Time passed unnoticed.
The large living room was quiet without a single noise, with only Jaehyun sitting on the grey sofa with his arms folded over his chest.
The warm water in the two glasses on the table had long since cooled.
He sat there with his eyes unfocused, not looking at anything in particular. After a long time, he looked up towards the direction of the study. The door was still closed. She was still inside.
A faint smile slowly emerged on his lips. Was she feeling nostalgic? Or perhaps, was she mourning her long lost feelings and lover?
Xin Lisa wiped away her tears that had been flowing for a long time in the study. After closing the book, she saw a letter clasped between the last two pages. It wrote: To Jeon Jaehyun.
Her face was blank for a long time. Finally, she picked up both the book and the letter and went downstairs.
The living room was brightly lit. Sitting on the sofa, she couldn’t tell what Jaehyun was thinking about.
Xin Lisa walked up to him and handed him the letter. With her voice still hoarse from crying, she said, “It’s yours.”
Hearing that, Jaehyun looked up. First, his attention was drawn by her red and swollen eyes. “You cried again?”
Xin Lisa saw how seriously he was observing her and turned her head away awkwardly. But seeing that he continued to stare at her, she said honestly, “I just couldn’t help myself for a bit.”
The corners of Jaehyun’s mouth twitched a little. He didn’t know how to respond to her so he asked instead, “Is this from you?”
“No. It’s from the book’s author. I was asking your grandmother about her when we first met.”
Jaehyun looked at the letter but he didn’t seem to have any intentions of picking it up.
Xin Lisa said, “I think you should look at it.”
Jaehyun accepted the letter. After shooting her a meaningful glance, he opened it.
Words poured out over the faintly yellowed paper.
Xin Jaehyun could only see the title at the beginning. That person wrote: To the one and only person I’ve had a secret crush on, Jeon Jaehyun…
Jaehyun’s eyes dimmed after he saw the first line.
“To the one and only person I’ve had a secret crush on, Jeon Jaehyun:
Hello. I know you don’t even know my name, and I’m not going to tell you my name here. It’s enough for me that you know that there was once a very timid girl who once loved you.
The first time I saw you, it was an evening with pouring rain. After the heavy downpour all afternoon, the color of the sky was terrible. I knew there would be few people outside at this time, so I found the courage to go to the supermarket before it was dark. After paying, I turned around and was instantly greeted by the sight of you who had come in to buy an umbrella. When I saw your handsome face, I forgot to react for a moment, but you didn’t even seem to notice my presence. I know I’ve always had a weak presence, and I’ve always been very inconspicuous.
I bought too much and the bag couldn’t bear the weight and broke. When everything fell to the floor, you leaned over and helped me pick my things up. With blushing cheeks, I said thank you to you expectantly, and I still remember the “you’re welcome” you told me back then. That was the best sounding voice I’ve ever heard.
Jeon Jaehyun, I fell in love with you at first sight.
But I have nothing to offer you, I’m not good enough for you.
After a few days, I saw you taking a walk with your grandmother early in the morning.
I kept my head down and we brushed past each other.
In that instant, I could feel my heart beating loud.