~Chapter 11~
what's it worth
Chases POV:
Dr.Jones: "we have your scans, Charli"
Her scans? They have them? Her scans determine whether the chemo has been working or failing.
She has been through 2 terrible rounds of chemo. I really really hope they weren't for nothing. I really hope her tumor has gotten smaller.
If not... I don't know. I just don't know.
Charli: "you have my scans?? Well what are you waiting for? Show me!"
Maybe we should wait for Delilah and Ivan to come back from work. I feel like this is important
Chase: "should we wait-"
Charli: "No. No. I need to see the scans. I can't wait any longer."
I can tell she's nervous. I would be too. Well- I am. It would be nice to have some good news after everything she's been through.
Chase: "Are you sure."
She quickly nodded
The doctors came in and put the scans up to show her, I didn't know how to read CT scans so I didn't know what to think
Dr.Jones: "unfortunately... your tumor hasn't gotten any smaller..."
Fuck?! Seriously! Nothing? So basically she did all this for nothing. Absolutely nothing? Nothing has changed??
Dr.jones: "but the good news is, it hasn't gotten any bigger either"
It will get bigger if we don't do something that will work.
I looked at Charli and she didn't look sad or angry. She looked nothing
Chase: "so what is this? A scam? Jesus. You guys put her on every drug you own and nothing has happened?? I'm just wondering how much stronger this chemo can get. Because so far the cancer isn't killing her, the only thing that's killing her is you! She has been through hell and you guys can't even do your job-"
I felt charli squeeze my hand. I looked at her and the look she gave me made me burst into tears
Chase: "I'm sorry"
I said to the doctors
Chase: "please don't take that personally"
I don't know what else to do. Who else to blame.
Dr.Jones: "this isn't terrible news. It means it isn't getting any bigger. That isn't bad. We still have a plan. We will continue with the chemo-radiation therapy until we see progress."
More chemo that might not work? They're gonna kill her.
Chase: "and what if the chemo therapy doesn't work."
Dr.jones: "If that doesn't work, we will do surgery if you are willing. We really hope it doesn't come down to that."
Why not?
Charli: "why can't I have the surgery now?"
Dr.jones: "the surgery to remove that tumor is very dangerous and there's a good chance you won't make it. Your body isn't strong enough to take it yet. If you had the surgery now, the odds wouldn't be in your favour."
When have they been in her favour?
Charli: "okay. Thanks"
The doctors took the scans and left the room
Chase: "are you okay?"
She shook her head
Charli: "I did everything... all the pain I went through, I never gave up because I thought... I thought it would give me a result... anything... but nothing? Nothing happened... it was all for nothing"
It wasn't for nothing. It's a start.
Chase: "the chemo is working. I think if it wasn't working, it would have been spreading. It will get easier"
I hope it will...
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Delilah: "You aren't thinking properly! It's 3AM?? You can't just make those decisions!"
Well I am making the decision??
Delilah: "you can't just postpone the wedding?? We've already sent all the invites, we have everything planned for that day?? It isn't an option."
she can't force me to get married then? I don't want to have the wedding yet.
Chase: "you're sister is dying! And she isn't getting better. I think we have more important things to do. Don't you?"
The wedding is the least of my concerns right now.
Chase: "I can't get married knowing Charli isn't getting better."
She groaned
Delilah: "You think this is easy for me? You think I don't care about my sister? No?! Of course I care. But if we're only gonna get married when her cancer is better, we might never get married!"
Really? She's got no hope at all?
Chase: "maybe Il take that chance."
She scoffed
Delilah: "You did not just say that??"
I did.
Chase: "listen Del, either you postpone the wedding or there will be no wedding"
Delilah: "either you stop talking this crap or we are done?"
She can't seriously be saying that.
Chase: "I seriously can't deal with you right now."
I grabbed my coat off the coat rack
Delilah: "oh great so you're just leaving. Of course you are."
Chase: "We will talk later."
I put on my shoes
Delilah: "where are you even going??"
Chase: "the hospital"
Probably not a great idea to rant to Charli about her sister but I got no one else.
Delilah: "why are you always at the hospital!"
Chase: "because you're not!"
Maybe if she took off some days at work once in awhile, she'd have time to see her dying sister.
Delilah: "don't use that tone on me. Unlike some people, I have to make a living so we can afford to live?!"
I opened the front door then slammed it behind me
I really don't want to fight with her. The only reason I want to postpone the wedding is so I can be present. I want to give her the wedding she deserves and she doesn't deserve for me to be thinking of something else during our wedding.
Charlis POV:
Someone knocked on the door to my room-
It's the middle of the night- who is here?
And was it that important it was worth waking me up for? I mean- I wasn't sleeping. But I easily could've been.
Charli: "come in"
I'm gonna hope it's not a murder
The door opened revealing Chase.
He didn't look great.
Why is he here this late?
Charli: "what are you doing here."
He usually does stay the night. everyone does after they are done work. But some nights they don't. And I'm left all alone. Tonight was one of those nights so I expected him to be at Delilah's.
Chase: "I don't know where else to go"
Home?
Charli: "what happened?"
Why can't he go to his house?
Chase: "Delilah and I just had a fight. We'll be fine though. Il probably end up being the one who gives in."
So I'm guessing he doesn't want to tell me what the fight was about.
I patted down on the spot next to me
Charli: "come here"
He walked over and sat next to me on the bed
He pulled an arm around me
Charli: "you want to talk about it?"
He shook his head
Chase: "not really. It wasn't even that big of a deal. I just feel like she's always in control of everything. I never get to make choices."
He looked up at my heart rate monitor and his eyes widened
Chase: "Char, your heart rates up like crazy?? Are you okay?"
Yeah I'm fine.
Charli: "no it's fine. That happens sometimes."
He looked confused
Chase: "okay? Well... tell me how your feeling... about everything."
I don't know how I'm feeling. That's probably why I'm up right now at almost 4AM doing nothing.
Charli: "I feel... alone... and I feel like I have no one... I know I know. That's
not true because you are here. But when I'm alone at night I think about what will happen if my battle with cancer carries on for years? Who will still be waiting then."
No one.
Chase: "are you kidding me? Of course I will be there. this could take 10 days or this could take 10 years. I don't care. I will be there every step of the way. I will always be here for you."
He looked up at the monitor
Chase: "are you sure you're okay? You're heart rate is increasing"
I'm fine.
Charli: "I'm good"
Chase: "okay. Can I get the lights. I kinda just want to go to bed"
I nodded as he stood up and turned off the lights.
The only light left in the room was the monitor. It was pretty bright so it shined a small bit of light on me. The room wasn't pitch black, I could see a small bit.
Chase walked back and sat on a chair
Charli: "I know you like to have back problems but you can lay on the bed if you want."
He stays here most nights for me, so I might as well let him sleep on the bed
Chase: "really? Thanks"
He got onto the bed and then under the covers. We both got on our sides and faced each other.
We stared at each other for a few minutes saying nothing
Chase: "I always want you to know you're never alone. Ever. And no matter what happens between Delilah and I, I'm not going anywhere."
One of his legs went touched mine
He looked up at my heart monitor
then looked back down
Charli: "I never really hated you, you know... You did something to me... and I hated what you did... but I never hated you. I know you hated me... but I get it. I was a bitch to you."
His hand moved to my thigh. I froze.
Chase: "the moment I saw you walk into the diner that day, I knew I could never hate you."
He pulled my thigh up and I wrapped my leg around him
Chase: "even though you were a real bitch to me"
I laughed
He moved his hand to my face running his thumb cheek
Chase: "you're gorgeous"
I said nothing to that.
My heart race said it itself.
His face inched closer to mine until we were eye to eye. Our eyes locked to each other. I didn't want to look away. I knew I should've.
He broke our eye contact to look up at my heart rate.
Chase: "This would ruin everything you know..."
He whispered
I nodded
Chase: "It would destroy our friendship and completely destroy our relationships..."
I couldn't do anything but nod
Chase: "are you sure it's worth it"
Before I even answered we both leaned into each other, both his hands around my neck pulled me closer. Was it worth it? Probably not. But I wasn't thinking about the future. I was thinking about now. I was thinking about how much I wanted his lips on mine. How long id been waiting for the impossible.
Our foreheads connected, his lips so close to mine I could feel his breathing against me. We both stayed like that, I tried to think of what would happen if we kissed but all I could think of is how much I wanted to kiss.
The next thing I know our lips were sealed together moving slowly against each other, I couldn't stop it. And I didn't want to.
I never knew how deep my feelings for Chase were until this very moment.
I pulled out then back in for more. His tongue entered my mouth. I couldn't get enough. My hands reached his hair pulling him closer to me, pushing his tongue deeper into my mouth.
I'd never felt such a great kiss in my life.
He kissed me so aggressive yet so soft. I needed more.
We pulled back and pulled back in, I don't know how many times. But every time I thought it was over, he pulled me back for more and I didn't complain.
I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and as he kissed me passionately. I wondered if he kissed Delilah like he kissed me.
Just thinking about it sent a feeling of jealousy through me.
I was completely out of breath but that didn't stop me from taking more. His lips began moving gently across mine, he had complete control over me.
Eventually it ended. I don't know when. The entire thing was a blur. He was left with red and swollen lips as he drifted asleep next to me. I closed my eyes and fell asleep before the guilt caught up to me. Before I could start thinking about what I'd done. What we'd done.
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I woke up in the morning and immediately got flashbacks of a few hours prior.
I looked to my side to find the bed empty. I sat up and looked around the room and nothing.
He was gone.
A/n
It's about time 😄
dammnn The betrayal is real
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