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june 11 4:30pm

athena pov

i was just lying on my bed, contemplating the last few days. i'm sure ranboo is a nice guy. i'm sure he wouldn't tell anyone. right? no matter how hard i try to convince myself to trust him, i just can't . maybe one day we will be closer, but for now, i'm steering completely clear of the neighbours. well, trying to. it seems that the universe isn't on my side. i ran into him the day after the dinner at the grocery store. like how does that even happen?

i got up and quickly shook off my deep conversation with myself. i'm just gonna stream. that's what i always do to take my mind off of things.

time skip: 6:30pm

"athena honey! dinner time!" my mom said, peering into my room slightly .

"okay i'll be down in a second" i replied , closing down phasmaphobia.

"sorry chat! i've got to head out to have my dinner. i'll tweet later!!" i exclaimed putting my ending stream screen on. "bye! buh bye!"

i pressed end stream and shut my pc down before hurrying downstairs.

i stumbled into the kitchen and was instantly surprised . "i - i didn't know-"

"did i forget to tell you? oh! miriam and her family are here for dinner , we needed to return the kindness. sit!" my mother spoke, gesturing towards our dining table.

i tried to fake a smile as i slowly walked to the dining table. the only seat left was the one next to ranboo. of course it was, why the fuck wouldn't it be. my luck . is. so. bad.

i kind of just tried to pretend like everything was fine. "sorry guys, i didn't realise you were coming over i'm a mess" i laughed, looking down at my creased oversized top.

"nonsense!" miriam smiled, taking a bite of her food.

i was so nervous that the uk could probably hear my heart beating, and my internal screaming .

"so how have you all been?" my mother inquired, looking up from her plate.

"good thanks !" adam replied "the food is lovely!"

"awe thank you ! i'm glad you're good!"

thankfully for me dinner went quickly , and you bet as soon as it finished i was OFF.

but of course my mom had to , just HAD to, offer for them to stay as long as they'd like, and with my luck, they obviously stayed longer.

in my room

twitter

@athenasworld

yall any stream ideas for tomorrow? i need to vary what i do a little more. i need to get as many cool streams in
as i can before college starts again 🙁👍

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@athenaSTAN900

maybe do a cooking stream or an irl stream or something!

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@user1019481

stardew valley!! such a great game . or maybe fnaf you haven't played the new one yet.

i continued scrolling through replies until i heard a knock on my door.
"come in!" i called, staying on my bed, my phone in the air.
"hey" i heard a deep voice utter from my doorway. it startled me so much that i almost dropped my phone on my face.

well. that was certainly not what i was expecting.

i immediately jolted up in alarm, letting out a loud gasp.

"fuck me i was not expecting a male voice you scared me" i laughed , flopping back onto my bed. "whats up"

it took me a moment for me to register who i was talking to. OH . OH MY GOD I - FUCK.

"you have a pc. neat!" he said, running his fingers across my keyboard . "what do you play?"

"some minecraft, phasmaphobia. couple other things"

"nice! anyway, off topic. umm" he sighed, pulling my chair out to sit on it. "i um.. came to talk about you know."

"i don't know." i replied, not even looking away from my phone.

"athena" he exhaled. "yes you do."

"there is no point denying it because i saw with my very eyes what happened." he continued, tapping his fingers on the armrest of my chair.

"okay fine whatever, declan hit me a couple times, i'm fine, can we move on?" i gave in to him. i don't know why, but it felt right.

(a/n FOR SOME REASON THIS REMINDS ME OF THE MELANIE SONG THATS LIKE 'uh-oh- there it goes, i said to much it overflowed' IDK WHY LMAO ANYWAY SORRY)

"what? what do you mean 'can we move on'" ranboo asked, giving me a concerned look.

i sat up to face him "i just mean can we move on. it's really no big deal, i'm fine." i choked, trying not to sound upset

"i'm not gonna push your boundaries , but just know , i'm here if you need me. quite literally. just over the street." he said in a calming tone, getting up and walking over to the door. "see you around, athena."

"bye ranboo." i replied, shutting my eyes tight.

this is what i mean man. i just can't seem to avoid him. anyway. enough of that.

twitter
@athenasworld

poll: what stream tomorrow?

stardew valley

VR fnaf

i quickly tweeted my poll and shut my phone off. time to shower. and i should probably clean my room, it's getting bad again. oh yeah, another thing to add to the 'athenas embarrassed list' ranboo saw my room looking like a shithole. p o g c h a m p.

i wrapped a towel around me, just as 'friends, chase atlantic' started playing. (A/N THIS SONG IS SO GOOD DONT EVEN) "ALL OF YOUR FRIENDS HAVE BEEN HERE FOR TOO LONG, THEY MUST BE WAITING FOR YOU TO MOVE ON!!" i screamed, using my hairbrush as a microphone
"AND WHAT THE HELL ARE WE? TELL ME WE ARENT JUST FRIENDS, THIS DOESNT MAKE MUCH SENSE, NO!" i continued the song, dancing around my small bathroom.
"AND IM NOT HURT, IM TENSE, BUT ILL BE FINE WITHOUT YOU BABE!"

"WOO!" i jumped in the air as i said this last line.
"what a bop. what an actual bop. my day is now better." i laughed to myself , towel drying my hair.

time skip (SORRY)

i finally walked out of my bathroom and checked my phone, am i surprised by the poll results? no. nope. of course my fans would choose VR fnaf. fans aren't fans if they don't take pleasure watching you be absolutely mortified.

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a/n this chapter sucked ass i'm so sorry 😭