"Hyuck…" I knock.
It's been hours since the event happened and I just found the courage to seek him now. After all the contemplations inside my apartment, I finally decided to go after him and… I don't know why, actually. I just want to be with him especially after the event that he just won, and in which he had the full passion to win.
"Donghyuck?"
"Go away!"
"Hey…" I bit my lips and puff out a long breath.
He's inside. And he's right next to me but the door is keeping us apart.
"Open up, please?"
"Why are you here?"
"Congratulations!" I force an excited voice but it didn't come out, the reason may probably be because of the worries I had at the back of my head.
"Too late for that…" I heard him say in a scoff. "Go away Mark!"
"Listen here… I'm sorry!" I shout to the tip of my breath.
I anticipated words from him. Replies. Even breath. But then, nothing was what I heard. He appeared in front of me instead.
"For what?"
"I know you cried earlier—"
"Let's have sex."
"W-What?" I pull out a frown. "Donghyuck—"
"I don't want to hear anything from earlier. No Renjun, no kisses. Let's have sex."
"I don't think this is appropriate—"
"Because you'd like to have sex with Renjun instead?" He huffs. Cheeks puffing in madness and eyebrows twitching. "I shouldn't have opened doors for this bullshit—"
I groaned and let the actions flow out in which I've kept in—to pin him down and kiss him. I kept hissing through the torrid and immediate kiss but still, he was there to kiss me back.
"God, your lips tastes much better." I whisper in his lips and kiss him deep again.
The moment that I've laid my lips on top of his, was also the moment I knew I couldn't get over with it. His lips are perfect for kissing because it's thick and fruity.
I never stopped kissing him until we ended up on their couch which is near the door. He plopped down in a minute and pulled me down through my collar. It kindled something inside of me.
The lust. To feel him around me again.
"Fuck." I gasp for air and look down at him. "Let's stop for now."
"Why?"
Why is he so adorable?
"Let's go out and eat dinner." I pulled him up as he sat on my lap sideways. "Let's celebrate your win!"
"We don't have to."
"I want to." I grit and hold his hips harshly. "Let's go."
"Why?"
Big, wide, pretty eyes which hold galaxies flashed before me. His lips quivered which also fell a bit open. These pretty parts of his face were flashed before me and I can't help but get drowned in it. It feels like his eyes were pulling me from the reality and pushing me towards the dream of us.
Before I knew it, I already kissed him again gently. Moving my lips softly, making him feel every fucking butterflies that I feel right now as well. He's good at kissing me too but I just felt everything of it, now. He wrapped his arms around me and inhaled through his nose.
"God…" I look down when I noticed a bump on my pants. "You gave me a boner."
"Let's go upstairs."
I kept him still and sigh. "Donghyuck…"
"What?" He brattily raised a brow.
"I'm sorry." There, I said it. A thing that I've failed to say and the thing that I never thought I'd be saying to him. "I shouldn't have let him kiss me. It was my fault—"
"Why are you explaining?" He hissed. "I don't think you should."
"Why?" I tilt my head in confusion, totally not sure about why is he not accepting my apology and why he's mad when I just apologized.
"You don't have to apologize just because you kissed."
"You were crying and—"
"Do you like me?"
I gulp thickly, for a millionth time this day, and for the second time because of questions like these.
"I… don't."
"Then don't say sorry. Stop leading me on things." He scoffed. "You shouldn't care about why I'm crying. You shouldn't say sorry for it—"
"You talk too much, don't you?"
"I do. There's no way you can't make me stop."
"There is." I argue.
"There's none—"
In one swift motion, I raise him up, kneel to grab both his thighs and carried him like a sack of rice.
He doesn't weight much but still I can feel the weight, especially when he's squirmin and moving, specifically when he's punching my back while shouting.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck! Let me down!"
"Stop or I'm going to throw you."
"Let me down, fucking asshole." He punched me achingly, making me hiss in pain but I was determined to make him sit on my car. "Fuck!"
"Now…" I pant as I place him on the shotgun seat. "I need you to stay silent, and be as obedient as you can."
"No. I'm never doing that—"
I kissed his lips to stop him from talking. He groaned in my lips, forcing me away and glaring at me.
"Stay still." I groan and find the seatbelt around his waist. I just found out he's wearing just a short shorts and thin shirt. "Should I have changed your clothes first?"
"You could've, if only you had a brain."
I glared at him and flick his forehead. "To be honest I have two heads. One, for the brain, and one for your ass."
"Just the head?" He smirked.
"No. I'm going to shove it all in until you're crying my name and asking for more." I move until I meet his ears. "Don't try me, Donghyuck. Be still and I'll be gentle."
I could see the way his throat moved up in down, the way his body twitched, and the way his hands rose up to my shoulders.
"Where are you going to take me?"
"Suddenly coiling?" I chuckle and hug him, instead. I love the warmth. "I'm just gonna show you around because I didn't really had a plan for this. I just want to celebrate your achievement, with you."
"Jeno and I… We ate dinner earlier,"
I kept the frustrations in and try to listen.
"So I'm full."
"You didn't celebrate with your parents?"
"You didn't notice? They're not here! As usual."
"Did they know about this?" I ask in a whisper and look at his face. "What did they say?"
"The usual congratulations of course…" He smiled fakely, his sad eyes, then, flashed. "They allowed me to have the apartment adjacent to yours. They gave me a black card. And they said we're going to eat out."
"What happened, then?"
"I refused." He rested his head to the crook of my neck. "My father is still with his mistress and my mother is still a martyr. I wouldn't want to bond with them in that case. I wouldn't call us a family."
I rub his back soothingly. "It's okay. You have me."
"I know." He breathes out. "Even Renjun has you."
"Donghyuck—"
"It's okay." He pulled off a smile, lift his head, and pulled his arms out of my neck. "I understand."
I watch as he set his seatbelt himself, locked his eyes on the road, and acted as if a conversation didn't occur between us. He's so veteran in acting as if things didn't happen between us. He's so good at keeping his emotions in but he's so harsh when he vocalizes it.
What a feisty and independent baby…
"Where do you wanna go?"
"Anywhere!"
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"Seriously, a mall?"
"You said anywhere!"
"And I thought you were going to bring me to a place that I haven't been into!" He frowned. "Or atleast a place that's somehow romantic!"
"A mall, isn't romantic for you?"
"No!" He faced me and gave me his adorable pout. "How would you know anyway? I bet the only place that's romantic for you is a motel!"
"Hey!" This time, I frown. "Of course it's not! What do you think about me?"
"A jerk…"
"Your mouth really has no restraints, does it?" I hiss. "Do I have to kiss you for you to shut up?"
"I mean… you could try." He smirked.
"I will—"
"Donghyuck?"
Just when I was finally about to kiss him, I was stopped with just one familiar voice. It was lingering around the hallway of the mall and it rekindled the frustrations I had.
"What the fuck are you doing here, Jeno?"
"Do you own this mall?" He growled at me and gave Donghyuck a sweet smile. "Hi!"
"Jeno!"
I hate that Donghyuck was quick to give him his adorable smile and a tight hug. I've never had him around me like that before.
Wait, why the fuck am I feeling this?
"What are you doing here?"
"Oh! We're just here to celebrate, are you alone?" Donghyuck smiled widely, and then giggled.
"I had to buy some things for my apartment." Jeno swished his hands, obviously covering me from Donghyuck.
"You live around?"
"A bit far."
Okay… I'm fucking left out. I was the one who invited Donghyuck over but then his attention is given to this man right here whom we just met in this mall. He even smiled.
"Donghyuck. Let's just go home—"
"Do you want to play arcades with me?" Jeno beat me into it, which made my teeth and jaw clench in madness.
"Lee Donghyuck!" I shout. "Come here, and we'll go home!"
"You can't tell me what to do!" He scoffed, rolled his eyes at me and walked away as if I wasn't originally here to be with him.
Why am I fucking mad?
I don't know actually…
I just know that I hate Jeno. I hate the fact that he's around us right now. I hate the fact that he wrapped an arm around Donghyuck. And I hate to see them happy.
Before I knew it, I already grabbed Donghyuck's hands and intertwined it with mine. I crouch down and bit my lips in madness.
"Don't even try to remove my hands from yours…"
"Excuse me, are you hurting Donghyuck?" Jeno furrowed his eyes at me but I just raised both our hands up.
"He's not…" Donghyuck answered in a small voice and shyly moved away from Jeno to be with me.
I smirk and gave Jeno a shrug without Donghyuck seeing.
"I won." I mouthed.
He seems pissed off but that's the way I like it.
I swear this is not jealousy, now that I've come to realize what I just did. Because there's no way I like either of them. I just don't want Jeno around what's mine—in bed. And I wouldn't like to share Donghyuck, to just anyone.
"There are slimes." Donghyuck giggled and knocked the claw machine. "They're really ridiculous."
"Let me grab it for you—"
"Let's have one then—"
Shit.
I raised a brow at Jeno while he gives me a glare. I abhor him, truly. I don't like him for Donghyuck. I don't like the way he said it as if he can. And when we both said it at the same time.
"Nah, I already have one—" Donghyuck said but I cut him off, without leaving an eye on Jeno. "Let's have it Donghyuck."
"I'll try too."
"Good luck, then." I shrug and pull Donghyuck with me. I face the claw machine and dropped a coin for it to work.
Without removing my hands away from Donghyuck, I moved the claw until it's about to fall and when it did, it grabbed one, then the slime fell.
I groaned and do it again.
"Here…" Jeno says and made his way beside Donghyuck which had me frowning to the extent. "It's pretty easy."
"The claw machine I used isn't working." I click my tongue inside my cheeks and pull Donghyuck away from Jeno's slime. "Let's go home Donghyuck."
"Wait! Just have it!"
"O-Okay…" Donghyuck looked at me, and still grabbed the toy from Jeno and giggled. "Thank you! I will use it well!"
"I'm glad you liked it!"
"I loved it!" Donghyuck gave Jeno, his widest smile in which I haven't seen if he's talking with me.
My blood boiled from inside me and prominently, I don't know why. I don't know how. I don't fucking know this feeling. The feeling of uneasiness between them.
So I walked away with a big scowl on my face and left them behind. I'm pretty sure they'll enjoy things without me, anyway.