Selena's POV:
"That's it, selena. How do you like it?" Mabel asked.
"Perfect! So it's set for tomorrow right?"
"Yup. Tomorrow evening. You can get some rest now, you have been working from early morning."
"Yeah, thanks."
We locked the studio and I got back to my living room. I fell onto the couch and let out a tired sigh.
I turned on the TV and was surfing through the channels. I stopped when I saw a music channel playing Y/N and camila's song. To be honest I havent listened to it yet. It was released on the same day me and Y/N broke up. I would'nt exactly call it a break up but anyways. I wanted to skip the channel but my fingers froze. There was noone around so I decided not to skip.
Ah-ah, hey-hey
Ah-ah, ah-ah
Ah-ah, hey-hey
Ah-ah, ah-ah
He knows
Dirty secrets that I keep
Does he know it's killing me?
He knows, he knows
D-d-does he know
Another's hands have touched my skin?
I won't tell him where I've been
He knows, he knows, he knows
The song started with Camila's voice.
It's tearing me apart
She's slipping away (I'm slipping away)
Am I just hanging on to all the words she used to say?
Damn I love Y/N's voice. I-I mean-
The pictures on her phone
She's not coming home (I'm not coming home)
Coming home, coming home
I know what you did last summer (ah-ah)
Just lied to me, "There's no other" (hey-hey)
I know what you did last summer
Tell me where you've been
I know what you did-
(Song: I know what you did last summer
~Camila cabello & Shawn mendes)
I was so lost in his voice- I mean I was so lost in song that I didn't heard someone joining me.
"Good Evening Sele-" raquelle sat beside me. She trailed off in surprise when she saw what I was watching. I quickly grabbed the remote and pressed random buttons to change the channel and I turned off the TV in a bit panic.
'Shit! She saw it!' I cussed myself.
"Hey-Hi-Hi- Raquelle. Where were you?" I chuckled nervously.
"What were you watching?" She scrunched her brows.
"I-uh-I was watching sports." I said
"You were watching Y/N's Music video." She said in a low concerned voice.
"I-was not. Dont take his name I told you like a million times already." I pointed at her furiously.
"Fuck You! I cant take his name but you can watch his songs secretly!" She was clearly offended.
"I-uh- I wasnt watching his song! It just showed up. I was surfing channels." I said.
"Dont fucking lie to me!"
'Fuck What do I say?'
I was looking away when I saw gracie going somewhere.
"Hey grace!" I called.
"Yeah?" She walked to where Me and Raquelle were sitting. Raquelle gave me a death glare. I ignored her.
"Where are you going?" I asked gracie.
"Out,With my friends." She shrugged.
"Everyday? What are you girls doing?" I asked.
"Sorry but it is None of your business." She crossed her arms.
"Its not safe grace. Tell me where are you going with your friends." I raised my voice.
"It is safe! My friend's brother is babysitting us and he is so sweet. And I have mom's permission so you cant do anything." She shrugged.
"I wanna meet this brother. Take me." I said.
"No no no you cant."
"Why not?" I asked.
"Uhm-He-Uhm-we are- no you just cant."
"Now thats suspicious. I am coming with you." I got up from my place.
"Selena!" My mom called.
"Yes mom?"
"I need your help here." She yelled from her room.
"Okay Mom!" I sighed and looked at gracie.
"Oopsie! Next time Sis!" She said and ran away, laughing.
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"Selena." Raquelle called me when I was entering my room.
"Urgh! What now?"
"I want to talk." She said.
"About what?" I sighed.
"What the hell happened to you Sel? Why are you behaving like this?"
"Alright, I am sorry. I am just tired. I just need some rest." I said.
"Just tell me one thing selena?"
"What?"
"I know you still love him." She said.
"Says who?" I chuckled
"You can't hide those feelings sel. I have seen it."
"Well, try again cuz I don't believe what you've seen."
"Why did you guys broke up?"
"I dont want to talk about him!" I went to my room and locked the door angrily.
"The hell Selena! Come outside right now!" Raquelle banged on the door.
"I am done with you both. I can't see you both hurting yourselves! Just come out and talk to me." She yelled.
'Y/N is hurting himself!' I wondered.
"I know you care about him Sel." Her tone was low and tired.
"He is so messed up. He's broken. He is doing things which he isn't supposed to."
"Why do you think I care?" I said. Without opening the door.
"I know you better than anyone else. He loves you Sel, and only you. And only you can bring back the real Y/N."
"What if I don't want to?" I asked.
"What happened Sel? Wh-"
"He cheated on me Raquelle! He fucking cheated!" I yelled.
"No. No. He cant-No- He did not. I am sure it's a misunderstanding. He will never. I know him." Raquelle said. Her voice was shaky.
"I knew you wouldn't believe it. I am going to sleep. Good Night!"
"No no no selena. I am sorry. Talk to me please. Tell me what he did." She knocked continuously. I ignored her. She tried her best but I was stubborn. The knocks were silent eventually as raquelle left.
'I am sorry raquelle. I dont want to talk about it. You both have an amzing bond and I don't want to ruin it.' I cried.
'I still dont understand why would he do that or am I wrong in this. He is hurting himself? Why? What does it mean? Does it mean that he only loves me? But those photos aren't lying.'
These questions rips my heart everytime. 'I miss you Y/N. I don't want you to hurt yourself.'
I kept changing my positions, hoping to fall asleep but it didnt worked. I looked at my phone, it was not even 9 yet. I thought I would fall asleep as I was tired and working all day. I got up from my bed, groaning in annoyance. I plugged in my earphones and went out for a walk in my garden.
Sitting on the bench,listening to my favorite music and looking at the night sky relived me a little bit.
Then a song started playing.
You're fighting me off like a firefighter
So tell me why you still get burned
You say you're not, but you're still a liar
'Cause I'm the one that you run to first
I totally forgot that I had Y/N's songs in my playlist.
Every time, yeah
Why do you try to deny it
When you show up every night
And tell me that you want me but it's complicated
So complicated
When it hurts but it hurts so good
Do you take it?
Do you break it off?
When it hurts but it hurts so good
Can you say it?
Can you say it?
(Song: Hurts so good
~Astrid S)
I was totally lost in his voice. Those lyrics were hitting so hard.
I stopped the song when I heard a car driving into my mansion and Garcie climbed out of it. That car was familiar to me. Even though we were at a distance and it was dark, I know whose car it is. She kept talking with the person in the car and suddenly stopped. They both noticed me I guess cuz the moment gracie turned and looked at me, the car drove away in full speed.
Gracie ignored me and instead walked towards the house, looking down.
I ran past her and caught up before she entered.
"Who were you with?" I asked.
"How many times do I have to say I was with my friend and her brother dropped me."
"Dont play with me. I know who he was. You are so screwed now!" I gently caught her arm and stormed inside.
"Mom! Can we talk please!" I called out loud.
"Why cant I hang out with people I love?" Gracie asked sadly.
"We never stopped you from anything grace. I dont want you to be in a wrong company."
"He is the best person I've ever met." She said proudly.
"Well, let's see what mom has to say about this." I crossed my arms.