nakalagay na pangalan ni Lucien sa contacts niya.
“Gwapo kaya si Lucien”, I've said habang tinataas ang isang kilay ko.
“San banda”, she said.
“Sus di pa aminin na nagagwapuhan siya kay Lucien”, I've said as I stick my tongue to her.
“Ang pangit kaya niya”, she said.
“Pangit pero naging jowa”, I've said.
“Bata pa ko nun”, she said that made me laugh.
“Sus aminin mo na kase na nagagwapuhan ka kay Lucien. Hindi ko naman sasabihin sa kaniya.”, I've said.
“Hindi nga siya gwapo”, she said.
“You've been lying to yourself”, pakanta kong sabi agad niya naman akong sinamaan ng tingin.
Nagkatinginan kami ng muling tumunog ang cellphone niya. Nakisilip na rin ako sa phone niya and again it was Lucien.
From Lucien panget:
Uwi ako bukas misis ko
“tang*na”, rinig kong sabi niya
"Yieee uwi na daw siya bukas sayo", I've said habang tinutusok ko ang bewang niya.
"Oh please stop", she said as she roll her eyes at me.
“Hindi na talaga ako magugulat pagnagkabalikan kayo. Halata naman na in love pa kayo sa isa't-isa. ”, I've said.
“Hindi na kami magkakabalikan”, she said.
“Ayy di mo sure”, I've said.
"Alam mo itulog mo na yan", she said as she went to her room.
Natatawa naman na pumasok ako sa kwarto ko.
By the way kaya pala umalis ka-agad si Lucien dahil luluwas siya sa Maynila ngayong gabi.
Ang sira-ulong yun CEO pala ng kompaniya nila. Pumunta siya rito para sa pinapatayo niyang business.
Ang tinatawag niya pa lang papa dito ay ang dati nilang driver.
Sinabi niya sa akin ito through text.
Hindi ko din ma-gets kung bakit nangingisda siya eh mayaman naman pala siya.
Naghilamos muna ako bago ako nahiga sa kama ko para matulog na.
Maaga akong nagising kinabukasan kaya naisipan kong magluto ng almusal namin ni Lyra.
I just cooked bacon and fried rice.
Hindi naman nagtagal ay nagising na rin si Lyra.
“Uyy nagluto ka na”, she said.
“Ay hindi pa”, I've said.
She just roll her eyes at me.
Pagkatapos naming mag-almusal ay naglakad-lakad muna kami sa may dalampasigan para mag bilad sa araw dahil maaga pa naman.
Lyra was taking a picture of the sunrise. She also take a picture of me.
We took a selfie too our background was the sunrise in the beach.
“How I wish my daughter is here”, she said that made me look at her.
“You have a daughter?”, I asked.
Nanlaki naman ang mata niya ng tumingin siya sa akin.
“Actually it was my sister daughter”, she said.
“Oh okay”, I've said buti na lang anak pala yun ng ate niya dahil kawawa si Lucien kapag totoong may anak na siya.
“My sister died after she gave birth to her daughter”, she said that made me gasp.
“I'm sorry to hear that”, I've said.
Mabilis lamang na lumipas ang oras ngayon ay nanood kami ng movie sa netflix ng biglang bumukas ang pintuan at pumasok ang naka-suit pang si Lucien.
“Misis ko I'm back”, he said sabay lapit niya kay Lyra at bigla na lamang itong niyakap.
Here they go again.
“Bitaw Lucien”, rinig kong sabi ni Lyra.
And Lucien being the mapang-asar ay mas lalo pang hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap kay Lyra.
“P*ta bibitaw ka o sisipain kita”, she said.
“Kala ko ba namiss mo ko”, Lucien said.
“I didn't say that”, Lyra said.
Hyst I can feel that this two will cause me to be stressed.
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The time passed like a blur next thing I know I am seven months pregnant. I still don't know the gender of my baby since I don't want to have an ultrasound.
I want to know the gender of my baby after I gave birth. Because I want it to be surprised.
For the past seven months Lucien didn't leave me. He was always there for me. He was the one who buy for my cravings.
Si Lyra muna ang pinagbantay ko sa shop kaya minsan ay hindi na siya umuuwi dito dahil doon na siya natutulog sa opisina sa shop ko.
Pansin ko rin ang pagiging mailap niya kay Lucien sa mga nagdaang buwan.
FLASHBACKS
I remember it was midnight and I'm craving for turon then I called Lucien.
Lucien dialing...
After three rings he answered the phone.
“Hello”, he said.
“Hi did I disturbed your sleep”, I asked.
“Ahh no”, he said.
“So what the baby wants this time”, he said that made me chuckle.
“The baby wants turon ni Aling Teressa”, I've said.
Rinig ko naman ang pagtawa niya sa kabilang linya.
“But it's already midnight”, he said.
Agad naman akong ngumuso dahil tama siya.
It's already 12:30am.
“I'll go there then I'll cook na lang okay”, he said.
“Okay”, I've said while pouting.
Minutes later I heard a knock on my door. Agad akong tumayo at pinagbuksan si Lucien na dala ang saging at ang lumpia wrapper.
“Hey”, he said.
“Hi, I'm sorry to disturb you”, I've said as I chuckled.
“It's okay”, he said at agad ng pumasok.
Sabay kaming nagpunta sa kusina. Naupo ako sa may lamesa habang siya naman ay hinahanda na ang turon na lulutuin.
Akma akong tutulong ng pigilan niya ako kaya hinayaan ko na lamang siya at hindi na nakipag-talo pa.
Mayamaya pa ay nilapag niya na sa harapan ko ang mga niluto niyang turon.
Agad naman akong tumayo para kumuha ng tinidor dahil takam na takam na talaga ako.
“Finally”, I've said habang kinakain ang turon na niluto niya.
Ramdam ko naman ang pagtitig niya sa akin ngunit hindi ko na lamang ito pinansin at nagpatuloy lamang sa pagkain ko.
Nanlaki ang mata ko ng may biglang nagflash sa harapan ko.
“Lucien”, sigaw ko tumawa lamang siya at pilit na nilalayo ang cellphone niya sa akin upang hindi ko ito maabot.
“I'm going to post this”, he said as he typed something on his phone.
“Don't do that”, I've said ngunit tinawanan niya lamang ako.
END OF FLASHBACK
Honestly it wasn't easy for me living alone here in palawan. But I'm glad that Lucien and Lyra is here kahit talo pa nila ang aso't-pusa kung mag-away kapag magkasama.
There are times that I wanted to go back to Manila and beg for Apollo to choose me instead of Stephanie.
There are times that I will cry without a reason. Maybe because of my hormones since I'm pregnant.
But then I learned on how I will coped up with that problem of mine. And luckily I survived it.
Every month I take a picture of me. I also did the maternity shoot.
And right now I'm taking a mirror shot of myself while showing my tummy.
“Huwag mong papahirapan si mommy baby”, mahinang sabi ko habang hinahaplos ang tiyan ko.
“Ilang buwan na lang mahahawakan na kita.
And I can't wait to hold you”, muli kong bulong habang patuloy na hinahaplos ang tiyan ko.
Sa totoo lang ay kinakabahan ako dahil paano kung hindi ako maging mabuting Ina sa kaniya?.
Sa bawat araw na lumipas ay lagi kong tinatanong ang sarili ko. Kaya ko ba siyang palakihin ng maayos kahit wala ang tulong ng daddy niya.
Magagabayan ko kaya siya ng ako lang mag-isa.
Napalingon ako sa may likuran ko ng may nagsalita mula rito.
It was my mom.
“Hey, what are you thinking princess?”, my mom asked me.
“Mom sa totoo lang natatakot ako, paano kung hindi ko siya magabayan ng maayos?. Paano kung hindi ko siya mapalaki ng tama? Kaya ko ba mom?, I asked her.
“You know what princess it is normal to feel nervous and afraid because it is your first time being a mom. And trust me you can do it.”, she said.
“Besides your dad and me will always be here to guide you”, she said that made me cry.
“Naalala ko pa noon nung ipinagbubuntis kita. Sobra din yung naramdaman kong takot nun. Kase hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko, kung paano kita aalagaan, kung paano kita gagabayan habang lumalaki ka”, she said.
“But looking at you now I know that I raised you well. I know that I raised a brave woman. I'm so sorry for pushing you to the modeling industry when you were just 15”, she said.
“It's okay mom”, I've said.
Mayamaya pa ay naki-singit na rin sa amin si papa.
“Isali niyo rin ako”, he said as he hug me and my mom.
Natawa kami ng hindi na ako mayakap ni daddy dahil medyo sagabal na ang tiyan ko dahil malaki na ito.
I felt my dad lips on my forehead that made me close my eyes for a moment.
When I open my eyes again I saw my dad kissing my mom on her forehead too while whispering some words that made my mom giggle.
I'm happy that even my mom and my dad grow old they are still madly inlove with each other.
Everytime I look at my parents I can see love in their eyes.
And everyday I always hear my dad telling my mom how much he loves her.
I wish I have a relationship like them but then what can I do?.
All I can do now is to accept the fact that I will never experienced the kind of love that my parents have.
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