I'm so sorry, I forgot to put a Shinkami picture at the start of the last chapter! Forgive me please 😭
I'm actually proud of myself for getting this chapter done so quickly, and spring break is gonna start soon for me so I'll use that free time to hopefully get some quicker updates.
Warnings
- Suicidal thoughts
- Swearing
Denki's POV
Why the hell did Monoma just say that to the whole class? Now everyone is looking at me as if what Monoma just said 2 seconds ago is true. Wait, do they actually believe him? Monoma. The guy that loves dissing our class every chance he gets. Yet nobody is gonna believe their classmate, their FRIEND that went through so much with all of them. But, nobody has said anything yet so I can't assume yet.
Five minutes go past with the room still silent and everyone looking at me. It's as if they are waiting for a confirmation from me, and for me to be like "Oh yeah, I'm the traitor. I'm with the LOV and I was gonna kill you all, but now you guys found out my true identity. Oops."
Mr. Aizawa was the first to speak up, which got everybody out of their trance. "Alright everyone, please get your attention back here. We still have class to be focused on."
Not even a couple seconds later someone speaks up.
"But Mr. Aizawa, Monoma just informed us of Kaminari being the UA traitor. Are we going to just continue on with class without taking any precautionary measures?" Oh that was Iida who said that.
Wow, even the class rep doesn't have any trust in me. Hell, he didn't even ask what the evidence for it was. It was straight to, "Oh Denki is the traitor, we need to do something about it." And here I thought that I could put my trust into them. God, I'm just not worthy enough to deserve love from other's. That must be it, I'm not good enough for it.
Why am I so damn useless?
What did I ever do to deserve this hate?
If I don't deserve to get even a classmates trust from this, then what is even the fucking point of my life?
You know what, I wonder what would happen if they find me dead one day. I won't do it yet though even though I really want to. I still can't register the fact that nobody has even stood up for me yet! As if the world could hear my thoughts I heard a grumpy voice speak up.
"How the fuck do you know that rip off Pikachu is the traitor? Do you even have evidence to support the claim!" Bakugou.
I'm so happy right now, Bakugou at least believes in me.
"Thank you Bakugou, now can we please focus back onto class, or else expect some expulsions happening."
The rest of the class went so differently. Usually people would just whisper things to me when they were bored or finished their work early, but today nobody dared to speak a word to me. I also feel like everyone started to distance themselves a little bit. I even noticed a change in the Bakusquad as well. I mean they still talked with me, but they were still cautious around me. To be honest who can blame them if they don't know the truth about me not being the traitor. Even Bakugou stiffened a little here and there, but I mean with what he went through, he gets the most lenience.
Soon enough class ended, I decided to take a trip to the bathroom before coming back to the dorms. I have to let some of my emotions out before I end up breaking down in front of a ton of people, or someone hears me in the dorms. I check to make the whole bathroom is empty before going down to a wall, sliding down, and putting my knees up to my chest. I bury my head into my chest before letting my tears flow out like a river. Soon I started sobbing louder and louder, if anybody was right outside they would be able to hear me loud and clear. At this point I didn't care, I just needed to cry it out right now. If I didn't take this chance to cry, I would have probably did something dangerous.
"Why...why don't they all have faith in me. I just thought-...I thought that they would actually be on my side to stand up for me. I mean I understand that I'm stupid and all, but I didn't expect that I would once again be stupid for this type of situation as well. I mean I understand that Bakugou stood up for me, and yes I'm really grateful for that. But I can tell that he is cautious around me. It's as if he was just saying that so that he actually seemed like a decent guy by asking about the missing evidence." I let out a small giggle that was quickly covered up with some more sobs.
"I'm so useless. So so so useless. Damn it, why can't I be useful and actually helpful to people for once. ONE TIME! I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO THINK GOOD ABOUT ME FOR AT LEAST ONE FUCKING TIME! That's all I need, a conformation that the whole reason of my existence isn't so that there is that ONE person that is really dumb, and has strong set backs with their quirk!" I guess that's enough ranting for now, I should probably get back to the dorms now. I bring my hands up to my face to get rid of the tears that were still in my face. I get up from the floor and go to the sink where I wash my face with water to get rid of the evidence of me crying. My eyes were still a little red, but I should be fine if everyone doesn't pay attention to my eyes.
I walk into the dorms and all the chattering and laughing I heard from when I was right outside the dorm stopped instantly. Everyone that was in the common room looked at me again.
Their eyes...
It looks as if they are glaring at me.
As if they actually completely believe that I'm the traitor and they want to do something about it.
Do they want to beat me up?
Interrogate me?
Do they want to torture me?
Maybe they want to kill me?
Huh, if they kill me then that takes away the whole point of me killing myself to prove to them I'm not the traitor.
Suddenly someone speaks up from the group and it was the same voice that backed me up when we were in the classroom.
"So dunce face, how long were you planning on hiding your true identity from us? Were you trying to make us feel bad for you or something? Now I feel so fucking stupid for trying to protect you back there. At least now I figured out how big of a mistake I've made."
Huh, no way. Even Bakugou now believes that I'm the traitor. Oh this is just fantastic, now I don't even have A SINGLE person who believes me.
"What are you talking about, didn't you say today in class that there was no evidence? How can you be saying all this stuff without any evidence?" My voice was way softer and sounded as if I was about to breakdown any moment.
"CUT THE INNOCENT ACT DUNCE FACE, WE HAVE EVIDENCE NOW!"
"W-what..." I whispered out.
"YEAH THAT'S RIGHT. WE ASKED COPY CAT ON WHAT TERMS THAT HE WAS ACCUSING YOU OF BEING THE UA TRAITOR AND HE GAVE US SCIENTIFIC EVIDENCE! SCIENTIFIC EVIDENCE THAT LOOKS COMPLETELY ACCURATE! SO NOW WOULD LIKE TO SPEAK UP ON WHAT YOU WERE PLANNING TO DO IF NONE OF US LEARNED ABOUT WHO YOU ARE!"
"WHAT SCIENTIFIC EVIDENCE, HOW THEY HELL DOES SCIENTIFIC EVIDENCE JUST PROVE THAT I'M A TRAITOR!" I'm starting to lose it, just because something could be scientifically correct doesn't mean that it will always be true!
"And what even scientific evidence did he even tell in the first place!" I have to know what even it was he told them that made them all turn on me.
"YOUR QUIRK DUMBASS!" What about my quirk has scientific evidence about me being a traitor? I seriously don't get anything right now. "COPY CAT TOLD US ABOUT HOW ELECTRICITY HAS A POSITIVE AND NEGATIVE SIDE. THAT MEANS THAT YOU ARE USING YOUR POSITIVE SIDE TO CONCEAL YOUR NEGATIVE SIDE IN WHICH YOU ARE A VILLAIN AND WORKING WITH THE LOV!"
Oh my god, that was definitely a lot of information. And even though that is scientifically true, it's not the truth! Are they really relying on this scientific stuff to figure out who the traitor is. And is there no anybody else that has a quirk which could have scientific evidence which shows that they are the traitor. I thought everyone in this class would grow up to be pro heroes. Pro heroes that look way deeper into stuff and not just get one piece of evidence and be like, "Oh yup, you are the traitor. Time to get you into jail!"
If this is what the new generation of pro heroes are going to be like then might as well make being a pro hero just another category of being a detective. But even lower than that since they can't even do the freaking detective part correctly.
God, I just want this day to end already...
Actually I wish this whole day didn't exist in fact. Maybe if I didn't exist, I would't have to go through all this! Ugh, my mind is much a mess right now. I just need to alone time to myself in which nobody will interrupt me. Actually I don't even know if I'll be able to get that now. What if the second I come into my dorm room, somebody comes knocking at the door waiting for me to answer to I could just tell them things that aren't even true.
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