"Argh! Put that scroll away from me!"
Amity hates seeing herself in a photo.
It's not that she is not confident with her appearance. It's just...is that a crooked smile, ew! She looks not that bad in the mirror and in her own consciousness about herself, but she doesn't know why every time someone takes a photo of her, she looks stupid in it either smiling not properly or blinking one eye like she is about to sneeze. Then the one who takes that photo laughs at it as if it's her trait to make such a funny face. It's their fault! For Titan's sake! Your horrible photography skill is threatening my true feature! She growls and shakes that mofo in her head. She was fine with selfie during the time she was with the Boscha gang, but ever since she dropped those cocky and bratty attitudes, she suddenly feels so awkward to even make a pose. Selfie alone in her room is not that bad, but while checking the photos, she feels like her smile is a bit forceful. The photo somehow looks, fake, and unemotional. Then she just deletes them all after wasting time to take a bunch of photos just to try to find the best of them. Maybe there is never the best one because she is not that photogenic.
It's worse now when she is growing nonsensically taller. She hasn't been used to it and seeing herself in a photo just shows her more how much of a tree she is looking. She always crops them to portrait size so she won't look like she is about to break the photo frame. She used to be so confident, holding her pride high, with the desire to live in fame and get all the attentions to herself. Everyone could point their cameras at her and capture everything they want, she would love it and stand in the endless admiration like a star walking on a red carpet made exclusively for herself. But through changes and some bad experiences watching her own photos, now it's enough to jump in anxiety every time she catches a lens raising up to her, even though the other just wants to take a photo of the bird behind her back. Being in a photo suddenly feels so stressful and scary. But it's okay, photos are no different than idealized illusions that appear to fool your naivety. The truth can only show when you witness it with the true lens, your eyes. She rather pushes her hair back and proudly lives in this reality.
But being in a relationship means you have to take a lot of photos with your lover to save the moments, right?... And it's true, Luz LOVES casually taking selfie with the ones she loves. The witch really wants to please her girlfriend but...Urgh, Amity face darkens every time she sees a photo of them, with Luz looking all cute while she is smiling like as if trying to hold herself back from going to the restroom. Not end at that, Luz is OBSESSED with taking random daily photos of Amity, and all the photos are-so-horrible, the witch groans in her head. Yet the human girl still smooches on them and happily compliments that Amity looks so adorable. Seriously, in those photos the witch is always in the worst gestures and expressions which she doesn't even know she can have. Like, she is opening her mouth wide to eat in this photo because the burkger is too big. Or in this one she is rubbing her belly and yawning in her scruffy pajamas. In this one she is pulling down her upperlip to scratch her nose. Or this one, she is blurred while reaching to the camera with a scary face as if some angry celebrities attacking an annoying paparazzi.
Amity screams in the pillow with the thought that her girlfriend may show those awful photos to other witches. She doesn't blame Luz though. It's cute that Luz still giggles so lovingly and holds an adoring look towards the witch's ugly moments. This clearly shows that the human girl just loves her girlfriend a lot and it warms Amity heart knowing that truth. But the witch just can't accept the fact that she can look so, urgh, commonly ridiculous. A bit of her pride still acknowledges she is good looking and definitely not, LIKE THAT, she points at the one where she is lying lazily with her back on the floor to read, her neck is bending and it accidentally creates a double chin, with hair sticking out in a tasteless way while cat furs covering all over her rumpled black t-shirt, ARGH, cursed. She wants to secretly take her beloved human's phone to delete all of them. But from the way Luz even puts one of those silly photos as her lock screen, telling Amity that the human may weep and whine like a puppy losing her way home if she loses any of the photos. The witch just doesn't have the heart to delete them, she cries in her soul. Maybe she should just swallow the insecurity, then dig a hole and jump down to hide her embarrassment, as long as her girlfriend can be happy.
But to be honest, sometimes, Amity can't help but hoping Luz would stay with her in real life instead of her in the photos. Every time they are on a date, Luz will always eagerly take out her phone to take a photo of everything: Their outfits on that day, what they are eating, the park they are going to, their hands holding each other, their feet, the bench they are seating on, ... Then the human girl happily sends them to her friends and her mom to tell them she and Amity are on a date. Amity hesitantly smiles to hide her concern, it's nice that Luz can be so excited over their date but, some of those moments are just not that remarkable, why does she even take a photo of the witch washing hand in the restroom?!... Luz keeps giggling and checking at the photos they just took while holding Amity's hand, this makes the witch feel a little sad. She wishes Luz would look up and notice how much the witch had been adoring her through her gaze. She wishes Luz would look at her, right now. Despite being together, it doesn't seem like a moment of two. Amity feels like a part of hers is having a date in the photos with Luz and the other part is just, feeling so lonely out here.
That day, before ending the date and parting their ways, they decide to stay a little longer on a bridge where they can collect the whole sky into a romantic scene. It's when the sun is slowly going away and starts melting all over the land with its tone, a scene that can move even the toughest heart.
Luz as always, suggests to take a photo of her girlfriend because, she winks, the witch is her definition of beauty and romance just like the sunset. Amity forces a smile while trying to fit into the frame, ready to be locked in another memorable moment that is decided by a shutter sound. A special day that is once again defined by a photograph. Noticing her beloved's expression is changing in an unpleasant way, Luz worriedly puts her phone down.
"...Am I perhaps making you uncomfortable, cariño?"
"Hah? Ah! No! Um..." Amity quickly fixes her expression hearing the question, dammit, her face keeps betraying her. She stands hesitantly for a while wondering if she should tell Luz what she has been thinking, until the human girl walks closer to hold her hand up with a genuine look, as if telling her not to close the curtains which cover her heart. After all, one of the things that builds up the meaning of a stable relationship is to step out of your individualism to be open and honest with each other.
Amity shyly confesses "Actually... Maybe a little...I'm just not really...comfortable with taking photos." She rubs her neck and looks down, trying to carefully phrase it so Luz won't misunderstand that she is mad. "...Too many...photos."
"Oh! Right! I'm sorry!" Luz glances at the phone she has been holding all day and bonks her head, hurriedly hiding it away behind her back. She looks down and lowers her voice in contrition "I-I'm sorry, Am...I used to see you posting on penstagram so I thought you were fine with photos and stuffs...And I..." Luz blushed a little "I was getting a bit carried away since you are my first girlfriend so...I was getting kinda greedy with the thought to keep as many moments of you as possible..." She slightly circles her foot on the ground, face full of regret.
"No! No don't be sorry! Argh, I didn't want to tell you because you would start feeling sorry like this, but it's not your fault! I'm just...It's just..." Amity gets a bit flustered with the fact that Luz was being greedy for her. That is more like, cute, she thinks. Not that she never has the idea of staring at Luz for hours and following her around to constantly take a photo of her twenty-four seven then hang them all around her room, she is just holding it back so her lover won't find her to be disturbing and run away forever. Just, just an idea.
"You are my first girlfriend too, Luz, I'm excited just the same so I can totally understand! I also love seeing how happy you are taking those photos and I honestly don't want to make you feel off... But I just want to let you know that, I really want to live in all those moments while..." She raises a hand to slide her delicate fingers on Luz's cheek and smiles "...looking at you, as in you, here."
Luz pouts with a red on her face "You know you can tell me anything, Am...The amount of photos didn't make me happy, I was just happy since taking them was like a reminder that I was being with you. But I guess...there is a better way for a reminder..." She returns Amity's loving smile with her smiley eyes while fondly gazing into the witch's golden, then she holds the witch's hand up to rub her cheek on it.
"Hmmm, but you know...It's my habit that I would take a lot of photos so I may not help it sometimes, especially when I have a pretty girlfriend like this...So..." She timidly looks up as if asking for permission "...Is it okay if I still take your photo sometimes? But I will show you! If you don't like it, tell me to delete it okay?... And don't worry I will keep them for myself only." Luz holds her phone to her chest, hoping she can still keep all those random taken photos of her lover. The girl deeply loves those moments, it feels like she is the only one who is allowed to witness such silly yet simple and genuinely adorable sides from the usual graceful Amity.
"That doesn't sound so bad to me for now." Amity gladly smiles with her thoughtful girlfriend, she pulls Luz a little closer to gently remind while giving her a hug "And I think we can still take a photo sometimes, just not like, all the time...okay?"
"You can even be in charge of holding the camera and bury it deep in the ground if you want, madam!" Luz nods and makes a playful comment, causing them both to giggle before Amity gives Luz a small kiss on her forehead.
"The sunset is beautiful today, this moment is quite special actually..." She caresses Luz's hand "Do you still want to take a photo? I don't mind."
Luz gets her phone out and looks at it for a while, losing in her own thoughts, then she looks up at Amity who is tenderly smiling at her and waiting for an answer.
"Nah, maybe not today."
Luz shakes her head with a big grin, then she leads her girlfriend to the bridge's side, facing the way a setting sun is lingering on the way to leave its lover. Sometimes, to dearly hold a moment is already a way of capturing it. Memories are the invisible photos which can be seen again when you close your eyes, finding your way back to them and relive the old feelings. To fully stay in a moment somehow hangs on the wall in your heart even more invaluable photos, the ones which can still be kept by cherishing and reminding each other about your love.
"Amity, amor!"
"Hm?"
When the sun is spreading its love before saying goodbye, the human girl feels like she wants to save a bit of the last moment to spread more love for their day too. After the loving call, Luz stands on her toes to give Amity a kiss on her lips, making the witch smile so bright her eyes became like the horizon. Her cheeks flush up in a lovely pinky tone, letting her beauty melt together with the color of the gentle eve sky to become one lovely painting. With both the kiss from her beloved and from the sunset, treating her as if she is the most precious witch in this world, Amity face happily glows up under the touch of a softer sunlight, showing all her teeth in a way someone is so relax and pleasant that they don't care anymore about saving face.
Luz proudly smiles with a signal before blinking her eyes.
"Say cheers!"
A special moment is captured.