《Caution》
This story is a fabrication.
As a precondition,
・ Amanzawa and Tsubaki are white room students
・ Amanzawa worships, Tsubaki hates
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Ayanokoji Pov
"Fear rather than be loved
──If you choose either one 』
Today ... the moon is beautiful.
"Today is a happy day."
Chairman Sakayanagi, who had been falsely accused and left the school, finally cleared it up and came back.
In other words, the substitute job is over ... Tsukishiro left .
"Don't you think so ... Tsubaki?"
To my question, she silently squints her eyes.
"It's a piece of cake for you Senpai.After all... The name of the masterpiece wasn't just for show."
Tsubaki has launched various attacks on me with the help of Tsukishiro's obstruction.
However, I also rejected them. At times like this it's would be a problem if the other party had a deputy chairman, but the missing pieces were successfully applied.
"... The miscalculation is Amazawa-san."
It was the existence of Amazawa that was irregular. As I say it myself, Amazawa worshiped me, the masterpiece of the White Room.
Amazawa didn't really try to drop me out. She helped me to get rid of my enemies rather than dropping me out.
"But ... the biggest miscalculation is that I misjudged the ability of Senpai ."
Tsubaki said so and laughed .
"So why did you call me? Are you still targeting at me?"
"No? I did all I could do, I was backed by tsukushiro, and I couldn't do it .I'm no longer confident of doing it alone."
Tsubaki leans against the rooftop wall.
"Let's talk."
The moonlight dimly illuminates the face of the Tsubaki smiling so mysteriously.
"Yes ... that's right. Actually, I also have something to ask you."
"What is it Senpai?"
Amazawa admired my ability and existence. Therefore, it was favorable and cooperation was done.
Tsubaki is the exact opposite. In other words, so to speak.
"What kind of feelings do you have for me. Hatred ...?"
Tsubaki smiled lightly.
"Yes, that's right. I hate you, Senpai . Otherwise I wouldn't have tried to drop you out."
"Is it a... grudge or jealousy?"
My father founded the White Room, and many children were taken there and given an abusive education.
How many people have become unhappy? How much did they resent white room? It is no wonder that she hates my father, who is the cause of hatred, and his son.
"Senpai ...you are a goal that's been set on us.."
My presence was the best ever. The result is naturally transmitted to tsubaki who is a junior. And my father who forces to aim for further height .If you do not aim to exceed your goals, you cannot expect great growth.
"No matter how hard we try, no matter how hard we work... we never exceed you, Ayanokoji senpai ..."
I still can't read Tsubaki's emotions . Her sharp eyes that capture me are shiny and muddy .
"I and Amazawa-san have developed outstanding talents in the 5th generation , we were unrivaled. Still, every day, every day, we are told ." Be like Kiyotaka Ayanokoji. "
"That's... Was it too much?"
From before, I felt a strong sense of killing from Tsubaki.
"Of course it was hard. The better we get, the more difficult it is. We can't afford to cut corners ...."
The killing intent was further enhanced.
"Senpai,why are you spending your time slacking off?"
"..."
In a word, Tsubaki's claim is a resentment. We're having a hard time, but I can't forgive you for slacking off.
However, it's terrible to say that.
"...I wanted to be free. So are you, Tsubaki."
"..."
I never had friendship or affection for others. I wanted to know that and got involved with others. Now I'm playing with everyone in the group and becoming a lover with Kei , but I still can't find happiness from the bottom of my heart.
However, when there is a person in trouble in front of me, I cannot overlook it. I helped Airi from the stalker and corrected the lie Ichinose was trying to vomit. As Nanase was trying climb up, I unintentionally reached out for her.
... If you call this emotion compassion.
"Tsukishiro has committed a number of injustices and even crimes. If he lost his position as acting director , he can't be here anymore, but you're not."
Tsubaki also did a lot of trouble, after all it was student harassment. Seen from the edge, it's cute compared to the violence of Ryuen and Hosen.
"You have been recognized as a student here. You don't have to go back to that room. You can spend your time freely. It's fun, freedom."
Tsubaki is also a victim of the white room. If possible, stop revenge like Nanase and spend your time as you wish.
"... ... This is my happiness, that's what you think Senpai ?"
Tsubaki looked down and answered so. It's dark and I can't read her expression.
"That's right."
At that time, I answered clearly.
"── Fufu."
Her laughter leaked from her mouth.
"...What are you saying ?"
Tsubaki raised her face.
Her eyes were terribly black, deep and muddy.
"No, no, no, no or? Is it not a grudge? Well then... Jealousy?"
An area that cannot be reached no matter how hard you try. I don't understand, but I'm sure it's frustrating, frustrating, and regrettable.
"Yeah, there is that too. Senpai,you are too strong."
Tsubaki smiles eerily. ... what, what are you thinking?
"Senpai is so strong, and You are my goal... I chased you, I couldn't reach you, I was mortified, I was jealous... But I'm going to spend my time and make you..."
I was reflected in Tsubaki's eyes. I can't see anything other than me ...
"Why ... did you leave white room?"
There was a clear anger from the words.
"I told you, because I wanted to be free."
"I'm not talking about that reasoning right now. I'm listening to you. I don't know, Senpai."
This time, somewhere, I sighed as if I was amazed.
"I don't have a clear purpose, but I have an ideology that works unexpectedly .... Well, Senpai have no goals, unlike me ..."
"... what do you want to say. Tell me clearly."
Then Tsubaki once closed her eyes and looked down.
And when she raised her face again ... tsubaki cheeks were slightly dyed red.
" Ayanokoji Senpai... I like you."
"..."
"Are you surprised? you can't trust me? Hmm,your facial expression doesn't change as usual, but I wonder if you are puzzled ."
I'm wondering what to do with a response I didn't expect at all.
"... What a joke."
"It's terrible to treat a girl's confession as a joke. I wonder if it makes sense for me to bluff my senpai ."
... Are you serious?
Tsubaki who hates me. She has been seriously trying to drop me out. But what does she mean whe she said that she likes me...?
"Senpai have to be in that room."
"Cause you see me as goal to strive."
"Without Senpai , I have no reason to work hard."
Tsubaki who spins such words. The corners of her mouth rise little by little.
"Why are you so particular about white room with me? Don't you really want to be free?"
"You have a dad. And I can say that the white room is senpai's house. But I don't have anything . I was sold to the white room for money."
I can't feel sadness from tsubaki who speaks so plainly. Did she forget about her sadness, or ... she doesn't know her sadness?
"That's why ... that room is my home. Next, but ... I want a family."
Tsubaki deliberately speaks sweetly.
"I've been working hard for Senpai for more than 10 years. I wanted to be next to the masterpiece, I want to be recognized, I want to be asked. But ... but ..."
Tsubaki's eyes were filled with hatred again.
"Why, why ... did you leave white room. How should I live after losing my goal? It's terrible to leave it behind. You killed me. Then I wanted to kill you too. . "
I have a chill running down my spine. The darkness of tsubaki is deeper than I thought.
"Let's spend time together in white room. I'll definitely be a woman who matches Senpai . I can't see my senpai rotting in this place. It's a fool's thing to have power but not use it. "
It's messed up. Her emotions are chaotic with a mixture of hatred and affection. I thought it was dark eyes, but it wasn't. It's a mixture of different colors, and it's getting closer to dark.
"This people always look down on you Senpai and think of you as an ordinary person... I'm sad. I'm angry and unbearable. I thought to crush them all."
Tsubaki ... made a big smile. However, only her eyes are not laughing.
"Hey, Senpai . Senpai's here are fools. You are a genius and an abnormal person. Therefore,Kei Karuizawa is not suitable for senpai . She is an ordinary person and you are an abnormal person and you don't have any love for her,right? "
... I can't say anything back. After all, I haven't liked kei yet. I don't understand love.
"I'm the only one who match with my senpai . I'm also an abnormal person, and I and my senpai are in the same hole. It's abnormal that I hate, love, and accept pain so much. It's a perverted isn't it?. "
Tsubaki is hot and seemed to be quite excited.
Tsubaki told me in a calm voice, as she held her breath and her excitement.
"Ayanokoji senpai, come back."
".. I have no intention of returning. Stop relying on me and get on with your life. That will surely make you happier."
Even if you talked about your hatred for me, your love, and your feelings, I didn't think I'd be close to Tsubaki. I think it's pity, but considering the disadvantages to myself, the advantages of this one seem to be tiny.
... As Tsubaki says, I'm probably an abnormal person.
"... I see. After all, Senpai say so."
Tsubaki smiles tiredly and she slowly walks along the wall.
"Then, last request .... please make me your girlfriend."
She stopped , and Tsubaki bowed her head and asked.
"... I'm sorry, I have a girlfriend named Kei Karuizawa, so I can't accept your feelings ."
Kei is very bright and emotional, and she is exactly is my ideal person. It's because she's the piece I depended on, but Kei often hangs out with me. I'm not sure yet, but if I be with Kei , I feels like she can change me someday.
And ──
"You called me an abnormal person and said that we are balanced because we are abnormal people but I want to be a normal person if I can. I want to be an ordinary person with emotions, laughing, crying, angry, I want to change the top of the Buddha and see it. "
This is my true intention.
I want to enjoy playing with my friends.
I want to spend time with my lover and love each other.
I am interested in everything in this world. I could only read books in that room, and I could see nature, the city, and all the creatures only through the pictures. What I was seeing was, after all, a printed virtual image.
I want to see this wide world with my own eyes and feet. Being alone is boring, so be with someone.
"Well ... That's it. I've lost my love."
Tsubaki looked down and put her hand on the wall.
"── I knew that."
The next moment,
"What !?"
Tsubaki climbed the wall. There is a fence on it, but I intuitively understand that this is bad, and I head to her.
"Cha ...!"
When Tsubaki put her hand on the fence, I grabbed her leg and pulled her down. Apparently the fence was crafted, and the frame was removed and fell.
Now, after school on weekdays, it is already dark and the time to leave school is already approaching, so there are few people around. After a while, I heard the fence hit the ground, but I couldn't hear any screams or dull sounds. ...
"You ... what are you doing ...!"
I grab tsubaki's shoulder and push her down to the floor. She was definitely trying to commit suicide.
"Why did you stop me."
"..."
Tsubaki doesn't seem to be afraid, and she smiles.
"As I said, I don't have Senpai , there's no point in going back to that room. I want a family. I want Senpai . I want to make Senpai my thing. If I can't get Senpai , I'm alone."
"Choose, Senpai... abandon Karuizawa and go out with me, or kill me?"
... I am ──