After the dinner date, Arnav avoided Kushi like a plague. He doesn't want any kind of interaction with her right now. Inside he is bubbling with rage with himself for allowing Kushi to make a soft corner in his heart. He doesn't want to make a bigger damage. He spoke to his mother regarding cancelling the marriage. Right now he is ok with marriage but really not ok with marrying KUSHI
Maa, I am not telling no to the marriage. I will marry but not Kushi. Why is it so hard to understand? Arnav spoke with frustration
What do you think chote? Is marriage a game? Yesterday we told yes and today we go and say sorry we don't want to get married to your daughter. We will go somewhere else looking for another girl? Rohini replied sarcastically trying to put some sense in Arnav
Arnav sat down on the sofa with a thud clutching his hair in fists. He is scared right now. He is no more scared of the marriage but scared of one hazel eyed girl who has the capability of warming his cold heart. He just want to cancel this marriage so that he doesn't have to deal with Kushi anymore but his mother is adamant in marrying him to Kushi. Why the life has to be so complicated he thought ruefully.
Once again he glanced at his mother with a last hope that she might agree. But seeing the adamant look on her face he retired to his room with dissatisfaction.
Not having any other way out, he immediately took his bike keys and started to Kushi's house for a life or death decision.
Kushi's house is in hustle bustle as the engagement and marriage dates are coming nearby. Sashi is busy instructing the workers to do their respective chores. Seeing Arnav coming unexpectedly he rushed outside leaving everything
Arnav, you here? Is everything ok?
Yes Uncle everything is alright. I just want to speak with Kushi about something important. If it is ok with you? He spoke hesitantly
Oh, what is there in it. She is going to be your wife. You can talk to her anytime. You don't need my permission for that. She is in her room. Please go.
Arnav gave a half smile to Sashi and strode to Kushi's room with determination in his steps.
He entered the room once he got permission from Kushi to enter her room after knocking the door
Kushi is pleasantly surprised seeing Arnav in her room. He avoiding her after the dinner date didn't go unnoticed by her. She also guessed what might be the reason for his sudden ignorance. She is happy for making a small crack in his heart. But seeing him today in her room with some mad rage in his eyes scared her. So she hesitantly spoke
Arnav you here, what a pleasant surprise. please come.
Without giving him a chance to speak she just dragged him inside by clutching his wrist. After making him seated on the bed, she went to close the door so that there will be no disturbance.
With a thudding heart, she closed the door as just the mere touch of his hand had made her heart flutter. Even Arnav's case is no less. Just with her simple touch she was able to sooth his burning heart. Forgetting his purpose of visit he just stared at her without even blinking his eyes.
Kushi became perplexed seeing an altogether different emotions in his eyes. From mad rage to calm ones. With hesitation in her steps she reached him and sat opposite to him. She gently cupped his large palms in her delicate ones and spoke ever so softly
What's the matter Arnav? You are looking disturbed. Is everything ok?
Her question bought him back from his reverie. He sighed as his frustration is coming back.
I don't want this marriage happening finally he spoke which made Kushi hurt
Her hurt didn't go unnoticed by him but he thought it's for her best and also for everyone's best.
Kushi took a deep sigh and spoke gently
What do you mean by you don't want THIS marriage? You don't want to marry me or you don't want to marry at all?
He was taken aback by her question. How can he answer this question. Previously he wasn't ok with the concept of marriage itself but today she has brought him to a stage where he is ok with marrying anyone except HER. He can intimidate anyone else but not her.
Somehow she has the knack to know his heart all the time which is making him weak infront of her. He doesn't want to lose. He doesn't want to accept that she is winning his heart, so he lied conveniently, both to himself and to her.
I am not ok with the concept of marriage itself.
Can I know why? She again posed a question to him which made him more irritated
What do you mean by why? I just don't want that's it. Let us just cancel this marriage. I came here just to say this. That's it. As I am done I am leaving now. He got up to leave but fell on his seat again with the tug.
What the, he was surprised with the way Kushi pulled him
I am not done yet, Mr Raizada she spoke with confidence which made Arnav silent
Do you think marriage is a game. One day you say yes and next day you say No? Didn't you see how my father and everyone outside working hard for this marriage to happen.
I will not back out of this marriage unless and until you give me a valid reason. Don't start your "playboy" story again because I have seen with my own eyes what kind of a "playboy" you are. So what's your reason for not getting married EVER? She spoke with such audacity which made Arnav quite surprised
Though Kushi knows the reason for him not wanting to marry, she doesn't want to tell him that as she wants him to trust her and open his heart infront of her. This is the second step she wants him to take.( the first one being having a soft corner for her)
Not having any other way he said
I am in love with someone else he thought Kushi would be taken aback by his statement but got shocked seeing her calm infact with a small smile.
How does he know that she is happy for their growing relationship. She is very happy right now for making him speak his heart. Communication is very important part in any relationship and she is very happy for sitting like this and having a proper conversation regarding an important decision in their lives.
So what's the problem? You should have spoken to maa about her. I am sure that maa would make you both marry she spoke as if she doesn't know anything about his failed love life.
No she is already married.
What you loved a married girl? She just want to have some fun at his expense
NO! He shouted with shock written all over his face. We both loved each other. But due to family pressure she has to marry someone else.
Then I don't see any problem here. She is already married. So why you should remain BRAHMACHARI? She asked with a lopsided smile. She just wants to make this already heavy topic a little bit lighter.
I don't want to give her space to anyone. I loved her then, now and will ONLY love her forever. He spoke angrily seeing this conversation going no where
So??? Who is asking you to give her space to anyone?
She continued seeing his confused face
Do you think by marrying ME, I am talking about just ME,because who else can know more about me right, I will try to replace your girlfriend's place in your heart and life?
( hope this sentence is clear. She is not talking about Arnav marrying a third person as she cannot speak on the behalf of an unknown person. She is just expressing about her own heart as she clearly knows her state of mind)
Arnav just nodded his head in agreement.
This time Kushi came and sat beside him entwining her fingers with his
I am not looking for a place in your heart Arnav. I only want your friendship. I don't want anything else. I will never try to compete with your girl friends space in your heart.
Ok forget about me for a while. I don't have any compulsion that you have to marry me only. But as a friend I am looking for you too. How you gonna lead your life all alone?
Haven't you seen anything from our own parents life? How hard their life had been being single parents, no one to talk to other than we children? Have you ever thought of how lonely they felt in their life. If that is the case with a child, then how are you going to live your life all alone?
Take a wise decision Arnav. Don't decide anything in haste. We shouldn't take a decision either with utmost love or hatred for someone. So go home and relax and then let me know your decision.
On my behalf I can promise you that I just want your friendship alone. Nothing else. I cannot guarantee the same for someone else. It's not right too. Every girl will have so many desires for married life and would be husband. You cannot just spoil them because of your own concerns and problems finally she stopped speaking to give him some time to think on what she spoke
Why? Finally he broke his silence. Seeing the confused expression on Kushi's face he continued
Why are you doing this? Why you want to marry me? Just now you told every girl will have so many desires for her husband and marriage. You clearly know that I cannot give you that. Then why are you spoiling your life by marrying me?
She gave him a tender smile and told him
Because I am so selfish Arnav
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Ha what do you think Kushi's reply going to be? Do you think she is going to confess her love for him? For that you have to wait until next update.