i'm sorry fluff lovers, mama's gotta feed her angst enthusiasts </3
ANGST! ANGST EVERYWHERE!
NO ONE, AND I MEAN NO ONE, IS SPARED
tw // death, unhealthy coping mechanisms, disordered eating, sleep deprivation, hallucinations(?), alcoholism, drunken violence
also i was right, i got caught up with an unfinished oneshot so i'll post that one last
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- D.A.M.N boys -
{damien}
- he throws himself headfirst into his schoolwork. well, he tried to.
- his grades slip. he can't study. it reminds him too much of you.
- frustrated because he's beginning to fail, but the pain he feels when he tries to study by himself is just too much for him.
- he can almost see you beside him at his dining room table, laughing as you tease him about something silly.
- "always keeping me from working somehow. aren't you, freelancer?"
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{huxley}
- seems okay for the most part, but others can tell his head is somewhere else when he goes quiet.
- every saturday, he goes on a hike as usual. but he goes to your favorite spot.
- he sits and just... talks. like you're there listening. like you always did.
- he could've sworn he heard a faint echo of your laugh in the breeze, brushing across his face.
- "i hope whenever you are now is as beautiful as it is here, freelancer. i really do."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{lasko}
- probably the most shaken by the news of your death.
- tries to be like damien and bury his grief in his counselor work, but it hurts too much to ignore.
- he sat hunched over his desk one night, just sobbing.
- he kept looking up, as if you would be there sitting across from him each time he did.
- "freelancer, i... i-i-i'm sorry, i'm sorry, i'm sorry!"
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{gavin}
- he doesn't feed. he has no motivation to.
- he tried getting up like normal once, but everything reminded him of you and it just... it hurt too much.
- refuses to get up because your bedsheets still smell like you.
- if he squeezes his eyes shut and clutches a pillow tight enough, he can pretend it's you still in his arms.
- "i miss you more than life itself... my deviant."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{caelum}
- doesn't understand, no matter how many times someone tries to explain it to him.
- convinced you'll come back to give him one last hug.
- he stays with gavin most nights because neither of them can stand the silence of your absence.
- everyone agrees; there's no sadder sound than a heartbroken empathy daemon.
- "they... they wouldn't leave without saying goodbye... right?"
- the wolf pack -
{david}
- it's like everything spirals out of control because you're no longer there to keep him grounded.
- maybe it's the lack of sleep talking, but he sees glimpses of you around the house.
- you knew he hated crying, yet it was all it seemed he could do.
- it was impossible to think that losing someone could hurt so much after his dad, but this? this was a whole new world of hurt for him.
- "you really were heaven on earth... angel."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{asher}
- no one, including david himself, has seen asher so... not asher-like.
- it's like he becomes a shell of who he used to be.
- the simplest things remind him of you- pizza and wings, his spiked collar, even playing halo.
- convinced that he did something to make you leave him.
- "c'mon, babe- w-what did i do wrong? j-just come back! please!"
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{milo}
- when it all seems like too much, he buries his grief in bottles of whiskey.
- getting drunk off his ass doesn't even help because you're all he can ever think about.
- he can't control his anger, so he starts getting into bar fights. lots of them.
- his ma can only heal so many of the injuries he ends up with the next morning.
- "you would hate the person i've become, sweetheart..."
- the solaire clan -
{vincent}
- he still catches himself calling out for you.
- the lights will flicker sometimes and he almost convinces himself that it's you finally coming home.
- somehow finds a way to blame himself- for not protecting you, for letting you die.
- believes down to his very soul that he's the reason you're dead.
- "i swore i would protect you. i-.. i'm so sorry, lovely..."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{sam}
- he came home to his cabin in the woods, and it was quiet... too quiet.
- pretends that he's doing just fine in front of the clan, but his front falls apart when he's alone.
- he just lays in bed, pretending you're still sleeping soundly beside him.
- just when he'd thought he found home, the universe snatched it away from him.
- "love always finds a way to screw me over, huh darlin'?"
- empowered bois -
{elliott}
- his dreamscapes always revolve around you, and you would be there with a care-free smile.
- he contemplated staying in his dreamscape with you, where you could be with him forever like nothing had ever happened to you.
- but a small part of him knew your soul wouldn't rest and was telling him to let you go.
- waking up was always the hardest part of his dreams.
- "the world seems so dark without you here, sunshine..."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{avior}
- as if losing you the first time didn't hurt enough.
- the second time, his body felt numb but his mind was in pure agony at your passing.
- you were his sole sobering thought in the hellscape he was trapped in. he didn't even know where to begin with your sudden absence.
- with you gone, he couldn't bring himself to do much more than lying on the floor as tears streamed silently from his eyes.
- "you were the brightest thing in this god forsaken hellhole, my starlight.."
- unempowered bois -
{aaron}
- he doubles down on his work, not caring how dead tired he is.
- he figures if thinking about you is too painful, he'll do anything and everything in his power to keep his mind distracted.
- the tv in his apartment is always on to fill the silence of your absence, especially during dinner.
- conversations feel so boring without your snarky remarks.
- "i'd give anything to hear one of your smart-ass comments one more time.."
- ʚ♡ɞ -
{ollie}
- he calls your phone every day, pretending that maybe- just maybe- you'll answer.