Why does it always feel
like I'm being left behind
or thrown aside
or devalued because
I am not worth much?
Why am I always disrespected
trampled over
my knowledge and wisdom
questioned at every turn
doubted because
I am what I am?
And why do I stay
in that place
in this house
where I am always
shoved aside
unvalued and invisible?
Why do I continue
to smile and pretend
that it is all good and well
and that the things they do
do not hurt me?
Why, for years and years,
do I have to give way
for them?
Why can't I fight
for myself
just once?