The next day I spot Sky by his locker. I get happy the second I see him.
I make my way to him.
"Hey." I say as I lean against the locker next to him.
"Hi." He smiles quickly before focusing on taking books out of his locker.
"Yesterday was fun." I say.
"Yeah it was." Sky closes his locker and looks at me again.
God, it's not fair how beautiful he is. I'm at a loss for words for a moment.
"Everything okay?" Sky cocks his head.
"Uh, yeah. Fine."
"Good." He chuckles.
I don't understand how he can be so casual after we hooked up yesterday. It's like it didn't even happen.
To my surprise Loren comes into the school and sees us together. Sky didn't tell me she'd come back to school today.
Ugh, great. Here we go. The drama tornado.
She walks in our direction in a seemingly not angry manner. Sky already turns to her.
Everyone around is still staring at her. Everybody knew she just had a baby and the gossip still hasn't died down. It's not like you could tell from looking at her, though. She looks like her normal, perfect self.
"Hey." She says to both of us, granting a smile.
"Hey." Sky smiles happily as he wraps his arms around her.
I try to control the urge to push them off each other.
They're just friends.
They're just friends.
I repeat to myself.
I don't believe it. He loves her. It's so obvious.
"How are you?" Sky asks as he pulls away.
The way he's watching her. He's so invested. It's like he's hanging on her every word. Like if she's having a bad day his world would end. He never looks at me that way.
I try to ignore my bleeding heart.
"I'm fine, Sky. Jesus." She looks around self-consciously.
"Shit, sorry."
Since when is he so quick to apologize?
"It's fine. More importantly, how are you?" Loren looks at me. She looks genuinely interested.
I'm kind of caught off guard. All this time I've been seeing her as the evil bitch who stole my boyfriend.. I never expected her to be nice to me.
"Uh.. fine." I stammer.
Shit, I'm acting like a pussy in front of Sky.
He watches me blankly. He certainly doesn't look at me the way he looks at Loren.
Then the bell goes and we realize we have no time to get to class.
"Shit, what class do you have?" Sky asks, grabbing Loren's hand.
"Science. You don't have to take me.." She whines. He doesn't listen as he's already moving towards the classroom.
"Yeah, I do." He says to her.
Then he turns around. "I'll see you later, Aron." Sky says over his shoulder as they walk into the distance.
The way he's holding her. They really look like the perfect couple.
My heart hurts. And I feel sick.
I decide to skip class.
I go outside and light a cigarette.
***
It's a few days later and Sky and I are supposed to make homework together today. My last class just ended and I'm on my way to his house.
I wonder what it'll be like. It's like since we hooked up he's gotten even more distant. He's still smiling a lot and talking to me like normal but it's.. like it never happened. I don't understand why.. After I accepted his daughter and we had dinner with Lisa I felt like we were basically a couple again. I guess not.
I open the door to his apartment out of habit, not really remembering I'm not supposed to do that. And my heart melts at what I find.
Sky's laying on the couch. One hand on his chest and one sweeping on the floor. His hair's all messy and covering his face but I can still see his flushed cheeks.
He looks so adorable it gives me butterflies.
I close the door behind me softly and make my way to the couch.
I sit down and I can't keep myself from stroking his hair. It's so fucking soft. Now that I think about it, Rosie's hair isn't much different.
He sighs contentedly.
I chuckle.
"I miss you, Olive." I say softly.
I grab his hand and just hold it for a while. It's hilarious how his hand, much like his hair feels just as soft as his daughter's.
I wonder if he ever has thoughts like this about me. Probably not.
"Ow, Aron?" Sky moans.
I realize I'd been squeezing his hand.
"Sorry." I say, letting go.
He punches my arm hard.
"Ow!"
Sky laughs.
Then he sits up.
"That's for creeping up on me. You scared me half to death."
"I didn't mean to." I laugh.
He looks behind me into Rose's room.
"It took eternity for Rose to fall asleep.. I was really tired." He yawns and leans on my shoulder. I try to keep my composure as my heart beats like crazy.
"I keep forgetting to lock the door." He muses. "I should really do it, it keeps creeps like you out."
I chuckle and wrap my arm around him. I caress his upper arm.
"What are you doing here anyway?" He asks.
"Oh, math." He then remembers.
Still scatterbrained. I chuckle.
"I guess you're too tired, huh?" I smile.
"I just need some coffee." Sky gets up.
I watch him in the kitchen. Making his little coffee.
For some reason it really turns me on. Then again, everything he does turns me on.
He brushes some hair behind his ears and grabs two cups.
His legs are bare cause he's wearing his shorts and an oversized shirt. It's only then that I realize it's my shirt.
I smile and get up.
I wrap my arms around him from behind and whisper: "You have something that belongs to me."
First he tenses up, then he relaxes.
"Really? What?" He says breathlessly.
I grab his jaw and turn his head to me. I caress his cheek and I kiss him.
He pulls away for a second. "Wait, Aron." He breathes.
God, please let me kiss him.
"What is it?" I moan, pulling him up, his bare feet on my shoes.
"Rose is next door." He says.
"But she's asleep." I say into his hair.
I kiss his ear and he melts into me. He quickly gives in and there's not another word after that.
He kisses me with the same passion I feel inside. I let my hands wonder from his waist to his ass.
He moans and the joy I feel is surreal.
I've imagined this over and over for months now. But the reality is so much better. Sky is so fucking good at this. He's so hot. He knows the exact way to turn me on.
I know he probably doesn't feel the way I feel about him. To him this is just sex. It has nothing to do with feelings. He loves Loren. It's pretty obvious. But I don't care. Call it pathetic, call it what you will. I'll take what I can get. If all I can get is his body.. then that's plenty.