CHAPTER 16: Let me remind you
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Sobrang pagod na ko sa pag iyak. Ang sakit sakit na sa dibdib.
Matapos kong isend yung message na 'yun kay Roland iyak na ko ng iyak.
I was tired of crying. So sick of feeling terrible all the time. I just wanted this emotional roller coaster to stop.
If it's not because of my own recklessness I wouldn't be so disgusted with myself. I wouldn't have to let him go.
I wouldn't be this broken, miserable.
I fcking kissed him back. I cheated on Roland while he's patiently waiting for me to come home. I really needed to break up with him. Dahil 'yun din yung gusto kong gawin niya if he cheats on me, dahil 'yun ang tamang gawin.
Hindi ko alam kung ilang oras na kong nakaupo dito sa carpeted floor ng kwarto ko bago ko tuluyang nanigas sa kinauupuan ko nang biglang binuksan ng malakas na pwersa yung pintuan ng kwarto ko at iniluwa ang isang galit na galit na Roland.
Nakita ko kung pano nag tagis ang mga bagang niya nang magtama ang mga mata namin. He has clenched jaw, eyes with furry and balled fist. Halos mapalundag ako sa gulat sa sobrang lakas ng pagbukas niya ng pintuan.
Ngayon lang ako nakaramdam ng ganitong takot mula sakanya, galit na galit talaga siya. Yung kabog sa dibdib ko pabilis ng pabilis.
"Get up." He said venomously.
Napalunok ako, fear surged through me.
"I said get up!" He barked and with four long strides nasa harap ko na siya, he held me by the arm and pulled me up to face him.
Alam kong magkakapasa ako dahil sa kapit niya sa braso ko, sobrang higpit, sobrang diin.
"Just because I wasn't able to answer you 3 fcking phone calls you broke up with me? What a fcking selfish!!!" He growled, fire in his eyes.
I tried to compose myself and give the best and coolest mask I could pull off. Kahit alam kong konting-konti nalang iiyak na naman ako.
"Yes Roland, I am selfish. I am one self-centered btch to let you think that it was your fault when it was even mine."
Nakita ko kung paano kumunot ang noo niya, pero maliwanag pa rin ang galit sa mukha niya.
"I cheated on you Roland."
Agad niyang binitawan yung braso ko na akala mo ay napaso yung balat niya.
I saw disbelief in his eyes with a mixture of disappointment.
"I fcking kissed him back, I am so ashamed of myself that I can't even face you or talk to you that's why I let you think that it was your fault so I could keep my distance. I am one fcking selfish btch. But I saw your messages on Skype and I know I messed up big time that's why I just did the right thing to do. I needed to break up with you. I'm really sorry, Roland. Now get out, we have nothing to talk about anymore."
I winced when his fist landed on the wall beside my head. I cannot blink back the tears anymore; I let them fall without breaking the eye contact with him.
I deserve this.
He's fuming.
Pinikit niya yung mata niya and once again he balled his fist.
I can tell na nagpipigil siya ng galit.
Akala ko nung binuksan niya yung mga mata niya andun pa rin yung galit, pero hindi it was cold as Ice, I almost shiver.
"Did you.. did fck him?" He asked. His voice filled with anger and agony.
Nanlaki yung mata ko, I wasn't expecting that. I just said I kissed him back!!! I didn't fck Blake!!!
"Of course not!!! We were drunk that time but he only kissed me... and I kissed him back Roland. I only kissed him back." There's a lump in my throat pero pinilit kong aminin yung kasalanan ko.
Nakita ko kung paano siya pumikit ng mariin,hindi ko akalain na may sasakit pa pala kesa sa nararamdaman ko kanina.
I broke his heart, it's crystal clear.
He's breaking inside.
Nanghihina na yung mga tuhod ko kaya hinayan kong mapaupo na ko sa sahig dahil sa sobrang pang-lalambot ko. "But when I closed my eyes I saw your face and that's when I pushed him." I whispered but loud enough para marinig niya din.
Sobs wracked my body violently. I trembled, my teeth biting down into my clenched fist as I tried to limit the sounds that were clawing at my throat.
"You don't deserve someone like me. I'm really sorry; I cannot do this anymore Roland. Please leave."
Biting back the sobs, I stood up started to walk away.
Pero bago pa ko makalabas ng kwarto ko hinigit niya na naman ako sa braso ko and pulled me to his chest.
Nabato na naman ako sa kinatatayuan ko, heto ko umamin about my recklessness and tainted his trust pero niyakap niya lang ako.
Ito na ba 'yun?
One last touch, one last hug between us bago niya ko iwan?
I cannot describe the empty and lost feeling that has been gradually accumulating inside my chest. It was just one thing after another and my body was too weak to soldier through it anymore.
Dahil sa panghihina ng tuhod ko, alam kong malapit na bumigay kaya niyakap ko na din siya pabalik.
I'm gonna miss him. I'm gonna miss this-
"I've never been this disappointed in my life Drei. I've never been this vulnerable. " Mas kalmado na yung boses niya ngayon pero maririnig mo pa din ang hinanakit sa pananalita niya.
Kumalas ako sa yakap niya para tignan siya sa mukha, "I'm really sorry Roland. You deserve so much better than this. Please umalis ka na." I said in between my sobs.
I saw something that softened the hard lines of his jaw, melted the rigid bitterness of his scowl and there was an existence of uncertainty in his gaze, weakening the commanding temperament like a boy who had suddenly stepped into a world unfamiliar to him.
"Masakit 'yung ginawa mong pagkakamali Drei," He bagan, our eyes collided and I saw him battling with fiery beast inside himself.
Maya-maya pa'y nakita ko na may luha na din na umaagos sa mukha niya "Pero p*utangina isipin ko palang na mawawala ka sa buhay ko, fck t*anginang sakit. Hindi ko kakayanin." He said shaking his head.
Umiling din ako, "No Roland, you deserve so much better than me. Forgive me." I said as I stepped back.
Mali to, mali.
Dapat iwan niya na ko, ang mga kagaya kong babae dapat iniiwan nalang.
Nadudurog na yung puso kong makita siyang ganito dahil alam kong kasalanan ko 'yun pero hindi ko alam na may mas sasakit pa pala nang bigla siyang lumuhod sa'kin.
And then all of a sudden all of my senses flew out the window. Wala akong magawa, na-estatwa na naman ako nang bigla niyang kinuha ang mga kamay ko habang nakaluhod sa harap ko.
"Drei, please.. You are already forgiven. Mas madali 'yang hinihiningi mong kapatawaran kesa sa hinihingi mong pag iwan ko sa'yo." He said while continuously sobbing, holding my hands into his face.
Muli siyang tumingala para tignan ako, my heart was breaking at the sight of his tear streaked face.
parang nakalimutan ko na in huminga. Am I hearing him right?
"Please Drei.." He pleaded. I closed my eyes so I won't be able to see his face. Alam kong ilang gabi akong hindi papatulugin kapag nakita ko yung ganong hitsura niya.
"Let's work it out."
My eyes snapped open when I heard the words came out from his mouth.
"What?" I asked in disbelief.
"Tumayo ka nga diyan. Hindi mo alam pinagsasabi mo, ako dapat ang gumagawa niyan hindi ikaw." Sabi ko sakanya at saka ko siya hinila patayo.
"I still love you, Drei." He said harshly, pulling me against him, his hand diving into my hair to clasp the back of my head.
"No matter what you did, I'm taking you back. I haven't loved- needed – to possess a woman like I love and need you. I'm sorry but I just cannot let you go, there's no goodbye between us right?" A small smile slowly forming on his lips.
Wala na kong ibang nagawa kundi ang muling umiyak sa dibdib niya.
How could I be this lucky?
I never thought na may mas iiiyak pa pala ko.
"Babe, I'm really sorry. But I promise I only kissed him back, I love you with all of my heart. Only you."
"Hush now babe, just kiss me and show me that I'm the only one here." He said while pointing a finger in my chest.
Hindi ko na inaksaya pa ang isa pang pagkakataon na binigay niya sa'kin, I kissed him immediately.
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Third Person POV
"I missed you." He groaned as he took full possession of her mouth.
Naalis naman din kagad ni Roland ang suot na t-shirt ni Andrea with one easy pull.
He watched her bloodshot eyes, the way they glaze over habang pinapakinggan niya din ang mala-musikang ungol nito nang simulan niyang halik-halikan ang malambot at makinis nitong leeg.
She holds onto him, dropping her head back to give better access to take whatever he wanted. Pabilis na nang pabilis ang paghinga nila, mas umiinit na din ang katawan nila, like they were on literally on fire.
Mabilis na natanggal ni Roland ang suot na shorts ni Andrea, his hands roamed her body. Touching her everywhere, feeding the fire raging between them.
Miss na miss na niya ang magandang babaeng nasa bisig niya. Halos dalawang buwan silang hindi nagkita at halos limang buwan na silang hindi nagtatalik. Kaya umanoy sabik na sabik sila sa isa't isa.
He used his mouth and continued to assault her senses. His fingers danced a determined tango along her skin and then her mewling sounds her luscious body, threatened what little bit of control he had left.
"Ahhh..fck...mmmm..."
Mas lalo siyang nag init, nagliyab nang marinig ang hindi mapigilang ungol ni Andrea na tila ba'y sarap na sarap sa bawat haplos niya.
Moving faster than he'd ever moved before, he undid his own jeans and pushed them to the floor, kasama na ang boxers niya.
Frantic, he brought his hands back up to her head and tangled his fingers in her hair at muli niya'ng sinakop ang labi nito like a starving man that couldn't get enough of her.
Tama, he was starving; he was starving for this precious woman he held in his arms.
Nang mapansin ni Andrea na wala ng suot na saplot pang ibaba si Roland nagsimula ng lumipad palabas ng bintana ang kontrol na meron siya.
"Ooohh...Drei.."
Mga ungol ni Roland when she move against him, nipping his jaw, biting his lower lip.
Her dainty fingers moved bago pa marealize ni Roland kung ano na ang nangyayare, Andrea had the hem of his shirt in her hands and she was stripping it off his body.
Skillfully, he undid her bra, freeing her breas-t. Dahan-dahang gumapang ang kanyang mga kamay sa malambot at mabibilog na dibdib ni Andrea.
Testing their weight and gently circling her ni-pple with his thumb until it was pointy and distened.
"I love how your body responds to my touch baby." Untag ni Roland habang pinagmamasdan niya ang mukha ni Andrea as his hands continue to massage her beautifully rounded breas-t.
"Uhhhh babe.. I've been longing for your touch." Andrea said throatily.
Ngumiti naman siya sa sinabi nito ngunit kahit ganoon at pinagpatuloy niya pa rin ang pagtukso sa katawan ni Andrea.
He skimmed his finger down the center of her breasts caressing her belly until he hooked his hands in the red lace of her panties, dahan-dahang niya itong hinubad habang nakatingin ng diretso sa mata ni Andrea.
Lifting her up in his arms he carried her over the bed and gently set her down, "I'm going to make love to you now, nice and slow Alixandrea Matthews. I'm going to make sweet, passionate love to you so you know as well as I do that we belong together. That you belong to me." He said intently staring down at her.
"You are mine, only mine." He added, lust and love clouding his eyes.
"Only yours baby, only yours. Please... make love to me now." Andrea replied huskily watching him through a lust induced haze that blurred her vision.
Hindi na nag aksaya pa ng oras si Roland, marahan at the same time mapusok niyang hinalikan si Andrea.
Halik na tatagos ng kaluluwa mo. Sipping at her lips, drinking her in until he felt drunk off her taste alone.
Hindi na siya mapakali nang biglang naramdaman niyang nawala ang labi ni Roland sa labi niya, ngunit napaungol din naman siya kagad nang maramdaman niya ang mga halik, maliliit na kagat at pag sipsip ni Roland sa leeg niya na lalo nakapag painit ng sentro ng pagkababae niya.
"Ahhhhhmm sht.. Babe please..." She moaned huskily.
Trailing kisses down her throat, moving further down to her sentive breas-t and down the length of her abdomen.
She gulped, trying to take in some much needed air. "I, I need.." She begged for something that she couldn't quite put a name to.
"Hush now baby," Bulong ni Roland sa tainga niya, "I know exactly what you need. I'm gonna give it to you nice and slow."
"Ohhh.. fck.... Ahhhhh yes..." Andrea moaned as he sli-d against her body, aligning them together perfectly, man to woman.
Awtomatiko namang gumalaw ang mga hita niya paikot sa bewang ni Roland. And then, with his eyes boring into hers, Roland pulled back before plun-ging forward, burying himself-f to the hilt.
Andrea gasped, screaming out his name. "Baby more..." She heaved on a ragged breath.
"Fck baby, I need more!!!ahhhhhhhh... mmmmm."
And he gave her more. He gave her everything she could handle and then some.
Each time she thought it couldn't get any better, he proved her wrong.
Sa bawat paglabas pasok ni Roland sa katawan niya mas lalo siyang nalalasing sa sensasyong nararamdaman niya.
Pasarap nang pasarap, nagliliyab ang katawan nila para sa isa't isa.
He touched her in ways that completely disarmed her senses. All she could think about was just Roland.
How he tasted, his drugging scent, his magic touch, all of it. He was driving her insane, pushing her past the brink of anywhere she'd ever been.
Wala ng kontrol ang natitira pa sa pareho nilang katawan, umanoy gumagalaw ang mga ito ng kusa. Hindi na napigilan ni Andrea na salubungin ang bawat pag pasok sakanya ni Roland.
Cry of pleasure, moans filled the room nang maramdaman ni Roland na basang-basa at napaka dulas ng sentro ng pagkababae ni Andrea.
His mouth possess-ing her in every way, her nails scori-ng the smooth skin on his back.
Roland lost every last bit of his control kahit sinabi niyang nice and slow, hindi lang yun ang ginagawa ng katawan niya.
Lumuhod siya sa harap ni Andrea, hinawakan niya ang bewang ng kasintahan saka niya inangat at bahagya niyang itinaas. Ibinaon nito ng buo ang sarili nito sa loob niya. Gripping her hands, he struggled to contain his own breathing. All he could see was her face as he roughly worke-d himself in and out of her.
Her eyes rolled back and she groaned, the sound urging him to go faste-r, harde-r, deepe-r.
Wala ng makakapigil pa sakanya, sa katawan niya. Her wet and warmth surrounding him was like being in heaven or maybe it was hell.
Wala na siyang ibang maisip, ang gusto niya lang hindi na matapos ang nararamdaman niya ngayon.
"Ahhh baby, faster...babe... pound harder.... Ahhhhh fck.."
Mas mabilis na sinalubong ni Andrea ang bawat galaw ni Roland, lifting her hip-s and holding him to her hanggang sa naramdaman niyang malapit na siya sa kung ano man ang gusto niyang maabot.
Her heavy breaths ceased and Andrea stiffened in his arms, her body squeezing him like a vice.
They stared into each other's eyes for timeless moment before she fell apart.
Roland made a guttural sound nang maramdaman niyang pinipiga ng pagkababae ni Andrea ang matigas niyang pagkalalake na nasa loob pa rin nito habang naabot na ni Andrea ang kasukdulan.
"Sht...baby malapit na."
He couldn't stop his own reaction as his groi-n tightened painfully and his own muscles started to pulse and strain. Giving into his desire, muli siyang pumatong kay Andrea at hinalikan nito saka niya kinawit ang magkabilang hita nito sa bewang niya and followed her into the deep oblivion of sweet ecstasy.
Finally after almost 5 months of not making love with her, he reminded her again that she belong to him. Not even a man like Blake Matthews could change that fact.
His love had truly come home. And being here, in his arms is right where she belonged.
"I love you so much Andrea, so fcking much." Sabi ni Roland habang nakabaon ang mukha niya sa sulok ng leeg ni Andrea habang hinihingal pa rin sa sarap ng ginawa nila.
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4/29/2015
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