a/n: sorry about not posting for so long, but merry Christmas! Happy Hanukkah! Happy New Year! Whatever you celebrate! Hope this year goes great and a shit ton better than this story :)
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Paul held you in his hands. He smiled at you, everything was alright.
But you knew it wasn't. You knew that it was horrible, that the blade that was passing through your torso was not just a scratch or a little cut. It was the end. You were dying.
'Y/n.' Paul whispered, his voice shaky but strong.
'Paul, darling.' You reached your hand up and stroked his cheek. 'You are beautiful.'
And he was; standing there in the golden sunset glow of the Arrakis sun. His face was highlighted perfectly, his nose and beautiful lips were defined. Oh, those beautiful lips. The first ones you'd ever kissed. The first face you'd ever said 'I love you' to and really meant it.
It was one in the morning, and you'd wandered out of your house near the Palace at Caladan and found yourself at the beach, sitting just above the waterline so your feet were the only part of your body getting damp. You'd been kept up all night thinking about how the next day, well technically later that day, you'd be attending a ball on Paul Atreides' arm. The same Paul Atreides that you'd had a massive crush on for years.
The sound of feet startled you. Jumping slightly, you spun around to see none other than Paul. He laughed at you as you sat down.
'Jumpy?' Paul winked.
'Well it's one in the morning and I wasn't expecting anyone else to be here.' You sighed and turned out to stare at the moonlit water. You and Paul sat in silence for a long time.
'Are you excited about the ball?' Paul asked.
'Yes, I think it will be a lot of fun.' You replied sarcastically. The Caladan balls are mainly all talk and no show. It's a lot of ballroom dancing and chatting, not exactly your forte. 'Are you?'
'Yes.' Paul answered genuinely. You starred at him in shock. 'Only because I get to have the most beautiful young lady in all of Caladan on my arm.'
You gawked at Paul for a split second, moments of wondering whether he liked you back rushed through your head before you pushed them away. You then burst out laughing.
'What's so funny?' Paul asked.
'Are you trying to flatter me, Paul Atreides?' You said between giggles.
And with that, your giggles were cut off. The feeling of his soft lips pressed against yours made your stomach twirl and fly miles high.
'I guess I am.' He said as he pulled away.
One year had passed since the ball, and you and Paul sat on the roof of the Palace, your special place. You had found it about one month after you and Paul had your first kiss and he'd asked you to be his girlfriend up there.
'Why, hello.' Paul kissed your cheek from behind you.
'Hi, darling.' You waited for him to sit next to you, then snuggled up beside him. 'How are you?'
'Great, now that you're here.' Paul whispered. Dim moonlight spread across the beautiful planet, letting you see miles out to the water.
'It's beautiful tonight, isn't it?' Your voice was very quiet.
'Mmm.' Paul hummed an agreement. 'You're beautiful too, my dear.'
'Paul.' You chuckled, giving him a small shove.
'What? Can't I tell the girl I love she's beautiful?' Paul then heard the words come out of his mouth. He'd never said that before, he'd never said the 'L' word. Love.
'You love me?' You whispered.
'Yeah, I do.' Paul nodded. You saw how nervous he was about your responce. You assumed when this moment came that you'd be a wreck. You thought your hands would sweat, your mouth would go dry, you'd have a loss for words. But you didn't. You knew exactly what to say.
'I love you too.' You then leant forward and kissed him. 'Forever and more.'
'Forever and more.' Paul chuckled.
'Not now, Y/n, later.' Paul smiled weakly.
'Paul, we know there isn't going to be one.' You whispered. Paul's face twisted into a face that drew pain from the depths of your soul. He started to cry. Tears fell from his face as he sobbed through a pained smile.
'Yes, there will be. You- you just have to hold on.' Paul fixed your lying position on his lap.
'Paul,' you hissed as a stab of pain fell through your body. 'Paul, listen to me.'
'When you're better, when you're better.' Paul nodded through his tears.
Chani came up behind him, sweat dripped from her forehead and cheeks. The battle that had just taken place clearly took its toll on everybody.
'Y/n...' She whispered.
'Hi.' You smiled at her. Chani just stared at you, her face pale. Then she screamed. She screamed with all her lungs.
'HELP!!! HELP HER! PLEASE! HELP!' Chani cried out. You'd never seen her like this, so distraught, so concerned about someone. It seemed surreal. Maybe it was. Maybe your mind was pulling tricks on you.
People rushed over. Fremen all pitched together to get you aboard the ship. You held onto Paul's hand for dear life, literally. Tears kept falling from his cheeks, some went down into his stillsuit, others into his lips, and some splashed down and onto your own hand, burning it each time with the pain from your heart.
All you could think about at that moment was Paul. And that's when you knew you loved him. You didn't just love him, you loved him. You realized then, that when you love someone, as you take your dying breath all you care about is them, not yourself, them.
'I love you, Paul.' You said as the Fremen rested you down on a bed, not caring if your blood stained everything. 'I love you so, so, so much.'
'I love you too.' Paul sniffled. He smiled as best he could through his tears and sorrow. He knew as well as you did that today was your last day. 'I always will. Forever and more.'
'Forever and more.' You tried to chuckle, but instead coughed up blood. 'Paul-'
'No, no. Don't- don't talk.' Paul said through his choked breath.
'I have to.' You whispered. 'Paul, I need you to promise me... promise me that you love me...'
'I do, I promise.'
'But find someone, okay?' You smiled weakly. 'Have a family with them, love them as much as you love me.'
'I could never do that.' Paul shook his head.
'If you love me Paul, you'd let me go.' You smiled weakly through the pain. 'I love you so much, my dear. Never forget that.'
'I won't. I won't, I won't.' Paul gasped for air.
Now the both of you were balling. Silent tears fell from your eyes. Death wasn't scary. You weren't afraid of it. Death didn't scare you; it was the distance from Paul that did. It broke your heart and body to see him so sad.
'I love you, Paul Atreides.' You smiled and kissed his hand. 'I love you forever and more.'
Paul watched as your eyes looked through him. They went glassy.
'Y/n?' He whispered, praying to whoever he could pray to that it wasn't true. 'Y/n?' He said louder. 'Y/n! No! Nononono! Y/N!!!' He wailed.
A gut-retching, ear throbbing, heartbreaking scream ripped through the ship.
Paul felt his heart shatter into a thousand pieces, he screamed as his heart was stabbed time and time again. His cries were probably heard from miles off, but he didn't care. He wanted the whole of Arrakis to hear the amount of pain he was in.
He had lost you. He had lost the love of his life.
You had died. And he had died with you.
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