Next day.
He come as fast as he can to the college hoping to see her so tht they could talk about yesterday night, he didn't sleep even a bit, he keep calling her texting her but no response, he is waiting in his car in the parking lot, it's almost 10 : 30 which means there classes are about to start, sky nd mike try to take him to their class but he didn't went with them, telling them to go by saying you guys go I'll follow you after talking to her, nd by looking at him they can see how restless nd distress he is, so they let him wait for his satisfaction.
it's been 12 but she didn't come, nor Xavier, he went to her class in a hope tht maybe by any chance she was already in her class but every time he come back disappointedly,. The only thing he want to do is apologize for his yesterday's behaviour, he shouldn't have touched her, without her consent.
The only thing he did is.
Waiting for her in the parking lot
Calling her
Waiting for her infront on her classroom
Calling her
At evening Waiting for her at the basketball court..
Texting her
Where are you
Pick up my call
Let's talk, iam so sorry for yesterday night, iam so sorry
Iam sorry, iam so sorry..
Iam sorry please pick up my call
Txt me your address I'll be there in few minutes..
Maybe you have slept good night, take care
Tomorrow I'll be waiting for you at the parking lot let's have a talk kk
Good morning, have a nice day
Iam in parking lot where are you.
You'll not come today.
You are not in the class your class, did you have another class.
Reply me please let's talk kk
Look iam sorry, i shouldn't have touch you without your consent, iam sorry for offending you, but trust i didn't mean it, iam so sorry, plz jst give me a chance to explain.
Hey please pick up the call
I'll be waiting for you at the basketball court, plz come there, I'll be waiting for you..
Hey it's allready time where are you..
When are you going to come.
Iam waiting for you at the court
Why you are not replying, please atleast reply, you are allright right.
Scold me however you want jst let's have a talk.
Zar please pick up my call.
I can't handle your ignorance Please reply.
You can beat me all you want but jst talk to me, let's talk about it..
I think you have slept take care we'll talk tomorrow.
Nd so on but no reply..
She is not picking up his call
She is not replying to any of his text
She is not coming to college
She is not coming to practice
Even after her ignorance for 6 days he didn't give he keep calling her, texting her, waiting for her in the parking lot, infront of her classroom, in basketball court, thts become his daily routine, he rarely sleep or eat, tht also because of his friends who force him to take some rest nd make him eat by saying tht you will need energy for whatever you are doing, they are also feeling bad seeing him like tht,
there friend who never forget to smile no matter how worst his day was, but now he seems to forget smiling, he keeps blaming himself all the time.. they tried everything to help him but no use, he is not listening to anyone, he keeps chanting only one thing, nd tht is i need to talk to her, but there's no sign of her, nor Xavier or her brother, it's like she disappeared with her whole family nd closed one..
On the other hand czar has Locked herself in her hideout, it's nd secret room attached to her room, it's her hideout where no one is allowed to come except her, she didn't allow anyone to enter her hideout, not even xav not even her family it's a place where she spends 8 months of her life isolating herself from outer world after tht horrific incident,
She went inside these hideout more than 2 years ago it takes her 8 month to be a little bit normal, nd face these cruel world, 1 year 3 month's ago when she comes out of her own personal prison she was completely different person, she had already lost a part of her, she became heartless, she stop smiling, she stop trusting, not only she her close one also lost everything, Xavier, Grace, Caleb, Ethan, Aiden everyone lost a part of her,
everything changed after tht 8 month, it takes her 8 month to fight with her nightmare fight from all these memories which still haunt her Whenever someone make her remind of her past, it's been more than a year she enter these room, it's not like she completely get rid of those nightmare in past years hell no, she never get rid of it but they are tolerable, she can handle it, but after tht basketball court incident it triggers her to the deepest, all those scars become new, nd it happens coz deep in her heart she knows very well what's happening between them, what's happening between her nd Ryan, the feeling is foreign but she is not fool to ignore it anymore, the attachment she feels towards him from day one, which she tried to compress inside her, but the truth can't be hide, nd yesterday she realised it half, nd a part of her which is sacred to believe anyone, keep reminding her about the consequences she faced last time when she dare to trust someone love someone..
She is curled herself like an ball sitting at the corner of the room, hugging her knees, she is feeling disgusted by herself those touches, those words everything, keeps running in her mind.
Satisfy him nd you'll be free
Czarina : No stop it
She covered her ears tightly with her hands, wants all these sounds to stop.
Wow you got a sexy body babydoll, it'll be fun to ruined it.
Czarina : no stop..
You'll be the best whore anyone can have.
Czarina : iam not a whore, iam not agghhh stop it
Don't come back like a dumb you are you have to satisfy whoever will be in tht room.
Czarina : aghhhhh stop it
She keep crying, shouting, but no use.
You are a slut who is born to satisfy us, a worthless piece of shit born to satisfy other's dick.
Czarina : stop it, stop it, stop it, no no stop..
She can feel those hands touching her body,
she keeps screaming in pain remembering all those hurtful moment, tears keeps streaming from her eyes, these tears are of Anger, betrayal.
Czarina : stop don't touch me, stop Don't please..
But no use she can still feel that lingering feeling of those disgusted hands over her body, touching her private parts touching her body, she started to rub her whole body her nails started to scratch her porecelain skin, leaving red marks, but she didn't stop she keeps doing it again nd again trying to get rid of those touches,it's been 2 days she is like these, she didn't eat, didn't sleep, jst keep screaming in pain like someone is stabbing her, but the truth is she herself is hurting her.
Her family along with Xavier is standing outside of the door listening to her shouting, everyone has tears in there eyes, they feel useless tht they were unable to protect her nd she has to go through so much, tht it's still haunting her, no one leave from their for even a second no one wants to leave her, jst like her no one eat anything, grace is hugging Caleb crying her heart out.
Grace : Caleb fucking do something, my baby is hurting.. do something please
She keeps hitting his chest, Caleb is hugging her tight, assuring her tht everything will be allright.. but he himself is unable to completely believe in his own statement, there heart is cleanching seeing her like these, but they can't do anything, they can't go inside nd hug her, assure her, they can't do anything, coz it's the only way she can cope up with all these, nd her doctor strictly prohibited them to interfere in these, the more She'll let everything out the more she'll feel better, nd if anything tried to stop her, all those pain will stuck in her mind nd it can lead to an terrible mental breakdown for her, so they can't do anything, they can jst pray for her to get well soon, Aiden nd ethan are sitting in the floor, Ethan is trying to comfort his twin brother who is a crying mess, Ethan himself is crying but as compared to aiden he is better to control his emotions.
Xavier is leaning in the wall closing his eyes hitting the wall with his light punches, like he is counting each nd every second with his each punches.
Ethan : xav jst tell me the name who is fucking responsible for these, who triggers those memories in her, I'll fucking kill tht person..I..
Ethan said with rage, his eyes are burning in rage nd anger, the only thing he wants now is to destroy the person who is the reason behind her condition. Before he could continue grace cut him off to
Grace : No killing is very small punishment, he can't die these easily cut tht person's each nd every body part in front of his own eyes after each 1 hr interval, he should see all the blood coming out from those parts, but don't let him die he should be Alive for 2 days screaming in pain begging for death, he should feel half off the pain my baby is feeling now make him alive for exactly how much time my baby is spending inside, let him see his death with his own eyes.. j
Her voice contain so much hatred tht it is enough to kill someone, she is loosing her mind, her humanity everything, Caleb cut her off..
Caleb : grace please stop
Caleb tried to calm her down, it's not like he didn't want to kill tht person, hell no he is also feeling an strong urges to kill tht person, but in between the twins nd grace he is the most calm one, he didn't want them to lose there humanity nd become some animals who only knows how to kill.
Grace : no I'll not, no one can get away after hurting my baby, I'll make them cry 1000 times more than my baby has cried, no one means no one..
Grace said gritting her teeth, nd struggle to get away from Caleb hug, but he didn't let her, Caleb sighed defeatedly knowing very well tht there's no use to say anything, he hugged her more tightly, trying to calm her down, he knows if these didn't stop he'll not only lose his sister but also his brothers nd wife.
Coz they'll not hesitate to became an wild animal who only knows how to kill, the love they have for czar has crossed all the limits, ethan nd Aiden never committed themselves in any kind of romantic relationship jst because they didn't want to share there love to anyone else other than czar, it's a promise these twins have given to themselves nd between them no one dare to broke these, as for grace it's been more than 8 years she get married to Caleb, but they didn't have any children it's coz, grace didn't want one, she love czar so much tht she expects to being an childless women rather than Sharing her motherly love with someone else even if it's her own child, Caleb also wants the same but he was hesitant to say these coz he didn't want to be unfair to her, as grace nd Caleb are childhood sweetheart hearts, grace was with them before czar born, nd after her birth the four of them ( grace, Caleb, Aiden, Ethan ) take care of her, as there mother die while giving birth to her, there father died when czar was jst 5 months old tht time, at tht time Caleb is 11 year old, grace is 9 year old, Aiden nd ethan are 4 year olds..
Hence at a very small age Caleb nd grace become there parents, grace was an orphan, she get adopted by Mr nd Mrs yohaness when she was 3 year's old, and now all she has is them, after 1 year of there marriage she herself Said tht she didn't want her own kids czar nd the twins is enough for her, nd Caleb is more than happy to have someone like her, her only weakness is her family specially czar, Grace is very strong woman, she is self-made, she is confident nd when it comes to brain no one can beat her, but all these vanished when she saw czar like this , she the weakest person..
Ethan : tell the fucking name..
Xavier cleanched his fist tight, only he knows how badly he wants to beat the shit out of ryan, he didn't know the reason but he saw czar coming out of the court when he went to pick her up as usual,
she was looking like a mess, he tried to ask her what happened but she didn't say anything, she keeps driving at full speed, but he didn't give up he keeps asking for reason nd the only thing she replied.
Don't tell anyone about these not even my brother's nor grace, no one should now about him, for my sake please do these favor on me..
Xavier : no one is responsible, she jst remember by all these things after listening some similar names when we are in park thts all..
He lied, he didn't have any other choice he can lied to himself but he can't go against her..
Meanwhile inside
Her screaming nd struggling keeps going on, all those voice keep haunting her, until between all those sounds she heard his calming tone, it's coming in very low tone, but she can recognise it, she remembered him, his smile, nd slowly his voice Started to become louder, his husky voice which keeps telling her tht everything will be alright, nd soon his voice take over all those disgusted words.
Ryan's soft touches are making all those disgusted touches go away, nd slowly she starts to feel normal, strange right, Ryan's touch is the reason of her triggering memories nd look now his touch is the sole reason for her to get rid of those nightmare for now, thts why they said the reason of your wounds nd the medicine of your wounds are same..
After coming back to his senses Ahe sit straight supporting her weak figure to the wall, look at the dark ceiling, eyes red, face paled, whole body become red due to her harsh rubbing, he wipe her eyes..
Czarina : how can you be the reason as well as cure of me.. it's not right, isn't it..
She mumbbled to herself.. she sit like this for 4 hrs nd went outside, there heart Cleanched seeing her like these, but they didn't show it, they tried to act normal coz they know very well how much czarina hates pity, she didn't like when someone remind her about her weak moments, she became more aggressive if someone do so. Nd making her more aggressive is the least they want.
Czarina : iam hungry..
Thts the only thing she said after opening the door grace nodded with an forced smile, her eyes are still filled with tears she peck czar forehead..
Grace : yes baby, dinner will be get ready in few minutes, everything will be my baby's favourite, let go nd freshen up first hmmm.
Grace said fixing her messy hair, grace look at her with her usual emotionless eyes nd nodded, grace help her in bath nd after getting freshen up, she apply ointment in all those red marks. she makes her wear something lose so tht it should not stick with her skin, specially with those marks, they had there dinner together, no one said or ask anything about her breakdown or the reason behind it, they all act like nothing happened everything is normal, but it is jst an act to assure her but deep inside everyone is hiding there pain, after having dinner they slept, Xavier slept in guest room, like tht 5 days passed all of them spent there time with her like they always do, her bruises healed almost, only the one at her left neck is visible clearly as compared to others, all these 5 day she keeps thinking about God knows what.. nd after spending 7 days she decided to face the reality, face the world from which she is running away, she charged her phone nd when she switched on her phone after it get full charge she saw ryan 1000s of mgs nd calls she opened those messages.
Iam sorry zar please forgive me.
Please let's talk for once
Meet me at canteen
You didn't come, it's okay we can meet at parking lot I'll wait for you there.
I'll be waiting for you in basketball court..
Hey please tell me you'll come these time
I'll be waiting for you
Hey where are you..
Nd so on most of the message contains, iam sorry I'll be waiting for you, she again locked her mobile nd placed it on the bed, she flop on her bed beside her mobile, she closed her eyes covering her face with her palms for few minutes taking heavy breath before removing her hands, she looks at the ceiling for few minutes..
Czarina : did you really mean your words..
She stare at the ceiling for another 15 mins before immediately getting up..
Czarina : time to meet you babyboy..
She said with an smirk, but the meaning behind tht smirk is unknown, she locks her door from inside it's 9 : 10pm they all are allready have there dinner, everyone must be in there own room, she typed a text
I want to sleep alone today i have already taken my medicine, I'll lock my door from inside, I'll open it after completion of my sleep.
nd she send these txt to everyone's number, now no one will come inside her room, she open the window of her room nd throw her heels down from her window it fall on the ground, her room is on 3rd floor, jst like other main rooms her room has a balcony but she can't climb down from there, so she always climb down from her window with the help of the pipes, it's her emergency exit whenever she wants to go out without letting anyone knows, after douching all the guards she finally escape from there, she hail a cab..
Czarina : yohaness elite University.
She tell him the address nd the driver nodded nd start driving..
Meanwhile at 10 pm in basketball court..
Ryan is sitting in the middle of the court crossed legs, a ball in his hands, his eyes didn't leave the entrance for even a second, like if he'll look somewhere else she'll not come, red baggy eyes due to lack of sleep, he looks so tried, god knows when he sleeps for more thn 4 hrs.. he looks at big clock hanged there which shows exactly 10: pm.
Ryan : maybe she'll not come today also..
He mumbbled to himself nd completely laid down in the court looking up, again his hopes breakdown..
Ryan : it's been 1 week 3 mins 23 secs i last saw you..
He closed his eyes listening to the deadly silence which surrounds him.
Ryan : silence speaks more than words.
He said bitterly, thinking of all the incidents happened with him.
Ryan : did i really lost you, is tht really our last meet..
Click
Clack
He can hear someone's high heels click clack sound coming near towards him,
Click
Clack
He frown in confusion, it's the first time he is listening heels clicking sound in the basketball court, he look to his right side where the sound is coming from he can clearly see a girl who is wearing an high heels coming towards him, her heels sound fill up all the silence.
Ryan : who are you nd what are you doing here..
he questioned her without looking at her he keeps looking at her heels, she stop few metres away from him, thts when he divert his gaze from her heels to her face, nd his breath hitched looking at the one who he was waiting all along, he was surprised stunned unable to understand whether he should believe in his eyes or not. Wheather it's one of his imagination or reality.
Ryan : again you, you are again a dream ryt i don't wanna wake up.
He turned to his right side he is still lying in the court he jst changed his position from starting to side, he keep looking at her with an smile, still thinking he is dreaming like always..
Czar frown nd folded her hands Infront of her chest nd keep tapping her right feet on the floor impatiently, nd like tht 5 mins passed ryan keep looking at her like he is see the most beautiful dream.
Czar : ryan get up right now or iam leaving..
Nd reality hit him like a thunderstorm, her stren voice drag him out of his imagination, he immediately get up with an jerk, standing in front of her, unable to believe she is really standing infront of him with all her pride, his eyes sparkle with unexplainable happiness, he tried to go towards her nd hugged her tightly but as he take few steps closer.
Czarina : stop
She motion him to stop by extending her hands in front of him, like a stop symbol, nd he stop as she command nd look at her Hands for few seconds than again look at her eyes, her eyes waver with some emotion he is unable to understand, he didn't know what to feel anymore. He is unable to point out her tone or emotion. Did she is angry, did she hate him, did she is disgusted by him, so many questions Started to roam in his head, his heartbeat started to increase.
Don't tell you hate me
Don't tell you are disgusted by me
You can be angry but don't hate me, don't get disgusted by me.
He keeps mummering to himself in his mind, but the next word she said is enough for him to understands tht his fear had turns out to be true.
Czarina : stay where ever you are, don't come closer.
She hates me.
To be continued.......
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