“I wish I was. But I’m clearly so sober. Jaehyun, this book wasn’t the book I read in the beginning. I have no idea how she could know all the changes that happened after my transmigration and even written it down. I also have no idea whether I went in after she had finished writing the book and giving it to your grandmother. Maybe she was able to travel back and forth between the two worlds before she died, but the book always existed. At the very least, it proves that everything I went through was real. Even if that was in an unknown world.” While speaking, Xin Lisa looked straight at him. “I want to thank you for telling me about the existence of this book tonight. Thank you for letting me find out that I still have people who love me who are waiting for me to return.”
Jaehyun didn’t say anything for a long time.
Xin Lisa could feel how down his mood was.
After a long moment of silence, he asked, “What about me, then?”
You discovered that there are people who love you waiting for you in that world.
But what about me? Did you never realize that I was waiting for you too?
“What?”
“I don’t want you to go back to him. If you have to use an extreme method like death, then I’ll stop you. Xin Lisa, are you sure that the person who created this world is dead and that that world still exists? To put it simply, are you sure you’ll be able to see Jungkook and your child if you die?”
When he saw that she wanted to refute him, he went on, “Don’t do anything stupid and stop thinking about those ridiculous things. Can’t you just continue on with your life happily? Even if it’s…for me.”
“Huh?” The moment Xin Siyue raised her head to look at him, her brows were knitted in a frown.
“You’re a very special person to me.”
So, will you stay for me?
But Jaehyun had no idea that he would never get the chance to say those words he was unable to say to her again.
Xin Siyue’s two words of “sorry” and “thank you” were enough to stop his unspoken words of confession in its tracks.
Jaehyun couldn’t even remember what she said in the end.
All he knew that when she left, she asked him, “Can I take this book?”
Even if he was reluctant, he still nodded when he saw her earnest gaze.
Then, she thanked him and left with the book.
Half a month later, he finally learned that she went to do an on-the-spot interview for a small town where a magnitude 8 earthquake had occurred. Nobody in the publishing house was willing to take the job, so she volunteered to go.
Only, everyone was busy trying to save the victims after the disaster. Unexpectedly, the aftershocks came in, killing and injuring countless people.
Jaehyun watched the news reports silently. He could see that everything was in ruins in the disaster area, and he saw all the injured citizens, and also the people who were crying as they sent away their loved ones. Then, the familiar name “Xin Lisa” appeared on the list of victims. His eyes gradually turned red, tears slowly flowing down from them.
He sought help from all his contracts in hope of getting the chance to head to the disaster area himself despite Father Jeon’s firm opposition. But when he saw the scene with his own eyes…all his tiny hopes were shattered.
She was dead.
When she died, she still held that book tightly in her hands, and that book was covered in her blood.
But her expression looked so serene.
When Jaehyun cremated her with the book, he looked at the gray sky and thought to himself: did she return to that person’s side as she had wished?
Maybe he’ll never find the answer.
All he knew was that for the first time, he had someone he wanted to stay with, and she was gone.
Forever, never to return.