I woke up at 5.56am, terrified of the nightmare I had just had. My head was killing me and, even though I tried to go back to sleep, I simply couldn't. I dreamed that my grandma had sent men searching for me and, as soon as she caught me, she had a gun on her hand and ordered the same men to put everyone in jail. Oh, and I also dreamed of kissing Scott, which is INSANE.
Scott does NOT like me. And I don't think I like him. I mean, I get all clumsy and fucked up when he's around, but I guess it's just me being silly? I don't know, I don't know. I don't want to like him. I don't want him to break my heart. I don't even know if he swings my way, sometimes it seems so but sometimes it doesn't really seem like it.
"Did something happen?" Scott asked me with a sleepy voice, but he still managed to lift his head off the pillow and look at me with a swollen sleepy face.
"I wasn't being able to sleep." I said, sitting down on the bed. He copied my moves and sat down next to me.
"Dice?" he asked, looking at me. "Don't worry, she won't come here. I'm sure she just said that to fright you."
"No, of course not. Just... a nightmare. But not with her." I said, smiling at him.
"Do you wanna tell me about it?"
"I don't think so, I... I like to keep my dreams to myself." he nodded. "Sorry if I woke you up."
"It's okay." he smiled and I drove my hand to my face, moving my hair from my face. "You..." he took a break and I looked at him, confused.
"Me...?"
"You talk when you sleep. And drool too." he said and I placed my hand on my face. I knew I did those things, but I didn't remember them when Scott told me he'd be sleeping in my room. "You said my name twice." I bugged my eyes as he awkwardly laughed. "Was it that bad?"
"No... no it wasn't." I said and he looked at me, laughing at how nervous I was. "I... I dreamed that you kissed me. That's it." I said, looking at him. I had nothing to fear. I think. He laughed at my face and stared into my eyes. "I mean it, and it wasn't even that bad." I awkwardly laughed.
"You doubt it?" he asked, smiling. It amazed me how I felt when I was with him. I'd feel both safe AND nervous, I was nervous of saying some words to him. I raised my eyebrow at him and said no word. He rolled his eyes and got out of the bed. "Wanna go get coffee? Starbucks is opened 24/7." I nodded. "Then I'm gonna go put on some nicer clothes and I'll wait for you downstairs." He then proceeded to leave.
I was now seriously considering having a little crush on Scott, I was almost sure of it. His smile would always make me shiver, his deep blue eyes always made me feel safe. Being with Scott was the only thing that I wanted in that precise moment. Just the thought of never going home again and being almost 24/7 with Scott... that thought kind of aroused me, I admit it.
I took a quick shower, did my morning hygiene, put on some comfortable clothes (1) and did my hair. Then, I blew a kiss at the mirror and whispered "fierce". As I went downstairs, Scott was already waiting for me, wearing his precious jeans, Nike jacket and a leopard printed snapback.
"A motorbike?" I asked him as soon as we got to the garage and he handed me a helmet.
"Yeah, leaving with the car would be really suspicious." He said, turning the motorbike on and release it from the brake. "Well, what are you waiting for?" I hopped on the bike and put the helmet on. "Hold tight." I wrapped my arms around his belly and almost hugged him from behind.
Scott immediately started driving and every time he sped up I'd hold him even tighter. I could feel his belly going up and down as he breathed and it was such a cute feeling.
As we got to Starbucks, we asked for our orders and sat on a booth, facing each other. After he took a sip, he leaned his head down and started giggling.
"You make me feel so weird." he said. I was so curious to know a bit more about him.
"Can I ask you something?" I asked and he nodded. "Have you ever fallen in love with someone?"
"I don't have time for that." he said. "I don't want to be a heartbreaker."
"Why do you think you'd be the heartbreaker?" I raised an eyebrow and noticed he was starting to giggle a bit.
"Because I know. Esther and Dice tried and tried and I had to break their hearts. Alex tried, ended up with a broken heart." I took a sip of my drink. "I mean they're nice but..." I raised an eyebrow. "I just didn't feel the same towards them. They're my best friends, not my romantic interests." He took a sip while I looked at him, surprised. I had confirmation. "I'm not one to love. Not even sure I know how to. "
"Of course you are, Scott." I said. "Just give yourself the chance- I'm sorry. It just came out. Me and my big mouth..." I leaned my head down and kept drinking my drink, but I could feel his eyes laid on me. I didn't look up, I just moved a bit of my fringe away from my eye.
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We finished our drinks and walked towards the motorbike. I put on my helmet and hopped on it. Thank God no one recognized me, it'd be awful. He quickly started the motorbike and drove while singing along to some song.
We weren't really far from home but, at some point, we realized the motorbike was slowly stopping.
"My mistake." he whispered and we both laughed. "But a morning walk is always good for your health, right?" he said smiling as he put our helmets in the little trunk and grabbed the wheel, walking along with it. The walk started with nothing but silence, we didn't have much to talk about since my awful mistake at Starbucks. He looked like he was thinking about something but didn't say a word about it, he was just looking at the trees that surrounded the house. "Won't you miss your grandma?" he finally broke the silence.
"I will. But this is what I want: I want to be free." I said while I picked a tiny rock from the floor and threw it as far away as I could. "The Royal palace is a place with lots of pressure and tension, I wasn't happy there, I had to be someone I'm not."
"You're definitely insane." he said and I smiled. "You're the heir to the British throne and here you are, hanging out with criminals."
"Speaking of which, I believe you're the last one." I said.
"In what?" he asked, confused.
"My last class, is with you. I've been with all of them." I said and he looked at me with his eyebrow raised. "Don't you want to help me become one of you?"
"That sounds ridiculous coming from you. But I get your point." he said and then we realized we were outside the house, close to the front door. "It's a shame that we arrived, I like talking to you." he smiled and I smiled back. "I don't know, I feel good when I'm with you and... and I never felt that way before." he said, adjusting his snapback to his head.
I smiled at his facial expression: he looked kinda lost? He never loved someone before and yet, from what I was absorbing, he felt the same way as I did. He seemed serious and concentrated on my lips now, and I felt his hand drive to mine and pulling me closer.
When there was no space between our bodies, his hand drove to my waistline. His facial expression was still a pretty serious one and I was just... with no reaction. His other hand drove to the back of my head and, without thinking, pulled it closer and glued our lips together. I didn't know what to feel, I didn't know what I felt that moment, the only thing I felt were electric shocks going through my spine as Scott pulled our bodies even closer.
I couldn't hear anything, I could just... feel him, feel his hand on my head and the other one passing his finger along my ribs. It almost looked like our mouths were made for each other and it was nothing compared to the way the other boys kissed. It almost seemed like he... craved me. Is that the word I'm looking for?
I drove my arms to his neck as I felt his hand pulling my hair a bit, not enough to hurt me but enough to make me moan a bit. Oh God, he felt so good. And tasted so good.
We had to break the kiss because of oxygen, but he didn't leave and actually hugged me, gluing his body to mine.
"Thanks for giving me this moment. I think I'm starting to like you. Like, a lot." he whispered in my ear and, as he let me go, he gave me a smile. "Yeah uhm... you can go inside. I'll put the bike in the garage." he said and I obeyed.
As I opened the door, I noticed Esther, Avi, Ben and Alex sitting on the couch laughing their asses off at some comedy show. Then, I heard slow claps coming from the stairs.
"Well well, if it isn't the prince of the United Kingdom..." she said looking at my face and crossing her arms. "Don't you think your little game with Scott is kinda ridiculous? Do you really think I can't see through you?" she raised an eyebrow. "Don't fool yourself, child. He doesn't want you."
"What on Earth are you talking about, Dice?" I looked at her.
"I saw you two kissing outside." she said and suddenly the comedy show wasn't interesting anymore, since all eyes were laid on me. "So you're a couple now?" she ironically said with a childish voice. "What are you doing here, after all? This isn't a brothel and this isn't the royal palace." I kept my straight face on, trying my best not to get pissed off. "You don't belong here, prince. Go back to your fancy golden room waiting for your grandma to die."
"Dice, enough." Esther said, pulling her by the arm.
"You're a fool, Esther. You're all fools!Don't you see he's trying to steal information? He wants attention. The boys won't shut up about how incredible he is and how much they want him. Spare me your games, Mitch, I'm shedding a tear for you." she said, frowning at me. "Why aren't you speaking?"
"Why? Because I refuse to waste my saliva with an ignorant peasant like yourself. If me and Scott kissed or not it's none of your fucking business, but I believe you are in need of some dick because it's putting you on a really bad mood." I said walking towards her but suddenly Scott's hands pulled me back. "Why won't you believe me? Do you really think I'm gonna be the new prostitute in here? Don't worry, I won't steal your premium membership. If everyone wants me it's because I'm THAT worth it, not only do I know how to play the game but I also know some cheats. I refused everyone's offer. It was something you should've done if you didn't want to be treated like a cum dumpster." I said in a medium tone while everyone else laughed at Dice. "If your brain isn't able to rationalize, then you need help and there's nothing I can do to help you. If you want to be seen as a criminal and not as a whore then fucking work for it." I walked by her and stopped right next to her. "I don't wanna be like you, in fact I feel sorry for you. You're nothing but useless piece of fast food garbage." I spit out those words and kept going upstairs, followed by Scott. I entered the room and Scott closed the door, holding my arm. "I'm sorry." I said and he laughed.
"Mitch. Don't be like Dice, just be yourself." he said while moving a bit of my hair away from my eye. "I don't want you to be like her. I like you the way you are." I smiled and hugged him.
"I wanna be like you, to be honest." I smiled and he giggled. "Like... like we're a mirror."
"The Prince is brave as fuck!" Alex said, inserting his head on the crack between the door and the wall. "Sorry to ruin your romantic moment," I quickly moved away from Scott. "but Scott, the boss called. He wants you to go to Liverpool to get the stuff." Scott was really concentrated on Alex's words. "Candice was supposed to go with you, but after all of this she refuses. So, Mitch'll go with you." he said and Scott looked at me.
"Okay with you?" he raised an eyebrow at me and I nodded. "Good. We'll leave as soon as night falls."
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