This girl liked me but she never knew I liked her more
I was playing my videogames when Nayeon grabs the TV's plug to shut it off, I annoyingly throw the controller at her ugly face
"Ugh, what now?!"
"Omg, mommy! Freya won again!" she proclaims to the whole family as my mom and dad yell in joy, while there I was rolling my eyes non stop, I grunt "what's so special about her?"
Year by year, Nayeon's girl bestfriend wins most beautiful face of the year blah blah shit and they throw a party for that
A party for what? they're poor and ugly faces
Whatever
"Oppa" I already know what she was gonna say so I decline "no, I'm too busy for face talks" I said and grabbed my phone instead to entertain me
Who cares about a fifteen year old anyway
"You always chicken out whenever they invite us!" Nayeon said and walks up to me, she threw the controller right back at me just like I did to her a minute ago "what? are you scared she'd turn you into her stalker once you meet her?"
I've heard, she had this adhesive and sensual beauty. one that all men cannot resist, she was named after a Nymph goddess.
I was scared a little bit but I ignored it, I mean first of all this is just so stupid, who celebrates stupid princess parties after winning a pageant?
Her of course!
"I'm not scared of that spoiled bitch" I say making my mom slap me in the face, insulting enough "you shut your god damn mouth and don't you dare talk about my friend's daughter like that!"
Right, my mom and that bitch's mom are friends. Tch whatever "don't come back to me crying when you get too obsessive over her daughter!" she says as if it were a prediction
Chasing people and hearts..
Never in a million years would I
"I'm in love."
I mutter the moment I saw her, the waves of her hair bounced with every move she made, her smile turned time back second by second.
Her eyes twinkled, my heart fluttered.
Damn, this is the curse the boys were talking about
Her body, the way that she moves, the innocence of her stare. it all made me want to sin with her, I'm just sixteen but fuck, I just want to be an adult right now
Jimin, the son of the famous business man was also invited, so he was right next to me. mumbling random information I wasn't even listening to
My eyes were all over her
"Hey, dude, are you even listening.." he was holding a glass of wine as he stopped his story telling, he then follows my gaze
"Oh, Freya" I clenched my jaw unconciously when her other name rolls of his lips just like a sexual content, I nudge him "she has a name"
"I don't care, she's hot. but hands off, she's Jungkook's cousin"
My thoughts almost rolled to the back when I heard that, so she really is off limits. I already feel sinful while thinking of her
Just the thought of Jungkook and her being blood related made me think I can't even imagine her in the bathroom, immoral it is that I jerk off while thinking of my friend's cousin
Unlike the soft spoken Jungkook, me and Jimin don't even try to be a saint
I don't usually have pure intentions to girls. I'm not gonna try that vrigin effect on anyone cuz I'm not
Horniness and hormones
21st century baby
Jimin started to describe to me what he did to this girl called Charlotte, under the beat of this music I couldn't help but long for something
Her
She needs to meet me, she must fall in love because I will surely love her back
I laugh from my unsure talk
I lift my gaze back to Freya that is now tying her hair. she had her arms lifted while doing that
"I kissed her neck, then her collarbones, then her boobs."
Jimin narrates as I stare at her collarbones
Fuck. I closed my eyes and was sweating. I have never held back my thirst for girls this much, she's too dangerous for me
"And then, I-"
"Shut up, it's making me horny" I hated lying anyway, but at the same time I had to drop my pride and admit my selfish desires slowly growing at the moment
"Huh, for charlotte?"
"No, Freya"
"Oh" he laughed and nudges me "that's normal. all of us would beg on our knees just for her, it is also said to be an honor to oneself if she looks at you, cause she doesn't"
I raise my brows in anticipation, my body tingling with excitement. The thrill made me turn to him and smirk
"I'm not going home without her seeing this gorgeous face of mine" I chuckle "now, go to that thirteen year old chick that you're in love with"
I knew he was going to punch me right after so I immediately looked for Nayeon and when I did, she was already talking to her
It got me nervous, I should get in between and make excuses to my sister. yes! I'll argue with her and snatch Freya's attention
This is it! I excitedly rub my hands together and take a step forward when my mom grabs my wrist and pulls me to them
"Mr. And Mrs. Kim" I widen my eyes when she turns to us and looks at my mom and dad from head to toe, shit, I was scared she might look at me with those judgemental eyes
I jumped from my spot when she indeed finds my eyes. my heart was thumping so loudly and my stomach was flipping waves inside. I already knew at that moment
That I lost
Just like any other man, she shot her arrow right through me
I thought she was out of my hold, for the next years, I just then noticed we were at the same school. Nayeon attended to her sixteenth birthday
I even got her a gift, it was a gold Hermes anklet. I bought it with my own money because I thought it would be more memorable for her
But that's when I realized, I'm not the only guy who got her gifts, actually there's a lot of us. and she rejected all those. so I didn't bother trying to give mine
But at least, she has a little crush on me
My sister might deny it whenever I ask that question but I'm sure, from those little tiny glances that you give me, you really know how to wrap me around your finger huh?
I talked to Jungkook about it first and he didn't really care, he said they weren't close. I also found out more about her and the family that she has
I mostly ask Nayeon for that but sometimes I do it my own. I stalk her social media accounts, and I get into the bottom of all my curiosity.
At first, I was in denial of my feelings. in fact, in the following more years I have been in denial more than before
She probably doesn't like me, because she always gives me those judgmental eyes whenever she sees me smoke and drink while holding my girlfriends at the back of school
Are you jealous, baby?
But I came into conclusions with my feelings when I was eighteen. when we bumped into the corridors and talked again after two years.
I was walking with my friends when I spotted her from afar already noticing my presence, damn, she was squirming! I need closure, for both my sanity and peace of mind
"Jimin, push me" I order around and my friend laughed, he winked at me "you don't have to tell me that" and when Freya walked past me he pushed me so we'd bumped into each other
Even when I had it planned I was still nervous, damn. I could feel my heart palpitating as she stops on her tracks "um.." she says while nibbling on her bottom lip
I was waiting for her to respond but she couldn't. She looked so tensed and transparent. pshh, she's fallen so hard for me
"um.." heck, what was I supposed to say again? "I'm sorry, were you hurt?"
And that was when I finally admit, I do like her
Especially when we broke up, it felt like the whole world came crashing down on me because I loved her then, ever since I was sixteen.
The next day after that I went to see her but the house was empty, I contacted their driver and was told they moved to the states
I couldn't swallow in the fact she really did leave me, so everyday, I had to lie to my friends and family that every afternoon I go to study at the public library
When all I do is visit their place, waiting until it gets dark, hoping she'd come back. back to me.
I wanted to go after her but I just realized, what can I do? I'm just nineteen, she ran away from me, we're done now
So I stayed in Seoul, waiting, praying that she'd come back
Years went by and I was losing hope, I took over my dad's company to be able to shove some pride in her when she sees me as I am now, this is what you wanted right? for me to take over this stupid business
I bought properties all across the place so that she'd feel like it's right to be with me, I wanted her to know I could raise a family with her now
But when her dad sold their property to me it felt so disregarding, because she really isn't coming back, the land they once owned is now mine
So I bought it
Still hoping that after all the years we lost each other, she would certainly have a reason to be connected with me. if she wants this back then she needs to marry me
She never even gave me an explanation, I hated her
"I hate you! I hate you! get off my restaurant!" she threw her heels at me while I follow her out of the restaurant she owned
She kept on hurting me, but it didn't matter. I indeed am angry and lovesick at the same time. I gaze at her features and noticed she did mature a bit, curves at the right places
The moment Jungkook told me she was back for the mansion I was instantly delighted, even when I heard she banned me from her restaurant, pathetic.
"I hate you, get out of my sight-"
"Are you still affected by our past sweetie? cause you have the audacity to ban the richest CEO here in Seoul." and when I saw her cry, I knew well enough she loved me when she left.
And up till now, I'm still so in love with her
I gaze at the woman in white slowly walking towards me and the altar, I couldn't help but feel tears brim on my eyes. Nayeon smiles "finally, you got the girl of your dreams."
After seven long years, the beautiful Freya will come home to me.
The girl I've waited for so long to be mine is finally getting married to me, when she was in front of me I felt my fingers shaking, I didn't know why, it creeped me out
And when it was time to say our vows I finally swallowed a deep breath "Kim Dahyun, ever since the day I've met you, you don't know what I've been doing just for us to be together"
"August 5, prom night when you sneeked in, I actually told the teachers to not give me a partner and you instead. I promised them I would study hard just to get their approval that night" she widens her eyes
She looked at our teachers back in highschool who were laughing
"Whenever I saw you at campus when we were in highschool, all I wanted was to talk with you and know your thoughts, how your day went and how you were feeling, all I wanted was to be with you for the whole school year"
She was shaking her head while crying, tears where already on the corner of my eyes
"And I lost all of it when you left."
She was shaking while holding my hand. There are so many things I'd like to tell her. my stupid decisions back then when we were young to the regrets that I failed to apologize for. there are a lot of unsaid things that I still haven't told you.
I wiped the tears escaping her beautiful face "it was against my will for you to leave me that night, but I loved you so much I let you go, you had power over me, so if you asked me to leave I will surely comply."
"Taehyung.." she whispers
"To me, You are the flowers that grew in the saddest parts of me. you are eternity to the life I wanted to end."
I smiled and continued "you were every second I wanted to last. you were my greatest love and you still are" she started to sob more
We went through a lot of ups and downs and I want to be with you in every single one of it, I want to share my pain and happiness with you
"Every moment feels like the first day we've met.." my mom was already dramatically fanning herself while crying "I already found my home and that was you."
"My Freya, you are my home."
Our daughter runs up to my arms as I gaze at the woman of my dreams open the front door of our house, our eyes met and I kissed her
"Just greeting my wife" I say and loosen up my tie, I kiss my daughter "my beautiful Theia" I holds her in my arms
And when I looked back at her, I saw my whole life. how we're going to spend our years together filled with love and understanding.
She will always be my first love
It was midnight as I sat on our porch and stared at the moon, my back against the cold chair, I take a drift back to my memories
We weren't perfect but I loved her, so much, that I could turn my back on the world just for that
The door opens revealing her, she walks up to me and sits on my lap and lays her head on my chest. I wrap an arm around her for support "do you remember what I told you when you turned eighteen?"
"That if we ended up together, I'll give the gift you rejected from me" she then pulls out the familiar box, the twin necklace that I didn't accept.
"I loved you Taehyung, the moment destiny allowed our worlds to meet."
She was already wearing hers, she never took it off actually. when she put it around my neck I grin and kiss her cheek
I graze my nose on the same spot and caress her fingers to feel the ring, the sign of our forever bond. I finally understood, at which part I fell in love with her
"Your eyes twinkled, and you became my everything, Freya"