Life update
Tw: self harm/suicidalness
Okay imma do a life update although I'm sure you guys don't care to much but yk, I don't care that you don't care.
ANYWAYS
Self harm: still a thing
A friendship: over
Girlfriend: still hot
But seriously I'm not a person to cry, but lately I've felt the need to cry or I have been crying and that's outta the normal for me so yk either I gained emotions or- I dunno
I've literally had a manic thing it was scary lowkey
I tend to get really sad when I'm in the house by myself, like I will just blast rage against the machine or slipknot or nirvana and just scream along while crying
Emotions am I right
I'm just a lot more angry and sad but I can't blame that in mental health or anything because that's just normal teenage hormones I guess
But I have been worse in all honesty
I don't think I'm as suicidal
But I've been worse as I just said
But I feel like I should just let you guys know how special to me you are because some of my friends don't even know this shit about me but yk I'm telling fucking people on wattpad
Anyway my mum said Kurt can't sing and I almost cried
But she said he's hot so ehh
Give and take
Anyway I feel like I should just add this and some people who self harm might get me on this but I'm so scared Because my family doesn't know I self harm and I don't sleep with pants on so if someone where to walk in and I had kicked the blankets off it's just be out in the open and obviously I don't wanna do that because I don't wanna make my family upset or some shit
And like I'm also scared if my parents find out I'm nonbinary because I just don't know how they react,
I told them one of my friends was and they where fine with it but they also called it stupid (but they respect there pronouns dw) and if I say my name is bean I feel like they are just gonna laugh and I fucking hate when they call me my dead name it pisses me off so much I just feel like they won't respect it
And I keep making suicide jokes and self harm jokes (coping mechanism) and they just laugh along ITS OBVIOUS DUDE JUST ASK ME IF IM OKAY
My sister knows and she respects it and all that shit and she knows I'm dating my girlfriend (parents don't) and she is happy for me and all that shit, side note I was at my girlfriends house and my sister called me drunk and was saying shit like 'I'm proud of you' and 'I will always love you no matter what' and 'I love you *girlfriends name* and your a great fit' so on so on,
So you could say my sister is a living saint
I ALSO CUT MY FRINGE TO SHORT AND I WANNA CRY BAHAH
But yk
That's how I'm doing
Anyways kurts hot as fuck and a bottom
Love you guys <3
Also you don't need to know this but it's funny: I was watching pOrn and at the end these two chicks just highfive IF I DONT END SEX LIKE THAT I DONT WANT IT