All I ask is if
The lyrics just played through the car radio as the rain outside pounded on the windshield.
This is my last night with you
I couldn't think straight. Memories of us just clouding my thoughts and emotions.
Hold me like i'm more than just a friend
I saw her again and again and again, just flashing in my mind.
Give me a memory I can use
Her blonde hair. Her soft hands. Her loud voice.
Take me by the hand
Her laugh, oh god her fucking laugh.
While we do what lovers do
"FUCK!" I screamed inside my car. My emotions are getting the best of me now.
It matters how this ends
"I fucking hate you so much!" I yelled, my voice cracking with the half lie half truthful statement.
'Cause what if I never love again?
Hot tears slid down my face as I tried to regulate my breathing. I picked up my phone as I changed the song in my playlist. It was a private one, that way none of my fans could realize how much I miss the girl who stole my heart.
Closure by Hayd Music came on and that was when I decided music was enough for now. I knew the decision I was about to make, I'd regret. It was three in the morning and I wasn't even sure what time it was there.
The noise of each number clicking in the dial pad made my anxiety increase tenfold. I hit call but it went directly to voicemail. I called again and again and then once more before calling it quits. Except on the last one I didn't hear the usual leave a voicemail after the tone. I heard silence and just assumed I wasn't paying attention.
I threw my phone across the car, letting my emotions control me once again.
"BLOODY FUCKING HELL!" I screamed, punching my steering wheel and feeling instant regret.
"Oh, fuck." I sighed, looking at my hand and already seeing it start to bruise up. I picked up my phone and saw the call was still connected. I quickly hung up and decided just to go back home, a million thoughts rushing through my brain. Only one made me question it all.
Did Fallon just answer my call?