(Note: For this, Henry and Edward are separate people, and are not related. For modern One-shots involving the two of them I usually always make them brothers, but for this one, they aren't. Also, like, angst warning. )
[Edward POV]
No, there's no way to change her mind. Her decision is her decision, no matter how much I would beg or plead or cry for her not to. But I can't bare the thought, no, please...Y/n...Please don't do this...
I shook my head. Stop with these thoughts, I need to focus. I pulled out my phone and went to text her.
E: hey, ik ur busy n all, but could I stop by? i just gotta tell u smth, just real quick, it'll only take a sec
My heart pounded. Part of me couldn't even believe I was actually gonna try to change her mind. Highlight the word try.
I continued to stare at the text, it still read only "delivered." How long would I have to anxiously wait for a reply? Then, my gaze hardened as it soon turned to "read."
Y/n is typing...
Oh, what is she gonna say? Please let it be yes. I need to do this.
Y/n is typing...
Come on! Say it!
Y/n is typing...
It's gonna be no it's gonna be no.
Y/n: yeah, ofc! srry, you might have to catch us in the street tho, we aren't going far, just to the flower shop to make preparations cuz yk. is that ok?
I quickly typed a reply.
E: yeah that's fine, like I said ill only take a sec
Y/n: okk see you then <33
I felt myself smile at the hearts, then I rushed over to throw on a jacket then practically flew out the front door. She said yes, this was really happening. I walked hastily as I went down the sidewalk and across the street towards where she lived. Luckily it wasn't far, only a few minutes. My legs shook and struggled to keep balance, and I felt my head growing lighter and lighter the closer I got to where she would be.
My heart pounded out of my chest. I saw her h/c hair flowing slightly at the small breeze there was. She stood there, looking around, then caught my eyes. Her eyes stared into mine, and I saw a smile creep onto her face at my arrival. I smiled too, despite my crippling nervousness.
As I got closer, she approached me with a quick hug, which sent my heart into a spiral. I hope she didn't hear it. Or feel it. Was that even possible?
"Edward, It's great to see you! Sorry this can't be long." She nervously rubbed the back of her neck.
"I-it's great to see you too." I stuttered. "It's okay, I'll only hold you for a minute or two."
This was it. The moment I've both been eager for and dreading for months. Everything in the world seemed to stop as the words began to pour out of my mouth.
"I-I just wanted to tell you something. I wanted to tell you..."
Spit it out, now, Edward! Please, this could be my only chance! I wailed to myself. This really was my only chance, and it would change everything for whatever the future holds. As I stared at Y/n, everything seemed to infiltrate my mind. Every moment we spent together, all the things we did, all the time we saw each other or hung out or anything of the sort. As I looked at her my heart began to ache with the intense emotion of love that I felt for her, I almost wanted to break down and cry, which I might do. My head felt like a balloon, my knees felt like giving out, and the world around seemed to black out as all I could see was her. I was sweating heavily, my stomach was turning inside out and turning itself into knots. The butterflies seemed to have made a whole colony there. I looked at the beautiful face of Y/n, still waiting to hear what I had to say.
"I-i wanted to tell you..."
Why can't I get it out, now that I'm here?! I screamed at myself. She was the person I loved more than anything in the world, more than the stars in the sky, more than there were grains of sand on earth or any planet. She was my beginning and my end, the sun and the moon, my first and last, the one thing I wished for more than anything I had ever wanted. The only desire I wanted out of everything was to be with her until time ended. I love her more than anyone, the words seemed to flow perfectly in my mind but not out my mouth. I felt my eyes well up with tears. How could love make someone cry? Y/n, her name in my mind seemed to make an intense rush of emotion throughout me. I couldn't even believe I could feel this way about another person, the way it affects me, it almost seems like symptoms of an illness. But I didn't care.
"Edward, are you okay?" She asked a little worriedly.
"Y-yeah! Sorry, what I wanted to say was-"
At an inconvenient time, another person entered the mix, and I was brought back into reality. His large and strong frame was familiar to me, along with his usual neat combed hair, and cheerful, friendly face. He gracefully walked over to Y/n, their hands instantly locking with each other.
"Oh, hey Henry! You're finally ready." Y/n said. Henry nodded. "Yes, oh, my apologies..." He chuckled, then his eyes flickered to me. "Oh? I didn't know Mr.Hyde was here."
The world seemed to crash down and burn all around me. I mustered up the best politeness I possibly could.
"Hey, Henry," I gave a weak wave. Why did he have to show up?! Why was he here at all?! I sighed the short-lived anger away.
"Yes, he just wanted to tell me something just before we went to get the flowers," Y/n told him. Henry nodded. "Ah, I see, what was it, if you don't mind me asking?"
"Erm..." I fumbled for words. My body felt hot with their eyes staring at me, waiting for the words to come. Then, I got a clear good look at the two of them. I saw something in them both.
Love.
I saw the clear love they had, even if it was just them standing next to each other. The way Y/n's mood seemed to lift at his arrival, and the way Henry always had a smile in her presence. The way their hands were locked, and I saw a shining diamond ring on Y/n's finger. This was something I would not be able to match up to.
I felt defeated.
I can't do this.
"I-I just wanted to congratulate you two." I finally choked out. "I wanted to do it personally...You're...You're really happy together, anyone can see that. I'm glad for both of you to be able to spend the rest of your lives together." Tears threatened to pour out of my eyes as I finished.
"Oh, Edward.." Y/n began. "That's so sweet of you, thank you!" She smiled brightly, which lifted my spirits for a brief second before they soon died as Henry spoke up. "Yes, that was really well-spoken." He praised.
"Thanks, well, I'll let you two go now-"
The two of them nodded, beginning to turn around and head over to the shop.
"I'll talk to you later, Edward, about the wedding details!" Y/n called out after me. I nodded in reply, unable to say anything back.
As I watched them walk away together, I felt my heart shatter into thousands of pieces. I watched the love of my life walk farther and farther away, never to return to me again. She was gone forever, and I just blew any chance I had. Maybe I didn't have a chance to begin with. No, no I didn't. I wanted to scream and beg for her to come back. As I watched her leave, I did scream mentally
No! Please don't go! Please don't leave!
My cheeks had hot streaks of tears falling down them.
Y/n...I love you, I love you so much..please don't go...
I finally felt my legs give out as my knees hit the concrete ground and an agonizing wail erupted from my throat, all the pain coming out in sobs, tears, and wails. Some part of me doesn't want to admit that I made the right decision. I couldn't make her happy the way Henry did. I could never match up to Henry. I never would. I never will be the one she chooses. She will always love him instead of me, and that's something I would have to learn to live with, no matter how destroying it may be to me. I could see she was happy. Happy with him, not me. That's something that matters the most above anything I feel, as long as she's happy. If she's happy, that's all that matters to me. I'll power through, I'll be here for here, even if she is married to Henry and not me, even if it is agonizing. I loved her so much. I loved her so much that I let her go.
[A/n]
sorry for the sadness ya'll :sob: now that angst is a thing here, be prepared for more of that
this almost kinda was like a vent, or just a vent about a personal experience. usually I like to channel that through writing, and maybe portraying it with characters to give better insight on how they feel and think about it all. i think that when you know and understand a certain situation, you can make it more in depth and give more emotion to whatever it is you apply it to, and that's something I try to do with these one-shots. hope yall liked it!