[Sindy ]
After a whole lot of convincing and begging Cici she straight up refused to take my helping hand , I really do not understand why most abused women have withdrawal syndrome , like really you in toxin relationship and yet you just decided to stay for what vele ? I wish some one can help me understand because I’m done .
we decided to go shopping in fact it was her idea
“ let's go spend Zweli money and see if few thousands will erase my scars “ she said that dragging me along with her the girl is a shopaholic an loves her designer clothes , too bad that she lost so much weight and that banging body is long gone
we bought few cloths she did her hair and nails , she looked like her old self again , spending time with Cici was weird because she will cry , smile and laugh at the same time but honest fact i was getting to know another side of her and she is just humble girl who loves things , we finally decide go to news café since I was thirsty and hungry, what suppose to be just few glass of wine and chat turned out to be a bottle and half , shit I’m driving and so tipsy right now
Me : “ so tell me why did you decided to stay ? “
Her : “ Sindy please let's not talk about this … “ she sigh
“maybe I’m waiting for my coffin , can you believe that Sandile Zweli father my Ex told me I’m digging my own grave because I have one ticket out of this relationship and its in a coffin “
I choked on my drink , “ what ? “
Her : “ but honestly I don’t know , Zweli is devil’s son , I thought I escape from his father abuse and insult but Zweli is worse , I somehow blame it on his upbringing , being raised by Sandile can turn any one crazy “
Me : “ Zoe is not like them though “
Her : “ how sure are you ? “
Me : “ look I still think that you need to get out of that relationship there is no love there if you hurting “
Her : “ I know ,”
Her phone started buzzing and she took it and looked at it
Her : “ shit I totally forgot this dinner thing with anti Ntombi , fuck this man is going to kill me, I have to go love “
After dropping her off , I set on my car lost in thought , I had a bad feeling about this whole Cici thing , my phone started buzzing it was a massage from Zoe “ BITCH I'M IN TOWN , WHERE ARE YOU ? “
Me: “ meet you at Mpume’s in 30 min “ I texted back
Just what I need a crazy Zoe in my life to lift up my spirit
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[Mpume ]
“ how is my baby “ he asked as I sat on top of him squatting position facing him , Joy was out with the Lu parents , they were in town just to take may baby and stroll around town with her, so I let them be.
Me : “ mama uthi they in the Zoo now “ I wrapped my hands around his neck .Lu is rugby fan and right now he was glued on the Tv , while I pecked his lips
Him : “ babe I’m watching the game “ his hands were caressing my thighs
Me : “ you know what I hear “
Him : “ what? “ he asked that while trying to move me from his view
Me : “ silence it means that mommy bear and papa bear have to play “
him : “ mmmm sounds tempting but after first half baby “
me : “ Lubanzi record that shit you will catch up hawu come on man “
he raised his left eyebrow at me, looked at me like what did you just say ?
him : “ you seating on top of me just do you thing women and stop demanding my dick “
I took off my dress and was left with my thong , I have no clue how to take charge but well I need him now so I started kissing him, on his lips , jaw line neck , he made it easy for me because he had no t-shirt on tso I moved my hands to his his hard abs , and went down on him ,
Him : “ come on Mpume man , I’m trying to watch the ….aaaahhhhhhhhh “
I guess I’m doing something right , I was sucking , leaking and gagging on his shaft like a pro , he pulled my head up , pulled me up , threw me on the couch , there goes my attempt of being in charge
“ I will end up with no under wear if you keep tearing them apart “
He did not listen ripped off my tong
Me : “ haaa … lu … “
No warning no nothing I felt him entering me , it was a bit painful so I screamed , I don’t know when will I find his dick size normal or get use to it, with out any warning he was in , I screamed and I wanted to pull my hair out the pain was overwhelming but soon after pleasure slowly started kicking in he was fast and had no mercy on my pussy , I was biting my lip just to suppress my screams and moans he lifted me up to sit on top of him not even removing his cock inside of me he made me move my body up and down on him , his squeezed my ass , his hands moved to my waist and landed on my breast , God this was heaven , he started grabbing me close to him and I knew he was close , our breathing was heavy and I felt a ball of pleasure rushing over me we climax at the same time and I collapse on his shoulder while I gasp for air ,
Him : “ ok who are you and what did you do to my wife “
I laughed ,
Me : “ I think I have an addiction “
Him : “ is my sex game that good”
I laughed , Trust Lu to say that ,
He started kissing me softly that I started floating again , he moved me to the carpet it was a bit chilly today and as if Lu read my mind he pulled the throw from the couch and cuddled with me , his come was sticky on my thighs
Me : baby let me go wipe your babys on my thighs “
He did not respond but started kissing me , this man here takes me places all the time ,ooh this strong arms I can not explain what they do to me when they hold me, he was massaging my small round
breast , I let out a moan while my hands ran on his face
“ family we home “ we both froze oooh shit !
Lu: “ FUCK LANGA MAN YOU CAN NOT COME AND GO AS YOU PLEASE IN MY HOUSE !!!”
The couch was shielding us since we in the floor i quickly hide my nakedness while Lu searched for his pants and this lunatic who is my brother in-law decided to have a pic on what was going on the floor
Langa : “ what the fuck?? We're yu having sex !!…. Yooo Zoe check this out … this two are humping in the the seating room floor “ he was laughing like a hyena
Zoe : “ no ways let me see “ I heard her running towards our direction , Lu quickly got dressed
Me : “really Zoe huuuu go away!! “ thanks God for this throw , Zoe looked at us and took out her phone
Her : “ say busted ! “ she was busy taking snaps shorts
Yazi this two are just too childish man , Zoe went to show Langa the pics while I just wish to dig a hole right now
Lu pulled his pants up jumped up and ran after his brother who was laughing like a retard
Lu : “ when I get you boy you will be sorry “
Zoe : “ oow my god you little slut , you doing it every where this days“ she took a pick and send it to our social group ooh shit Sindy will be on my case the whole month
I rolled my eyes” Zoe come on man grow up ,” I folded my hands while Lu came back with Langa and they were doing those crazy hand shake and laughing
Lu : “ hay Snowy “ Lu he attempted to hug Zoe and she gave him the hand
Zoe : “ ow hell no Mr , your chest was all over that cleavage “ we all laughed while Lu picked me bridal style “ lets go take a hot steamy shower my love “ I wrapped my arms around his neck
“ I will love that “ I said kissing him
Zoe threw a pillow at us,
“ guys really now we visiting yall and you do us like this ? “
Lu : “ you came announced so feel free to leave if we do not come down “
Langa : “ fuck you guys!!! “ I laughed , looked at them make there way to the kitchen ,
Me “ you know they going to finish our food right? “
Lu: “ that will buy us time to finish what you started “
He wiggled his eyebrows , I threw my head back and laughed
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[Zoe ]
Langa : “ so when were you going to tell me “
Me : “ because you panic a lot babe … mi try this pudding out “ I feed him a spoon full of chocolate pudding that was to die for , I was not ready to be all open and confide to Langa about my panic and anxiety attacks that I have been having , this talking about your problems bull shit has got me messed up , not in my wildest days have I thought that I will have a panic attack , I feel like I’m not in control of my life , I have insomnia and nightmares , I guess it's true I’m not dealing with my past , Langa worries too much and I don’t want to bother him with this not when we are in good space right now. He looked at me with those puppy eyes trying to read my thoughts but I distracted him by kissing him and feeding him this delicious pudding , shit Mpume excel in this cooking business , it as if she went to school for it
Langa : “ oow Maria mother of Christ haleluya .. this is aahhhh , give me more … “ he was busy going around with his airbord and making me dizzy at the same time , he only gets off that shit when his driving or sleeping it like his legs are glued to it , I made my way to sit on the kitchen counter, he moved and stood in between my legs , I looked deep in his eyes , his eyes and dimples are my weakness and he gave me side smile which revealed his dimples aish I’m in love with this God's finest creations , Langa is just too handsome and he knows it and owns it
Him : “what? “
Me : “ you cute yazi “
Him : “ now you notice that ? “
I chuckled “ uyazistela Dlamini yazi I take that back “
Him : “ you wish look at me .. I’m all that “
Me : “ really I guess I’m the lucky one to have you ke … because you all mine “
He came close and kissed me
“ never forget that “ I wrapped my arms around his neck , he dippened the kiss trust Langa to always be horney to my touch , he moved his hands under my t-shirt and squeezed my breast ,
Me : “ mmmm “
him : “ I love you “
me : “ I love you more “
him : “ you do know that even when you 80 years old I will still tap you from behind right “
I hit his shoulder
“really Langa? Ill stop having sex the minute I turn 50 “
Him : “ well if I can still get it up , I will still lay you down” he bite my neck , ok I was feeling a bit hot now , shit I hate being this venerable to his touch ,
Him : “ i hate it when you wear this tight jeans , ngabe sesiqedile baby “
I laughed at him while he pinned his lips on my
“ come on cut it off guys really in the kitchen “ I turned around
Me : “ my bitch how are you ? !“
Sindy : “ I need a drink as in right now “
Langa : “if I did not know better I will say you are a drunk now “
She gave him a figure , while I laugh , jumped off the counter and ran to hug her , Langa disappeared on the hallway
Sindy looked drained , like she was bothered by something we set down while she placed her head on my chest
Her : “ I miss you friend “ I brushed her back
Langa :sweet or spirit ? “
We turned and looked at him , Langa was holding a a bottle of skyy vodka with Amarula
Me : “ where did you get that ? “
Him : “ women stop asking me question and decide what you want to drink “
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[Langa ]
“ so its true that you are on some self defence class? “
Sindy rolled her eyes
“shit can Menzi keep his mouth shut kodwa , “
Zoe : “ technically he told me , and I told Langa , who told Sbu and … “
I laughed “ hawu nkosi yami my business is out there now , so did he also tell you my favourite sex position ? “ Sindy was acting extra while me and Zoe bust out and laughed at her
Zoe : “ well he kinda said that you like it when … “
Her : “ haaaaaa!!!!!Zoe just stop ok “
This was just crazy and Zoe and we were cracking up like crazy
Sindy : “ I’m going to kill him yezwa “
Me: “ on a serious not why vele .. are you in some sort of danger or trouble ? “
Sindy : “ nop, I am just doing it to defend myself should I find myself in jam “
We were half way through the bottle and still no sign of Mpume and Banzi …I looked up the stairs and no sign of them
Sindy : “ don’t put your hopes up they wont come down anytime soon , they are on a sex fiver and they will lock them self in there room for hours “
Zoe : “ dick must be good “
Sindy : “ and he will ride her for hours “
Me : “ hay ..hay ! man in the room … and you talking about my brother and his dick … uwww that just not on “
They laughed while I felt like throwing up , I looked at my wrist watch
Me : “ Zoe its getting late we need to drive to your aunts “
Sindy : “ oooh that is why you here ? , engagement dinner ?“
Zoe nodded
Zoe: “ now I need to act all surprised because you already told me “
Sindy and Zoe laughed
Sindy : “ you better speak some sense to Cici , she need to leave you abusive brother “
I looked at Sindy like why did you have to go there now , Zoe face changed to panic mode
Zoe : “ what! ? “
Sindy looked at her and at me
“ nothing Zoe , I was just … “
Zoe : “ oooh no don’t you start hiding this from me … how long has it been happening ? “
Me : “ babe “ she looked at me and gave me the hand
Her : “ not now Langa… talk Sindy man “
Sindy : “ it never stopped Zoe … your brother is a monster he's busy humping my sister on the side and beating Cici to a pulp “
Zoe : “ what ! “
i looked at Sindy like why did you have to run your mouth kodwa Sindy
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[Zoe ]
We finally arrived at Keven’s place ,
and by the look of it we were late judging by the car packed outside, we sat in car in silence, Langa held my hand
Me : “ Langa I’m fine , lets just drop this and celebrate my Aunts big day “
Him : “ we talked about this baby , why you so cagy when it comes to your feelings “
Me : “ we late Langa , lets go “
He sigh and unlocked the car door ,
my mood was sour the whole evening maybe Langa was right is was a bad idea coming here after I heard that Zweli is turning to be my father in every way , I looked at everyone having fun my dad was on long conversation with Keven , Langa was with Brian and Zweli , Langa was glancing at me and I will fake smile , and he will shake his head in disbelief that I was ok, he was not buying my actions at all , I looked at Cici she was all smiling with my Aunt , how does she do it , how long will she pretend to be ok , is her love for my brother really blinding that much that she can not see that there is no love in an abusive relative . I took my glass and walk outside I needed air all of this was suffocating me I sat by the door steps and just looked at the quiet neighborhood ,
“ it’s a bit chilly to be seating outside alone “
Great his the last person I want to talk to right now
Me “ I’m ok Baba”
Him : “ you very quiet today ... are you sure you all right ? “
Me : “ I just need to be alone please “
He sigh “ is everything alright between you and Langa ? “
Me : “ that will make you soo... happy right ? “
Him : “ Nokuzola !”
I stood up and attempted to walk away from him , but he held my hand I felt like screaming the last time this man held my hand was when he was beating me up into a pulp
Me : “ let go of me “
Him : “ I’m sorry , I can see you upset I was just trying to... “
Me : “ you too late to start acting like a father to me right now! “ I yank my hand from him and left him standing there , while I was drinking wine I felt eyes digging hole on my back , before he could speak I smelled his intoxicating cologne
Zweli : “ you seemed a bit off and you avoiding me sengenzeni ? “
Me : “ the last time I checked we were not talking so your presence is not appealing to me right now “
Him : “ Zoe you're acting way to childish , come on how many times must I say I’m sorry , for goodness sake we fighting over something that happened two years ago , really Zoe ?? “
He was standing right in front of me now , I felt my blood boiling
Me: “ childish you say? “ I laughed at him
Him : “ look I’m not happy about what I did , but look Mfethu me and Cici are working on it .. “
Me : “ you working on it Zweli ? fucking Portia every time you get , and forcing Cici to be happy about it and she must be understanding and now you want me to stand here and say I understand as well ,”
Him : “ clearly talking to you , is like talking brick wall “
He clicked his tongue , and walked past me pushing and bumping me intentionally
I laughed at him and shook my head
“ like father like son I see “
“ what was that Zoe? “ he roared !
“ you heard me nje “ I placed my hands on my waist , while I studied his facial expression his face turned navy with veins popping on his forehead
I laughed not because I was amused but the way he was acting really got to me
“ I see the apple doesn't fall far from the tree ... you hypocrite yazi all along you hated that man we call our father the way he treated us and wena you turn around and do the same thing .... womanizing and beating women up you no better than him Zweli and from how you acting you even worse “
I felt a sting on my face, wow he just slapped me for telling him the truth , with ought thinking I splashed him with the content of wine I was drinking and found myself on top of him beating him like my life depended on it
Aunt : “ Zoe stop this ...stop it you two ! “
Langa pulled me away from him
“ you so used at slapping girls you think you can do that to me!!!?
Dad : “ you did what Zweli ?? “
Dad started pushing him and manhandling him
Langa : “ hay are you ok ? “ he was looking at my face and brushing it
Me :” I’m fine , ... Langa I’m fine !!!“ I attempted to walk away but stopped and looked at Zweli and my father arguing
Me : “ wena stay away from me or else .... “i pointed a figure at Zweli who looked like a wet dog , the house was just chaotic , Aunt was busy swearing at zweli for laying a hand on me , while my Father wanted to smack him all over
Langa : “ Zoe ... baby please come down “
Me : “ don’t tell me to come down Langa ... I’m sick and tired of this Bull shit , we acting as if everything is hunky dory while it not , Sandile you made us like this , and wena Auntie you turned a blind eye , we carry so much hate and anger , I hate how I feel , I hate that I have to pretend to be ok while I’m not “
The waterfall was just pouring down on me , i never realized that I hated my family so much like I was feeling today , I thought I have grown pass the fact that my mother left me because of my father’s abuse and my Aunt help her leave me , I hated that my father will compare me to my mother every time I did something wrong while growing up , I hated the fact that Zweli took all the beating that was meant for me when my father got too angry to control his temper , but the final nail in my bleeding heart was losing my baby from hand of man I called my father , and now I have to act and pretend I was happy while Zweli is becoming the man I hate … that I wish death upon
Aunt : Zoe enough “
Me : “ no it's not ...you turned a blind eye Anti while our Father was accusing us for his failed relationship with our mothers , you Knew how much he hated me ... he blamed me for the fall out of love between him and my mother , he blamed me for my mother leaving him ... Zweli took all his beating and madness so that he can protect me and now look at him his turning him into him ... but nobody is doing anything about it ..... he robbed me off my baby by using his controllable temper to discipline me ... who on his right mind beat up a pregnant women “ I hate you Sandile and I hope you rot in hell “I was a rack I was crying uncontrollable I was mad I hated that I felt this angry and why now did I have to lash out , Langa held me close and shield me from the people I called my family , he is the only family I know after all who will always be there for me , i felt as if my guts were coming out , did i hold so much anger that i did not realise that it was destroying me inside
Langa : “ I’m going to take her home ....“