we are all going to a party tonight for Q's birthday which i will probably hate considering he invited the o'connells. i don't think billie will be there which is a plus. but even if she is i made my mom promise she wouldn't say anything.
i pull my tight black dress down a little looking at myself and sighing, whatever this will do. i sit down in the living room for a while waiting for everybody to be ready.
once they are done we all head out together, my mom obviously driving because she can't drink.
i think the party venue is only like 10 minutes from here anyway.
i stare out of the window at the la streets which are completely pitch black, but i'm taken out of my thoughts as soon as i see a building with a big sign saying 'happy birthday Q'. here goes nothing i guess.
i stroll behind my mom and dad, following them inside slowly, the loud music hitting my ears. Q runs up to us seeing us come inside. he gives my mom and dad a hug and then comes to me.
"your going to hate me, but please stay. billies here with her new girlfriend" he says, i roll my eyes and sigh. "whatever i guess" i tell him as elijah joins us, picking me up and spinning me around. "damn look at your fine ass" he says once he puts me down again.
i hit him in his arm lightly and smile as we walk further into the building. i walk around looking for a source of drinks until i pass the couch area. and there she is, sat there looking completely miserable ignoring everything the girl next to her is saying. "baby i'm trying to talk to you" she says to billie, kissing her on her cheek multiple times.
"god i'm not in the fucking mood ok! get out of my fucking life already fuck" billie yells making me furrow my eyebrows as i listen in.
"ok fine, i guess that's all i was to you then just a fuck" the red head says. "yeah you were, now leave i don't want to see you again, fuck" billie yells once again. the girl beside her gets up and leaves groaning loudly as she goes past me.
billie at the party^
well seems like she's going great. i move a little closer, grabbing a beer off the table and sitting down next to eli on the other couch. "i'm gonna get fucked so just save me if my mom sees me" i say, hitting my beer bottle against Q's and brining it to my mouth smiling.
"sup bil" Q says, trying to hand her a beer but she decline. "you not drinking?" he asks.
"naa i'm good dude" she says, lowering her head and then looking back up again to me.
i look elijah and smirk, leaning into him. "maybe if i get drunk enough i'll find someone to get with" i whisper into his ear. "well hopefully you'll choose me" he says, not bothering to whisper.
"hey eli do you mind not trying to fuck the girl i'm in love with thanks" billie says, looking at him with her eyebrows frowned. did she just say she's still in love with me.
"dude she's single, who would you rather her fuck. someone she can trust or a weird fucking stranger" he asks and she stays silent watching me as i chug down my first beer and throw the bottle on the floor before getting another one.
i open it and instantly start drinking it quickly.
"alissa can you slow down please" billie says with concern whilst everyone else watches me with entertainment.
"don't mind me eilish just trying to have fun and distract myself" i say, with a fake smile. i throw my head back onto the couch and look up at the lights on the ceiling. eli takes this time to run his fingers down my neck and place a couple of kisses on it. i can already feel myself getting a little turned on probably because of the alcohol.
billie looks away, mumbling under her breath. i finish my third beer and laugh to myself. i don't really drink to be honest which doesn't help me in this situation one little bit. eli leans over me and kisses my lips sloppily making me smile.
"what the fuck, dude stop" billie says, coming over to us and pushing eli away from me. i smirk and look at him. "alissa come with me and let me get you some water" she says, touching my arm making my flinch and pull it away.
i laugh. "you know billie, your hot as fuck but your a bitch. think of all the fun we could be having together tonight before you fucked up huh. oh yeah where's your girlfriend by the way" i ask her with a smirk.
"come with me" she says, ignoring what i said to her. "no thank you, eli let's go" i say standing up and grabbing his hand as well as some more beer taking him to a private room.
i lock the door behind us and dance around the the music, shaking my hips from side to side. elijah comes over and lifts my dress up behind, coming closer so i grind on him to the music. i pull my underwear down not even thinking for one second. then turning around and pulling down with his. he grabs me by the neck and pushes my face onto the bed so i'm bent over before he shoves his dick into me making me moan uncontrollably.
he wastes no time and slams in and out over and over again until he is satisfied. he pulls out and spins me around, shoving his length into my mouth and releasing himself straight down my throat. he looks at me and smirks before pulling his pants back up.
i lie down on the bed feeling exhausted as i pull my dress down. "rest a sec, i'll be out there with everyone" he says, before leaving. i should go over and lock the door right now but i'm sore and i don't want to move one bit.
i feel hot tears falling down my face, all my feelings suddenly coming back to me, being drunk didn't help one bit. i regret what i just did so fucking bad. i'm a bad person, i shouldn't have done that.
"alissa?" i hear a soft voice say as the enter the room, closing the door behind them. "billie" i say almost in a whisper.
"hey it's ok, what's wrong?" she says, rushing over seeing the tears fall down my face. "i'm a bad person" i say sitting up, but feeling so sore i between my legs that it makes me wince.
billie notices and looks at me with disappointment, "did you fuck him?" she asks and i nod. i know she's hurting but she's choosing to ignore it. "please let me take you to my place, i don't want your parents to see you like this. i'll sleep on the couch you have my bed so you didn't even have to go near me if you don't want" she says.
i nod a little, my eyes closed in deep thought. "here come on get up" she says, putting her hand under my back and gently pushing me up, supporting me the whole time. she puts her arm waist and leads me out the door, using the back exit to get to the carpark. she opens the passenger door and helps me in, leaning over me to do my seatbelt.
she grabs a bottle of water out of the back and gives it to me before she runs around to the drivers side. she starts her car, her loud engine echoing.
i look out the window, tears still falling down my face. "liss, what's wrong?" she asks calmly.
"i hate you billie" i say, not being able to control my emotions one bit.
she sighs and nods, "i know you do. but i love you and i'm not going to leave you no matter what you say or do to me" she tells me. we stop at a red light and she quickly leans into the back seats and gives me a hoodie to put on.
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i open my eyes seeing we have arrived at billies house, she runs over to my side of the car and helps me to get out, holding onto me tightly.
she struggles to unlock the front door with one hand but manages eventually and brings me inside.
we enter her room and she lets go of me, as i stand and stare around her room. not managing to control the tears that are still falling. she grabs one of her t shirts and comes over to me, beginning to pull the hoodie she gave me over my head, and then takes my dress off me.
her eyes land on my stomach where i have marks and scratches from eli. she runs her fingers over them and sighs, then pulling my t shirt over my head. "i'm sorry" i say, feeling my legs get weak underneath me from all the energy i'm losing.
"don't say that" she says, pulling me gently into her body as i grip onto her tightly. i cry into her shirt as she leads me into her bed, and putting the bed covers over me. "get some sleep ok" she says giving me a small smile, turning around to leave making me panic.
"billie no don't leave me, stop please" i say sitting up a little too quickly, feeling the pain from my lower half. she looks at me and nods, relief on her face as she climbs into bed next to me. i hug into her body tightly, sniffling as the tears start to slow down. i'm exhausted