JJ's POV
Falling for your bests friend's girl has its complications, especially when you all have to live together. Every day my feelings get stronger, I've never felt this way about anyone but out of all the people I could feel this way about it had to be my bests friend's girl talia. I can't act on it; it could jeopardise my friendship with Simon even the rest of the sidemen. It could ruin my reputation imagine that ksi falls for his best friend's girl, it would be everywhere.
I always find myself looking for ways to spend time with her even if it is just in a friend way, I like her company.
I was sat in my room looking through my album AOTP I need one more song ready for 2 months to go on the album, but I need one more feature for my song rent free I have one verse ready and a beat, but I need a few more verses and someone to sing the chorus
"Maybe a girl would sound good on this track" I said out loud to myself
It hit me then, I could get talia on the track she would sound great, and it would give me an excuse to spend some time with her.
I got up from my set up and made my way out of my room and into Simon's office.
I go there and knocked on the door, I heard the loud yell of Simon to come in so I slid open the door and saw Simon sat at his set up and talia sat on the been bag near the door.
"what's up bro" Simon said Turing to face me with a smile
"Well, I was wondering if I could talk to talia for a sec, its for a song" I added to the end, so it didn't sound too sus
"Ye sure" she said before Simon could reply
She got up from the bean bag and we both made our way over to the door and walked out talia shutting the door behind her as she left.
We went and sat on the living room sofa face to face, "so what's up "she asked pulling me out of my thoughts.
"Well, I need one more song for my album and I have one verse writ and the beat and I'm looking for a feature for the track and I was thinking that a girl would sound better on it" I say as she was nodding along making it clear that she understood
"So, I was wondering if you wanted to be that feature on the song"
Her eyes widened and lit up as I say that last sentence.
"Oh my god yes I would love too" she squealed "I thought you were going to ask me if I new anyone to be on the track not to actually be the feature" she spoke through a massive smile
"that's great and not definitely not you would sound perfect on the song" I say to her smiling massively too
"Thank you so much jj when do we start this?" she askes me
"Well, we have 3 months to get it finished before the album drops and then well need to promote it and all that goes with doing a song" I state
"Ok that sounds good if you send me the beat ill write up a first draft and see where it goes with your verses" she states
"Ye that good ill sent it to you now and ill book in for a studio tomorrow at 12 if that's ok" I ask
"Yep, that's good thank you see much for this jj it means a lot" she said getting up and hugging me
I hug he back and reply, "its ok and thank you for doing this"
We pull away from the hug and we look into each other's eyes for a few seconds they looked so welcoming and kind there was so much happiness behind them. I brock I contact with her for some reason it was hard to do, I didn't want to, but I did, and I don't know why she wasn't pulling away ether and it wasn't awkward at all I liked having her in my arms it was comforting.
"Ima go sent you to beat to song and we can work from there" I smiled at her
"Ok ill let you know when I get it and start up the lyric draft" she replied sweetly
I made my way back over to my room and she returned to Simon's office.
Talia's POV
Oh, my days jj just asked me to be on a track with him, 3 years ago I wouldn't be in as much shock as I am now, I know he's my friend and that but he's so big now he's an established artist in the music industry and well I'm still YouTube singer. And it gives me an opportunity to spent time with him one on one.
The past few months I've being gravitating towards jj a lot more trying to find more ways to spent time alone with jj whether it asking to listen to on of his new songs or sending Simon to the shop so I can talk to him on my own.
I don't know what it is about him but whenever I'm around him I get butterflies in my stomach, every time I look him in the eyes, I see something, but I don't know what I see but its there, it's always there and I don't think it's going to go away but in reality I don't want it to go away
Its currently 11 at night and I'm sat in mine and Simons room writing lyrics. Jj sent me the beat so now I'm writing the hook and the chorus, jj's doing the bridge and the verses, the songs called rent free, so I wanted to put a twist on it. After around 15 mins of thinking and scraping ideas I thought of the perfect idea, an ex-girlfriend living in someone's head rent free. The idea was set but the lyrics weren't the easiest to write.
I was sat on the bed my headphones in the beat on repeat trying to get lyrics to come to me.
My mind kept going back to jj and the way I have being feeling towards him, it was almost as if I was falling for him. The feeling he was giving me was nothing I had ever felt towards someone, but it was my boyfriend's best friend I couldn't do that to him.
As much as I wanted to shake of the loving feeling jj was giving me but on the other hand I didn't what to lose the feeling it was a comforting feeling and it made me feel loved and safe. god what is this man doing to me.
I couldn't write in this room, but Simon was in his office and jj was in his room, I went out into the living room with everything I needed to see if I could write there better. I made my way over to the sofa I put my headphones back in and continued to write for the song the bead had pop badass vibes. So, I write what was in my head kept some scraped some till it started to come together.
As I was writing the last bits the kitchen light turned on scaring the life of me, I looked up and saw jj in the kitchen with his headphones in looking through the fridge. He pulled out a bottle of water and started to pour it into a glass. I took my headphones out and made my way over to him.
I taped him on the shoulder, and he jumped a little. I let out a little chuckle as he turned around taking one of his air pods out facing me. When I he saw that it was only me his face tuned from a scared one to a small smile. He started to giggle quietly, and I soon followed.
"You scared the shit out of me" jj said throughout giggles
"Sorry I didn't mean to" I replied still quietly laughing
" nah its all good i just thought someone was trying to kill me " he said to me calming down a bit from our giggle fits. " you have a really cute laugh" he said to me after a moment of pause
"Aw thanks jj no one has even said that to me before"
"People should say it more often then its true"
A rosy, red colour crept onto my cheeks as he complemented me that same feeling I get every time I'm near him. The butterflies returning to my stomach just like earlier. The way he looks into my eyes making me weak at the knees, he is the only person who has this affect on me Simon doesn't none of my other boyfriends have and the way he makes my heat feel is nothing like I have ever felt
The tension in the room I could cut with a knife, my head begging him the make the first move and kiss me. Simon completely vanishing from my mind as I continue to look into his hazel eyes being unable break away.
After what felt like an eternity of eye contact jj finally broke it.
"I'm going to go write I've still got a few verses left to do" he finally spoke just above a whisper
I felt a tug in my heart as he finished his sentence it hurt me a little.
He left the kitchen with his water and made his way back to his room. I made my way back to the living room still trying to prosses what just happened. Simon left my mind, I was begging for him to kiss me and that tug in my heart when he said he was going back to his room. My head is scrambled, and I don't know what to do about it.
I'm falling for him.
JJ POV
I made my way back to my room at a quick pace and as soon as I had shut my door behind me, I fell onto my bed they tom contemplate what just happened, I wanted to kiss he so bad that it hurt. I had to get out of that situation as fast as I could, so I lied. I don't have verses to write I finished them before I went to get a drink.
I'm so confused on my felling and it's not Normal for me to be confused on my felling I'm a strait forward guy if I like someone, I like them if I love someone, I love them If I hate someone, I hate them there's no questions no in-between. But this, her she's got me feeling some sort of way, I've never felt it before, but I know for sure I feel it and it's confusing the hell out of me.
im falling for her