still my birthday hehe
i've literally wrote down ideas for the next like 10 chapters and i'm so excited man, so excited
tw: talk of body dysmorphia
the next day
athena pov 10:21am
i woke up to my phone going crazy.
i let out a audible groan and put my pillow over my head.
it was no use, the phone literally would not shut up.
"why" i grumbled, reaching over to grab my phone.
the reason everyone was going crazy was because of the dream tweet.
it was 1k likes away from hitting 300k .
it's so crazy to think about it man.
but my mood immediately lightened at the realisation that i could meet my best friends.
i threw my phone back down and rubbed my eyes.
i was really getting better since everything that happened with declan. my mental health still isn't great, but i'm trying! i'm trying to wake up with a more positive mindset, or whatever. i don't know how to really express my feelings. or talk about them or anything. but all i know,
is everything doesn't hurt as bad anymore.
which i see as improvement.
i got up from my bed and walked over to my clothes rack.
what to wear... what to wear...
i just chose something i felt comfortable in.
my glance moved over to my wall as i walked away with my clothes.
my mirror was still covered with one of my blankets. that's the one of the things i struggle with the most.
body image.
every time i look in the mirror , i see a different person.
i don't truly know what i look like. in my eyes, i'm all distorted, and odd. but i'm also working on that. i'm trying to fall in love with myself again.
and just,
fall in love.
not just with myself.
but i think i got that covered already.
i threw on my clothes and roughly made my bed for the day.
outfit in question <3
i sat down and checked my phone again. the tweet was now about 500 likes away. not far to go. he was definitely going to hit it.
now my main question was
would i be invited??
i scrolled through twitter, smiling at some of the memes.
@athenaslefttoee1
me
i laughed to myself at the picture.
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@athenasworld
me too, left toe, me too.
i was about to put my phone down before i got a discord notification from dream.
teletubbie
wanna go to the uk?
(sorry to interrupt but this is funny
i was about to do my homework but then tubbo and billzo went live so i just instantly put my homework away and clicked tubbos stream 😭)
my heart skipped a beat as i re read the message.
this is a dream.
surely.
tears of happiness spiked my eyes. and i genuinely felt pathetic , but so happy. like so fucking happy.
blazer👍
youre serious?
teletubbie
dead serious
blazer👍
i feel bad for making you pay, but yea!
teletubbie
thena, i bought this upon myself, and i'm glad!!
i'll message you with more details tomorrow :)
blazer 👍
great! <3
i smiled down at my phone and a stray tear fell.
i should tell ranboo.
i opened my dm with ranboo to see that he was already typing , so i waited for him to finish.
mr boo
ARHENA IM GOING TO THE UK
athena
IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!
mr boo
YOU ARE TOO, RIGHT?
now, i could tell him that i wasn't, or i could tell the truth...
which would be funnier tho?
athena
i'm not so sure <3
mr boo
wait what do you mean?
athena
KIDDING YES I AM
mr boo
YOU SCARED ME FUCK
athena
omg
mr boo
what?!
athena
omg...
mr boo
WHAT?
athena
oh em gee...
mr boo
ffs what😐
athena
you swore <|3
mr boo
oh no <|3
athena
our ranboo... it's broken 🙁
i'm telling twitter 🙁
mr boo
NO WAIT
i felt a hot flush on my face as i kept reading over our messages.
i need to stop. i can't fall for ranboo!
and that's the part where i fucked up.
i couldn't stop.
and i hated it.
ranboo doesn't like me like that, so i'm setting myself up for failure.
rejection!
and what have i always said.
i cannot
handle
rejection.
ranboo and i,
strictly friends. we're just friends.
i snapped myself out of the ranboo thoughts, with a new thought.
i hadn't told tubbo yet.
blaze girl 😛
TUBBO
bee boy<3
ATHENA
blaze girl😛
IM COMING TO THE UK
bee boy <3
WHAT? WHAT THE FUCK
blaze girl😛
I KNOW OH MY GOD
bee boy <3
IM FINALLY GONNA MEET YOU
blaze girl😛
IM SO EXCITED
and at that moment, my heart felt full.
808 words
short chapter , very short chapter!
sorry<3
ily , go eat and drink!! take care of yourselves <33 <3