𝖩𝖠𝖡𝖱𝖤𝖠 𝖡𝖠𝖭𝖪𝖲
"Where u finna go?" My friend Asia asked as I approached my car leaving school.
"Girl home, you know how my mama be"
"Yea she be tripping" she added making me glare at her. See only me and my siblings can agree, not you.
"Watch ya mouth" I said getting in closing the door. Then got out of place girl.
"My bad, see you later girl" she said waving and walking off to go with her large group of friends.
"I just got my hair did I shit on hoes like it's a hobby, every bitch that hate on me got a ugly face and a botch body" I rapped aloud driving out the parking lot.
I was so ready to graduate from this shitty ass hell hole, I lowkey don't even like nobody fr, they ass is just acquaintances.
"Incoming FaceTime call from, 'Bae😘'" my car said indicating that Dayvon was calling. Everyday when I got out of school he either called or texted me.
"Heyy" I answered stopping at a red light and then putting my phone in the cup holder.
"U straight?" He immediately asked as always, but this time he sounded a little more concerned.
"Yeah, why you sound like that u straight?"
"Always, whea you at?"
"I just left school I'm on my way home, why you asking so many questions" I asked now beginning to get anxious.
"Cause these puss ass niggas on sum lame shit, you need ta lay low fa a minute" he stated
"What you mean? It's niggas targeting me or sum?"
"On sum real shit, yeah. Tell yo og u sick ah sum cause Ian finna tryna have you being put on a shirt."
"Dayvon what is u talking about? What I do for niggas to target me?"
"Fuck wit me!" He shouted angrily through the phone. I saw him begin to turn a lil red and I could tell his leg was shaking.
"Oh so yo OPPS targeting me? Why should my life being in jeopardy cause I'm with you?"
"Man that's just how it is Ight? Ion know what else u want me to say Jabrea"
"I'll call you back" I said hanging up. Now I had to be on high alert cause this nigga opps out to get me.
He claim he so hood and street he need to do sum bout it instead of telling me to lay low while he stayed in the house and hid wit his scary ass.
(Before y'all attack me no I'm not talking about Dayvon Bennet)
"Hey" Ky said answering my FaceTime call on the 5th ring, the hell was she doing that's so important?
"What took u so long to answer?"
"I had dick in my mouth- WHAT?" I yelled cutting her off with my eyes popped out the socket.
"I'm just playing, but wassup" she said laughing at my reaction. She think everything so damn funny.
"Nothing, I think ima break up with Dayvon for real" I confessed scratching my head. I'm taking this shit down tonight.
"Why?"
"Girl long story short his 'opps' out here looking fa me and he saying I need to lay low and shit.
"Looking for you for what? The hell you do to them" she asked scrunching her face up.
"Girl apparently it don't matter if I did or didn't do anything, long as I'm seen or in a relationship with him I'm automatically a target."
"Well.. you know what that means. Ion know what else you want me to say cause ain't no way to sugar coat that" she shrugged.
"I knowwww but I love himmm and-and this is just-ughhh Kyyyy" I whined now getting extremely frustrated.
"You'll be fine, just like he said lay low and stay coo for a while, you'll be good lil gang" she tried convincing me which wasn't helping at all.
"Bye Ky" I said hanging up in her face. This girl supposed to be my sister and protect me and she ova hea saying I'll be fine and it's dudes out hea who want my head dislocated from my shoulders.
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"Girl I'm good, I haven't been in the mood to go nowhere" I said to Asia while she scrolled through her iPad while we were on FaceTime.
"Just come onnn, it'll be fun. We can stay for a hour and you ain't feeling it then I'll bring you back home" she promised looking up from whatever she was looking at.
"Man I'll think about it, I'm finna got to sleep, I'll talk to you lata playa" I said hanging up turning my lights off.
Asia was always trying to get me to go somewhere or go out, and it's not that I didn't want to, but I just don't be feeling like it and would rather be at home.
I realized after about 20 minutes I wasn't going to sleep no time soon. My body was just being mad resistant right now.
Bae😘
11:29pm
Dayvon I can't sleep.
then don't sleep
Bro I'm fr and I'm tired asf
Tf u want me to do sing u a lullaby?
You thought that was heat? You think you so funny.
read at 11:33pm
What's wrong wit u?
read at 11:39pm
Ight.
my bad I was doing sum
read at 11:44pm
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I don't know what was up with him. He had been moving weird since last week but I've been trying to ignore it but now it's really getting to me.
That's the real reason my mama ain't like him, she said ion need to mess wit no street niggas cause 'they only gon make you targets right wit they ass'. She said that's why our daddy had to move down south running from his opps. Whatever 🙄
"What u still doing up" she said standing in the doorway of my room like Mikael Myers scaring the shit outta me.
"Nothing I can't sleep"
"Why, what u thinking about" she asked coming to sit on the end of my bed.
"Nothing"
"Lie again" she warned gritting through her teeth making me laugh a little. It's so funny when she do that and that's why I used to stay getting whoppings cause I would laugh dead in her face.
"Ughhh, nothing cause Dayvon talking bout his opps out hea looking for me, and I need to lay low and all that other stuff. Like why I gotta hide and limit what I do cause of YOUR opps?" I ranted cause I really needed to let that all out.
"And then it's like for the past week he's been acting weird and I'm just really not liking it at all" I continued
"Jabrea this a sign you need to let. him. go. I den told you bout them hood boys, they ain't no good for you. Ion care how cute they is, how much money they got, it's not good."
"And if he really loved you, he wouldn't put you in danger like that. Taking you wit him to hit licks, or spin by his opps block, yea you thought I ain't know about that. Don't get me wrong he a sweet boy but he not finna have me lose a child and have you living in paranoia at seventeen."
"Yeah Ma I understand but- no you don't understand. Cause if you did you would've listened to me long time ago and could've prevented it." She cut me off. I knew she was right, I just didn't want to admit cause I loved him.
"But Mama I love him. I know what you saying but it's not that easy to let somebody go who you've been emotionally attached to for so long."
"Jabrea why? It's fine to love him and if y'all meant to be y'all will find y'all way back to each other. Which I doubt, but you're young, you is seventeen girl. What you in a committed relationship for? You know how many years of life you got left to live? Haven't even made it to yo twenties. I'll be damned if I gotta be locked in to somebody at seventeen, you need to live yo life without having to worry about it being in jeopardy over some nigga." she stated.
She was right, and even though I give her a hard time she still gave me advice and loved me and looked out for me.
".. yeah" I mumbled looking down fidgeting with my fingers. I didn't really know what else to say, I just had to accept the truth and move along.
"Now go to sleep, don't u got school in the morning" she said raising off my bed putting her house shoes back on heading towards the door.
"It's Friday ..."
"Oh, well go to sleep for u have groceries bags under yo eyes" she said leaving out closing the door behind her.
I sighed, laying back down staring at the wall deep in thought. I think ima listen to her advice for real this time, it's for the better good and I'd like to not have that kind of weight on my shoulders.
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This was a fun chapter to right, lol. Don't know why but I hope y'all fw it. Finna go finish PTSD, BYE ✌🏾
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