10:12pm
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(Might be better to read it with the song ^^)
~JUNGKOOK'S POV~
At that moment when Y/N was shot, my nostrils was filled with the smell of blood and my stomach turned. In just a few short seconds, both of us was bathed in her blood, as though it was time to say goodbye.
Her skin had grew cold and became greyer. The eyes that always sparkle but had now became opaque when it locked onto mine.
I cradled her and stare into those beautiful dark eyes. The look that she gives me... I've always seen it in movies.
It feels like we were in the hospital, where love gets torn apart into pieces. I didn't enjoy the feeling, it kills me.
I didn't get to kiss her one last time which was a mistake. Or say how much I loved her. She had smiled so beautifully, like an angel before her breathing had become a loud ratter... then she was gone.
Right after, she was escorted to an ambulance. The hopelessness I feel when Y/N was remove from my arms and onto the stretcher. My soul had started shredding at the thought of her leaving me.
I was kneeling on the floor, the blood showered my hands and soak my clothes. Real blood is nothing like movie blood... just as real death is nothing like movie death.
What am I even saying?
I was shivering in fright and tears wasn't evaporating from my eyes. I wasn't crying because I was covered with her blood and it was like she was hugging me... as if she was still by my side.
Y/N, I honestly don't know what to say... there are no words that could express my gratefulness and appreciation for the love and support you have shown to me. Thank you for being with me till the end of this arduous journey of hunting the murderers down.
Just like my mum, you were brave, and I love you for that. I love you for everything you've shown throughout the time we were together.
Even if I broke my promise of protecting you, I'll keep the promise that I'll only love you and no one else.
Y/N, if you're out there... somewhere... I hope you know this.
I sighed heavily, laying on the bed with my soul feeling empty.
In this lonely night, this darkness, is getting hard. Is getting hard to endure life without you. And is getting hard to accept the fact that you're dead and no longer with me.
Life with you was short... if only I could turn back the clock... I'll find you sooner and love you longer.
Y/N... mom... if you can hear me, what am I now? What am I going to do now? Do I even have a future anymore?
Why does it hurt to love you?
Before, losing my mum makes me lose my sanity. Losing Y/N... makes me lose my soul. I'm all alone now...
~END OF JUNGKOOK'S POV~
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Thank you for reading!
~Xin
P.S: Ho ho ho, imagine if the book just ends like this :>