Omniscient
Atlanta, Ga
Armani laid down in her bed just staring at the ceiling in complete darkness. Tomorrow is the day her father passed and the closer it gets the sadder she gets.
She sat in her room as her speaker played throughout the house.
He havin' conversations in the dark, yeah, yeah
It's just me, myself, and my heart, uh
My heart said, "Under any circumstance or for any reason
Lay down your guard again and I'ma stop beatin'
Please, friend, I cannot take it no more"
Four in the mornin', while they sleepin', I'm wide awake
Thinkin' about the problems I faced, make my heart race
I done put my trust in so many, they all traded lanes
I don't know where I should start but it's time for a change
During the day, I'm Rod Wave, but I feel like Cobain
Do I wanna deal with the pain that tomorrow brings?
Might grab a gun, blow out his brain, he been feelin' strange
But then he think 'bout Reginae and think about Charmaine
So many smiles, so many hugs, but I still feel alone
Cut down the lights, cut off his phone, and get in his zone
Lost in his thoughts, he's in a vault, but his mind, it roams
And he'll give his heart to anyone who will call it home
And he's been like that for so long, since a small child
He'd be okay until he sober, then his thoughts pile
They be on social sites ridin', clownin' a nigga
Then he remember he's up two, 300, 000 on niggas
He havin' conversations in the dark, yeah, yeah
It's just me, myself, and my heart
My heart said, "Under any circumstance or for any reason
Lay down your guard again and I'ma stop beatin'
"Please friend i cannot take it no more" Armani whispered as tears slowly fell down her face that she didn't care to wipe off.
She smiled slightly as All in by NBA Youngboy came on next, she listened to this playlist a lot so she knew exactly what was next.
Came up outta that dirt pile, now I'm ballin'
And I don't need no church when I'm heaven-sent
Hope God put loyalty in all my friends
'Cause Lord knows I got they back to the end
Right now I'm recordin' with the mic' sittin' in my hand
I wish Three was on my left, where my styrofoam is
Got up out of Cypress
Went to the Woodlands, got a safe room in my crib
Ain't no tellin' when I'ma have to use it, we all know how I live
Keepin' my gun everywhere I go, we all know I'm still here
Question my girl but love her strong, we all know how that is
Prayin' for my daddy to come home, pray he get an appeal
Hope he come take me away, keep me from off of these pills
And come get me from off of this drank before my kidney say, "Fail"
Tell my son it made me calm, I don't know what I'm doin'
Tell my girl these hoes can't make me cum, I only want her to do it
Ten lines straight, goin' on ten days, my body ain't got no fluid
"Please, oh, please don't die tryin', on the real
All alone, stalks and the shottas are unjudgemental
It ain't too far, right by the A.M. Mart where they left my nigga
Won't be that long, yeah, it'll be a while
'Til my love life right again, killas on side again
Butterflies, paradise, them bullets left out the wind'" She sung lowly to the lyrics as they loudly played throughout her dark room, she groaned when her phone started ringing making the music cut off.
"Hello" she answered without looking at the caller Id.
"We still going to daddy gravesite tomorrow" Adrianna soft voice rang through her phone.
"Yeah imma pick you up around 2 so be ready" Armani replied wiping the tears that continued to fall down her face.
"Ok imma see you then, I love you" Adrianna said making Armani smile.
"I love you too" she replied hanging up the phone making the music resume.
Armani couldn't take it anymore as she busted out into a fit of tears, she let everything out as she cried out to her father, her grandma and God. She sat in the center of her bed as the tears harshly flowed down her face making her laugh for how stupid she felt.
"Get the fuck up Lashay, you look like a freaking dumbass. Like who sits in the middle of the bed and cry, stupid shit" she laughed at herself before standing up from her bed.
She grabbed her phone and went to Freeddawg by Youngboy before turning on her light and wiping her tears.
"I go by YoungBoy and I'll zip you up from talking shit these niggas bitches and I know that they ain't 'bout that shit can't come how I'm coming, I was a youngin' when they tried that shit i been knockin' niggas off, they never knew it was gon' come to this" Armani sung loudly as she danced in her full body mirror. This wasn't new to her, she'd always get in her li feelings then laugh it off and pretend like it didn't happen it wasn't good for her mental but it definitely cleared her mind when she needed.
"OMG" she groaned when her phone rang once again this time she checked the caller ID to see it was Marquise, she smiled just thinking about him. Armani could honestly say that she deeply cared about him, he really made her the best person she could be and he probably didn't even know it. She wouldn't take it as far to say that she loved the man but she did care very deeply for him even if he was a rude ass at times.
"Hello" his voice rang throughout the phone making her smile before putting her face in the camera.
"Hello" she smiled disconnecting her phone from the Bluetooth.
"What you on li shawts" he smiled and she could immediately tell that he was high. Marquise hadn't smoked in a while really cause he was always at Armani house or with her in some way and he knew that she didn't like being around weed so he refrained from smoking around her.
"Nothing, what you doing" she asked him smiling.
"On my way ta yo house" he smiled making her frown.
"Youn need ta be driving while you high, imma come pick you up" she said standing from her bed.
"Imma pro at driving" he told her smirking in the camera making her narrow her eyes at him to show that she was serious "alright" he sighed turning back around to go inside of Jabari house since that was where he was at the moment.
"I'll be there in the next 20 or so minutes" she told him before hanging up and slipping on her shoes.
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"I missed you" Marquise said wrapping his arms around Armani waist and putting his head in the crook of her neck.
"I missed you too" she replied walking down the empty aisle, as soon as she picked him up he started whining saying that he hungry and since Armani had nothing better ta do she decided that she would cook.
"I'm horny" he whispered chuckling making Armani roll her eyes.
"You always horny sober or not" she shook her head putting the Velveeta Macaroni in the cart. Armani did not like any other Macaroni except that one.
"We needa hurry up" he whispered in her ear as he briefly rubbed his private area on Armani butt.
"Stop we are in public" she mugged him mushing his head back.
"Mmcht you gotta cover me up nigga" he mugged her putting his arms back around her waist.
"How i need ta cover you up" she mugged him walking down the aisle.
"My shit showin. Unless you want me ta walk around slanging" he sucked his teeth making Armani roll her eyes.
"Whatchu cooking" he asked her resting his chin on her shoulder.
"Some Macaroni and chicken" she told him making him nod.
"Get that for me" she told him pointing to some hot sauce that sat on the top shelf. Marquise effortlessly grabbed the hot sauce and set it in the cart before he wrapped his arms back around her.
"It's cold in here" he shivered.
"It's not you just high" she shook her head.
"You right" he agreed with her chuckling making Armani smile.
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"You still haven't talked ta yo cousin" Armani asked Marquise making him shake his head.
"She ain't been answering her phone" he shrugged rubbing her feet.
"Mmcht you called her once" she mugged him and he shrugged.
"She shoulda answered when i called" he shrugged once again making her roll her eyes.
"Have you at least talked ta Kayla" she asked him.
"Nope" he shook his head making her sigh.
"Can we go somewhere" Imani and Adrianna said walking in Armani room making Marquise smack his lips.
"No, na get the fuck out" he mugged them making Armani tap his head.
"Where y'all tryna go" she asked them and they shrugged, Adrianna sat at the foot of the bed and Imani sat at the vanity.
"Anywhere but the house" Imani said making Adrianna nod.
"Ooh let's get a hotel room" Adrianna blurted out making Marquise mug her.
"Ooh swimming" Armani smiled rubbing her hands through Marquise hair.
"Y'all don't een know how ta swim" Marquise mugged them making em bust out laughing.
"So what it still be fun" Armani shrugged.
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Allat good stuff😁