Delaney
I open my eyes when I felt a warm palm on my cheeks only to see Natalia sobbing while closing her eyes. She's humming while caressing my cheeks.
Then the scene earlier popped up into my mind. I suddenly felt guilty. I hold her hand that's caressing my cheeks that made her open her eyes and looked me in the eyes---painfully.
Her eyes are so teary, at napakapula ng ilalim nito. Mas lalo tuloy akong na-guilty.
"I-I'm sorry for what I---" She cut me off using her lips.
It was just a smack for me to shut my mouth. And I did.
"It's fine. It's my fault."
"No, it's my fault. And I'm sorry for using foul words. I didn't mean to hurt your feelings."
"I said it's fine."
"Miss?"
"Hmm?"
"Let's stop this."
She stopped on caressing my cheeks after I say it. She just stared at me confusingly.
"Maybe we're being toxic here. It's the right thing to do, baka mas lumala pa sa susunod." I said. Pero nagulat ako when her tears fell down.
I immediately wiped it. Umayos ako ng upo, inabot ang noo niya and kissed her there.
"Ma'am, hindi mo deserve ang ka-fubu lang. Find someone na mamahalin at aalagaan ka. Kung masarap ang may ka-fubu, masarap at masaya ang may minamahal ng totoo." I said as I caressed her cheeks.
"Are you dumb?"
"Am I what?"
"Are you dumb not to notice that I like you?" And there, mas humagulhol na siya ng iyak.
"Miss Natalia, it is not the time to play around." I seriously stated.
"Do you think I am just playing around?" She looked directly into my eyes. I can see that she's hurt. Pero bakit?
"Maybe."
"You really are dumb, Bautista."
"I just don't want to ruin your reputation, Miss. That's crazy of you to tell that you like me. You are my Professor and I am your student. It isn't right. If you like tripping into someone's feelings, please po, 'wag ako." And right after I said that, umalis na ako sa bed ko at walang pasabing lumabas na ng clinic.
Ang bobo ng mga pinagsasabi ko. Napaka-hindi makatotohanan. T*ngina ang bobo ko talaga. Hindi ko na lang sinabing I like Miss Celestine.
Ayaw ko lang talagang humaba pa ang pag-uusapan namin. Basta nasabi ko na ang gusto kong sabihin.
Buti nga nakakuha ako ng opportunity to escape from her games. Ayaw ko na ng ganoong set up. Gusto ko rin maramdaman na minamahal ng totoo. Hindi yung sex lang ang habol sa 'yo.
I did had a great time with Natalia. Pero mas mabuti ng tinapos ko na ng maaga 'no. I really don't want to ruin her reputation. Magiging malaki ang impact sa kanya if may makaalam at kumalat ang namamagitan sa amin kung sakali. Okay lang naman kung ako lang, huwag lang siya.
She's already broke and I don't want to see her broke into pieces even more.
I am not dumb. Alam ko at ramdam ko yun. Ang kaso hindi ko lang talaga siya gusto. Siguro kung walang nangyari sa amin siya ang magugustuhan ko. Or baka kung hindi sumulpot sa istorya si Miss Celestine, siguro siya ang magugustuhan ko.
Gusto mo mang subukan, to like her back, pero hindi e. Ayaw kong masaktan lang siya kapag wala talaga. Aasa lang siya kung sakali. Atleast ngayon I ended everything na. Tsaka, nagiging toxic na rin kami sa isa't-isa. Ayaw ko nang masigawan siya. Ayaw ko nang bastusin pa siya.