When I got home I was in so much mental and emotional pain and when I tried to take a nap at home I was having so many flashbacks I couldn't rest at all
I was unable to eat
I was unable to get sleep at night
I was always struggling with my flashbacks from all of the abuse I was going through
It was so hard and painful
I had stopped talking about American girl and my favorite Disney princess because I didn't want to have any flashbacks
I had changed up my style cause I no longer wanted to have the same look no more
It was so painful for me to look at my clothes I was wearing at the camp because every time I looked at everything I was having flashbacks
I was terrified to have the same look
I was struggling so much to reach out to someone where I was able to talk about everything that I went through at the camp with the camp counselor
I was suffering silently everyday cause I didn't know what to do at all
I was always in tears and I was feeling overwhelmed
It was just so hard constantly
I ended up carrying all the pain inside of me