We physically couldn't get into our driveway, so we parked the car on the street.
"I'll get the bags later" Stefan says as he helps me out of the car. I wanted to get some rest but instead I am going to have to break a party up. We walk inside the house and walked passed people kissing, drinking, grinding.
God I want to throw up more
We finally found Elijah but I didn't expect to see this. My eyes widen in horror, watching him roll the dollar bill up and placing it close to his nose. On the table next to him is a line of white powder. I expected my kids to do weed, I did it at their age but never expected for my son to do coke.
"What the hell are you doing?" Stefan asked, pulling him up from the seat. His eyes widen, shocked he got busted. I found where the speaker was connected, unplugging it, and go over to turn on the lights
"Everyone get the fuck out of my house, now!" Stefan screamed as kids start filing out. I look back to what I was going to see, eyeing the coke. I wasn't going to snort it, I had no intentions to but it haunts me.
"Lexie, hey it's okay. Go upstairs and check on the other two" Stefan said getting me out of my trance. He knows I'm going in a spiral seeing this because addiction runs in the family and I can't have the kids messing around. I go upstairs and go to Anthony's room first, he is still up playing on his ipad
"Ant man what are you doing?" I said in fake shocking tone.
"Nothing" he giggled putting his ipad away.
"It is way past your bedtime" I replied
"Elijah and Ella said I can stay up and play on my Ipad if I didn't tell you that they are throwing a party" He said
"Well they are going to be in big trouble and you need to go to bed" I replied
"Fine" he sighed, handing me his Ipad. I turned on his fan and turned his night light on. I closed the door and headed to Madeline's room. I opened the door
"No one is allowed in here" she shouted as her back is toward the door.
"It's mom" I replied
"Oh, you're back" she swiveled her chair, turning around to see me
"What did the twins give you in order to stay shut?" I questioned
"They bought me two hundred dollars worth of fabric" she replied
"Downstairs, now" I said pointing to the door. She groaned and got up following me out. I went downstairs to find the twins both sitting on the couch knowing they are going to be in big trouble.
"You threw a party? Are you guys insane?" Stefan questioned
"It was a small one" Ella replied
"Definitely small, our driveway was filled with teenagers and we couldn't park our car, the living room and family room was filled with kids and don't get me started about the kitchen" Stefan said
"When did you start the drugs?" I asked speaking up softly. I had no energy to yell right now.
"It was one time, it's just coke" Elijah said
"Just coke? Just fucking coke? It's just molly mom, it's just heroine mom, it's just oxy mom, it's just death mom?" My voice started rising, I know my blood pressure is too.
"I'm sorry" Elijah mumbled
"Ella, did you do it too?" I asked. She stayed silent, signaling she did do it too. "God you guys are so fucking stupid" I yelled pacing back and forth
"Lexie" Stefan said looking at me.
"No, I am not holding back. Do you know why I say not to do drugs?" I questioned looking at them. They had their heads down not wanting to look up. "Look at me!", their heads shot up.
"Because addiction runs in this family, I was addicted to oxy at the age of 16 and have been struggling this battle with it. I have relapsed a couple of times from the age of 16 to now. When your father died, I almost relapsed, a year after I did end up relapsing and the other times I try to blur it out." I said trying to keep my cool
"You're an addict?" Madeline questioned
"Recovered addict" I corrected her
"We didn't know" Ella said
"Because I kept it a secret, I don't want you guys to see me as an addict. I don't expect you to never try drugs, I expected maybe weed but not coke." I replied
"We're sorry, we won't do it again" Elijah said
"Yeah you wont, because not only is that it can be addicting but it will cause hole in your nose that you can never get fixed and it looks disgusting" I scared them trying to use that tactic
"Good, now you two, grounded for two months. That means you will get your license in November, I pointed to the twins "and you grounded for 2 weeks for letting your siblings bribe you and not telling me" pointing to Madeline. "And don't fucking argue with me. I am not in the mood and I want this house to be spotless in the morning" I yelled as I depart the family room. I go upstairs and change into my pajamas and collapsed on my bed.
"I brought electrolytes, and medicine" Stefan said as he entered my room.
"Thank you" I replied, sitting up. I grabbed the bottle and tried to keep down the liquid but I am not able to
"Come on, you need to drink it." He said, pushing the drink closer to me forcing me to drink it.
"I just want to sleep" I replied pushing the drink away after a couple of sips.
"Ok, but I'm gonna stay in here in case anything happens" he said. I was too lazy to argue and decide to let him. I slept on my normal side, and him on his just like what we used to do.
"Am I bad mother?" I questioned shifting around so I faced him
"Hey, no you are an amazing mother" Stefan replied trying to comfort me. It feels like I'm a bad mother.
"I was barely there for the kids and now they are doing drugs. I feel like I'm a bad mom" I said feeling the urge to cry.
"Don't think it's your fault, it's my fault. If I didn't leave, you would still be modeling and spending your time with the kids and me and your friends. I know you feel like your world fell apart and it's true but don't blame yourself for this, please don't" he begged shaking his head. I could feel the tears slowly fall down, as I quickly wipe it away. "We will fix this, don't worry" he smiled as he wipes away the stray tears. "Now please sleep, you need it"
I eventually did fall asleep and didn't wake up to throw up. In the morning I found myself alone, looking around. The bathroom door opened to reveal Stefan coming out of a fresh shower with his wet hair.
"How are you feeling?" He asked setting the towel down onto the chair
"A bit better, still feel weak" I replied
"I will bring some food and tea upstairs, you just relax" he said as he walks out. After 20 minutes, he brought a tray with some toast with jelly, fruit and a cup of tea.
"Eat all of it, I'll put on your favorite show" he said grabbing the remote, putting on new girl.
"Thank you for all of this" I said
"I wanted to make up our weekend. Now eat" he instructed as I slowly start to eat. Stefan sat with me as I ate the food and watching new girl with me. Once I finally finish, I decided to go downstairs to see if the house is clean. As I approach the floor I see it is clean, looking around the trash is gone and the furniture is back to its original spots.
"They actually listen" I said impressed with the work they did.
"They did and they regret doing the drugs. They explained in the morning what their mindset was and they are going to steer away from drugs because they don't want to become addicts" he replied
"I'm good they regret it, I just don't want them to go through what I did. All of those days where I couldn't do anything because how high I was, or where I had to get clean and wanting to die. I couldn't let them go through that" I said
"And that's why you're a good mom, you care for them so much. You want to protect them and give them a better life than what you had. Although sometimes it doesn't feel that way. You aren't perfect but you try your best" he explained, making me feel better. I just want best for my kids.
The rest of the day consisted of Stefan helping me get better. I talked to the kids and they apologized profusely and I accepted it but they're still grounded.
September
The twins birthday is today and they planned it all out of they want. They wanted a bouncey house with a slide and carnival games in the backyard. We went all out of their 16th and hopefully it's what they imagined. Stefan has moved back into the main house and we have talked a lot about renewing the vows in December and it's nice having him back.
"You ready for the party?" Stefan asked
"Yup, I honestly might take over the bouncey house" I chuckled
"Me too, I'll see you in there" he laughed as we walk outside, everything is being set up and it's going great so far. Originally the twins were going to get one of our cars for their birthday but because of the party we decided against it. They didn't need a brand new car and we had some that needed to be used more often.
"People should be arriving soon, I am going to put my party clothes on" Stefan said
"I'll come with, I want to change" I replied tagging along
"Why, I love the dress" he whined
"No, it's because you like the easy access" I chuckled, walking up the stairs. I decided to change into a cute romper because if I do end up going in the bouncey house, I don't need to flash anyone. Once I finished changing, I went downstairs as I see my family arrived first. I greeted them and I saw them eyeing the bouncey house
"When all of the twins friends leave, we're taking over" I said putting their minds at ease
"Good, I haven't been in one in ages" Jenna replied. More people started coming and it was a full on party now. The kids were having an amazing time, I love seeing them happy and being surrounded by family and friends.
By the end of the night, my family and I drunk asses were in the bouncey house laughing and falling. It is definitely worth getting one of these for my 50th.
"This was an amazing birthday party, plan my kids next" Jenna said
"I will if you ever have a free day" I chuckled making fun of Jenna for never having time off.
"Hey I have to bring home the money now since Mr. job quitter decided to quit his job" she pointed to Aaron
"Hey with our savings, you can retire right now" he sassed
"Yeah and be with you the whole day, I rather move to Antarctica" she laughed making Aaron let out a gasp. We spent the rest of the night in here until they decided to go home. It was getting late and I am very tired
"Come on Cherie, let's go to bed" Stefan picked me up bridal style and hauled me up the stairs
"I love you" I smiled kissing his cheek
"I love you too" he replied kissing me back. We fell asleep cuddled together in our clothes we forgot to change out of.
December
Christmas was coming up and I was very excited to spend it properly with Stefan. It was amazing having him back and I realized he is the one for me. I didn't find this type of love when we was gone and I know he hurt me but he is my one true love.
"So i got the twins car cleaned and took it to the dealership to make sure it's in perfect shape" Stefan interrupted my thoughts as he places the keys on the beside table
"Good, they are going to love their gifts. Do you think they'll fight over which car they want?" I questioned.
"Duh, they're twins. They will fight over everything" he replied rolling his eyes. Since we decided to give them our old cars, we didn't have any of the same brand that they can drive so we decided to give them my Mercedes and Stefan's BMW. I have Stefan's gift ready for Christmas but I want to give it now so it's our special thing and it can be a surprise for the twins
"I have a early Christmas present for you" I handed him the little envelope I made.
"What is it?" He questioned eyeing it suspiciously
"Open it" I ushered him as he rips open the envelope revealing a little card.
"Please join us for Alexis and stefan Aveline's vow renewal on December 27th" he read out loud looking at the card
"So are you going to be there?" I asked with a cheeky smile knowing he's going to say yes
"Are you joking, of course I will" he replied as he picked me up, spinning me around. I let out a squeal not expecting that.
"I cant believe we're gonna do this" he said
"You better start writing your vows, you don't have that much time mon amour" i replied
"I'm already thinking about them" he replied giving me a kiss.
We're finally doing this
A/n
Hey guys, ready for the last chapter? What will happen next, see you next time byeeeee
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