You'd think since I'm a girl I would understand the mind of women, well, turns out I'm as clueless as a young teenage boy.
Since last night, Yeji has been apparently avoiding me for a reason I'm not so sure of. It's making me wonder if what had happened last night had made her extremely uncomfortable. That was one of my biggest fear of confessing my feelings to her, avoidance.
But again, nothing physically happened! So I don't understand why she's being short with me.
We were at our concert rehearsal and I kept trying to meet her gaze but every time I did she'd immediately look away. I flop myself on the chair next to Brandon who was working on the technical stuff and exhaled tiredly as I look up to see Yeji and Jisu laughing together. It sent a pang into my chest towards the similar smile she had on like last night.
Such a beautiful smile.
"Hey you." I look up to see Ryeong walking towards me with a bag of juice in her hand.
I smile tiredly and pat my thighs and opened my arms for her. She rolls her eyes and chuckles before sitting on my lap and leaning against my chest as I wrapped my arms around her waist and pressed my forehead against the back of her head and closed my eyes.
"You okay?" She asks as she places her hand over mine and started tracing soothing circles on my skin. I nod against her head.
"Yeah I'm just tired." It wasn't a complete lie, I had barely any sleep last night. She turns her face slightly.
"It's pretty obvious with that nappy hair of yours." She teases but yelps in surprise as I pinched her waist.
"Jerk." I laugh out. She chuckles but leans closer against me as I tighten my grip on her waist and placed my chin on her shoulder.
"That's the laugh I like to hear." She says softly as she leans her cheek against mine. I smile gratefully.
"Thanks Ryeong." I whisper. She turns her face smiling proudly towards me.
"Anytime Ryu." I chuckled and looked forward but froze seeing Yeji staring at me with a look I couldn't understand. Meeting her gaze however, she quickly turns away and leaves to get her mic checked.
Ryeong quickly grabs my attention by calling for Brandon. I chuckle and began to mimic her actions by calling him.
"He can't hear us with his ear in." she laughs. I smile and continue to call for him while waving my arm around. After a while he notices us and waves his hands frantically while apologizing.
After a while Ryeong had stayed by my side and began to watch Jisu's performance with me. We began to playfully sing the song with Jisu on our seats which kept us dramatically moving around as if we were the ones performing.
And later on we got super hyped and started jumping around in excitement, acting as if we were a midzy, which we were for our Unnie. Ryeong really knew how to keep my mind at ease.
"Ryujin you have to go now." I hear the crew member say. I chuckle and nod my head before waving goodbye to Ryeong who was pouting and waving back.
With a wide smile on my face I continued to follow the crew but my smile faltered slightly as I began to walk by Yeji who looked at me but quickly looked away causing me to grit my teeth in annoyance.
Before I continued to trail behind the crew I quickly walk and snatch onto Yeji's wrist and pulled her closer to me. Her eyes widen in surprise as I stared down at her. I lean closer to her ear.
"We're going to talk later." Before she could respond I quickly pull away and jogged towards the crew who hadn't realized I had stopped following.
I glance back to see Yeji and felt as if I was imagining the blush that was on her cheek as she placed her hand on her heaving chest. I shrug and turned back around and made my way to the stage.
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"Stop trying to avoid me Hwang Yeji!" I yell after her as I chased her down the hallway near our dressing room. She glances back before quickening her pace. I groan before sprinting and grabbing onto her and lifting her off her feet as I began to carry her bridal style. She gasps and narrows her eyes towards me as she tried to escape.
"Keep fighting and I will drop you." I sharply threaten. She scans my eyes but seeing that I was completely serious, she cutely huffs and crosses her arms as she looks away from me. I chuckle, making her eyes become even more sharper than it already was.
I swiftly enter our dressing room, grateful that no one was in here and placed her on her makeup table and stood between her legs and placed both of my hands on both of her sides to block her path to escape.
We're talking whether she likes it or not.
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Yeji's POV
"What do you want?" I annoyingly ask, ignoring the thumping sound that was being made in my chest at the lack of space between us.
Since last night I have never felt so confused in my life.
I don't recognize these strange feelings that I keep feeling ever since Ryujin began to ignore me. It was as if something broke inside me and when she finally forgave me, it was as if I was complete again.
I know it just has to do with losing one of my best friends/little sister, but why do I always get angry when I see her being close with someone else? Especially when Beomgyu called.
Ryujin scoffs and narrows her eyes before leaning slightly closer to my face, making me lean back until my back was flushed against the mirror.
"You're seriously asking me that? Really Yeji? Don't play stupid." I cross my arms and scowl towards her.
"Excuse me?" I ask offended. She raises her eyebrows and stares at me in disbelief.
"Are you being serious right now?" She angrily asks as she slams her hands on both sides of my head causing my body to feel strangely warm with the way she's acting, what would you call it?
Dominant?
"I have no idea of what you're talking about. Now, are we done here?" I sharply ask. I was feeling suffocated for an unknown reason and I don't think I'm liking it. But, I quickly felt my heart drop at the sight of the corners of Ryujin's lips dropping into a frown.
"You're really going to act like you're not avoiding me?" She asks, hurt laced onto her tone. I widen my eyes seeing her pained expression causing the pang in my chest to return. There's that pain again. What is this feeling?
Was I really avoiding Ryujin? I frown seeing her full lips quiver slightly, something she does when she's trying to hold in a cry. I quickly place my hands on her shoulders and pulled her against my chest.
"I'm sorry Ryu, I didn't mean to." I whisper. I feel a shiver go down my spine as I feel her cute button nose graze my skin as she buried her face in the crook of my neck. She wraps her warm, slender arms around my waist.
There it goes again, the secured feeling.
Shrugging it off I tighten my grip around her neck. She sniffles cutely causing my heart to swell.
"Then why did you?" She whispers.
Why did I? Why do I feel so angry whenever Beomgyu is brought into the picture? Maybe because I know Ryujin deserves someone better. Yeah. That's the reason. I exhale.
"I..I don't know but I won't do it again." She pulls away with her bottom lip sticking out causing my heart to race once again and unconsciously smile at the sight.
"Promise?" She asks with the look of hesitance etched into her unique features. I've always found Ryujin's Barbie doll feature incredible but somehow, now, I find myself staring and examining it even more than usual and every time I was, my heart would beat abnormally and unusually fast.
I place my hand softly on her cheek and felt the back of my neck heat up as she began to lean against my touch with her giant doe eyes staring right back into my hazy ones.
"I promise." I whisper. She grins and places her hand over mine. I suddenly feel my breath hitch at the back of my throat as she turns to my hand and places a soft lingering kiss on my palm.
Soft, plump lips.
She pulls away and I suddenly felt cold as she takes a step back and smiles at me while motioning towards the door with her head.
"We should go. The girls are probably looking for us." She states before heading towards the door and opening it for us. I quickly remove myself from this unknown trance and hopped off the table towards the exit.
As we were both silently walking down the hall, I feel hand quickly grab onto mine. I look over at Ryujin who was grinning from ear to ear.
There's that feeling again.