*I.n's POV*
After what happened last night, everyone just keep quiet this whole day. Luckily Seungmin hyung did not suspect anything. I wonder why Seungmin hyung looking so calm today, it has been 2 weeks not to see him like that. Since that hyung left. I dont like to mention betrayal's name at this point.
Remember what happens, also reminds me of what Chan hyung said to me.
"I will never did that to you, Innie."
Its remained in my mind till now. To the point I cant even sleep thinking about what does he means by that. I was talking about how I cant accept what Hyunjin hyung did to Seungmin hyung but then, Chan hyung suddenly said such things. Gosh!!!!! Did he likes me or not?!
"Baby Innie.... What are you doing here? Its midnight you should sleep now." Seungmin came and sit in front of me while drinking.
I snapped out from my thoughts that full with Chan hyung.Well, Kitchen has been my most calm place these days. Thats why...
"Hyung..., Are you okay?" I asked to be sure.
He just nodded, looking into space. Still, I can see loneliness in his eyes.
"Yeah, I'm okay. I had to. You?"
My eyes get bigger. "Me? What about me?"
"You and Chan hyung. Any progress?"
I shake my head while remembering Chan's face in my head. "He brother-zoned me, now." I pout.
Seungmin hyung chuckles. What is so funny?
"Poor, baby..." he still laughing. "Be patient, He needs time."
"I know.. I know... But its not nice to just 'Brother-zoned' and act romantic to me everyday. Its giving me hope and break it again." I whines. Upset with how Chan hyung treat me everyday.
I sighed. "I dont know anymore, hyung." I said.
Seungmin hyung hugged me. Here we go again, I dont like hugs. But I think I should just let him hug me, since he needs it.
"Its okay, Baby innie. Dont think too much."
"I'm not a baby and stop hugging me. Go away." I said playfully.
He just laughed. "Let me be for a second. I miss his hug, so just let me hug you for a while."
Hearing hyung saying this broke my heart. Seungmin hyung must be yearning for Hyunjin hyung's affection for a long time now.
I look at him while he's still hugging me from my right side. Feeling symphaty for him. What will happen if he knows the truth? Would he be in pain and not taking care of himself? Or would he just move on and find another happiness? I wish I could help him, but hyungs not letting me reveal the truth.
"Yang Jeongin... Why did you look at me like that?"
I just woke up from my thoughts and saw Seungmin hyung looking at me with his strange expressions.
"Ha...? Uhmm... I-" I fix my eyes towards my drink. "Nothing.." stirred the already stirred drink.
"Wait.. dont tell me, you've fallen for me? I'm sorry I.n, but I love you as my brother. And plus, no one can replace Hyunjin's place inside my heart."
Okay, now I wonder what's going on inside his head? "Hyung, what the heck?" I make a disgusted face.
"Well, how would I know?" Seungmin hyung pouts.
Thinking about it, what if I just ask Seungmin straight away? So I dont need to have a headache after this. I swallowed down my saliva, chasing all the nervousness.
"Hyung, can I ask something sensitive?"
He tilted his head. Kinda looks like he is thinking too. "What is it?"
He just patiently wait for me to open my mouth.
"Okay, like this. Hyung, what if one day, you find out that Hyunjin hyung cheated on you and was seeing someone else while he's still with you?"
As expected he look shocked and panicked. "What did you say?!! Did he... Did you saw it? Oh my god, Hyunjin..."
Aish... I.n, now you've created problem. Faced it you idiot!
"Calm down, hyung! It was just a foolish question of mine. Its just for an example. I wear, nothing other than that." I hope he buy it.
Seungmin hyung breath in and out, looking a bit relieved now. Thanks god!
"What do you think about it, hyung?" I continue.
Seungmin hyung once again went into spaces.
"What would I do?" He still thinking deeply.
I just clasp my hand under a table. Patiently waiting for an answer.
"Well, I think.. I will need to ask for an explanation first. And if I think I can accept the explanation then I'll forgive him. If not then, just move on. Simple, right?"
My heart feels like its going to explode at anytime soon!! How could he talks about forgiveness at this kind of topic?! Seungmin hyung is so pure to hate someone, especially Hyunjin hyung. Sighed.... he loves him too much! That he's blinded by it!
"Anyway, Innie.. why are you asking things like this. You're not even in a relationship, right?"
I panicked. Help me!
Well great, now he suspicious about me. "Uhmm.... I watched drama earlier. Hehe..that drama still keep me up till now. Nothing serious." I hope I can run away from him now. Because I'm afraid I will slip everything's out if he ask one more question.
Seungmin hyung just opened his mouth to talk but I stand abruptly.
"Hyung, its getting late now. I'm going to sleep. You should too, good night. Bye, love you." I can hear he shouted goodnight too but I just walk fast and quickly take myself out of there. Gosh, I'm saved.
Once I was out from kitchen, I take myself inside Chan hyung room. I want to ask him about what he said last night.
"Hyung...." I called out his name while peeking inside to make sure no one was there, only Chan hyung. But, there's Changbin and Felix hyung who were sleeping already.
I tip toed inside, sneaking like a robber as I saw Chan hyung still on his laptop.
"Chan hyung..." I whisper.
He shockingly turn his head towards me. "Yah, Innie.. you scared me! I thought there's ghost behind me."
"What? How could you call me ghost." I sulked.
"Oh, Innie yah..." He used his baby voice. What does he think I will be soft for it? Okay I lied, I like it. But still act like I was upset, want to test my fav hyung.
"Hey, Come here, baby yah. I'm sorry." He still using aegyo while pulling me to sit on his lap and hugged me tight. Oh how much I love this!
I.n.... I.n.... keep the upset face please.
"Why are you here, maknae? Its getting late now."
"Hyung.."
He hummed me.
I get up and sit on his bed. "About last night... What do you mean by that?"
He look at me. Confused. By looking at his face, I can obviously see that he cant remember. Geez!
Hmmm.... This hyung! "The one when you said (I would never did that to you)?? Can you please explain."
Please, hyung. Please be honest with me now. I dont care if Changbin and Felix hyung are sleeping or not but I just want to be clear with you now.
"I said that?" He gave me a blank face.
Gosh! This hyung... Is unbelievable!! I glare at him. "That night when we saw Hyunjin hyu-" he cut me off.
"Oh,that! Look, innie yah..its not like how you think. Its normal when I was in so much stress. I might say something that doesnt made sense. Sorry, if I make you uncomfortable." He awkwardly smiled.
I rolled my eyes when he turn his face to his laptop again, typing fast. I am so done with his answer! Lets just get the hell out of here. "Oh? Okay then. Continue your work. Good night." I make my way to go out still hoping for him to call me.
He's not even stop me or calls me back. I walked out from his room. Dissapointed.
Chan hyung will never likes me the way I want him to. No one understand how much it hurts me.
I walk slowly.., my step feeling numb.
My eyes start to bawls. I hold it again and again. But eventually my cheeks getting wet too, I wipes my tears away. No, I cant give up!
Chan hyung, Up to you with what you want to do in your life but, I will always love you a lot more than you think.
I'm starting to sobbing harder. "You will finally give me your heart completely one day. I promised."
*Chan's POV*
Did he just walked out of the room like that? without listening to what I want to say. Guess, he might be hurting with my answer.
God! Chan, what have you done to the maknae? You like him, you love him. You should protect him not to hurt him!
I'm sorry, Innie. Hyung did not meant to hurt you. It just I was afraid of something bigger than that.
if I finally accepted your love, your mother will not allowed that. She will get angry and disown you, because of what? Because you love me.
I'm sorry once again, love. Lets stay as Hyung-maknae forever. This way, I can protect you without limit.
Wait, my eyes blurry? Am crying?! I wipe my eyes, and yes, it turns out my tears. For the first time, I'm crying because of I.n, the source of my smile.
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*Seungmin's POV*
My room seems empty now. I glare around, looking at some empty space when Hyunjin used to put his recording equipments and a table where he used to sit there writing. But now its just an empty space. As empty as my heart.
"Hyung, Are you okay?"
That question of I.n still linger around my head. Hah... I sigh.
I, myself too dont know how to answer that, Innie. I sat on Hyunjin's bed. Since he's gone, I never climb up to the top bunk where I used to sleep but I just sleep in Hyunjin's instead.
"Hey, Seungmin... What are you thinking about? You've been spacing out since I enter the room." Lee Know suddenly appeared and softly smacks my shoulder before he yeet himself on his bed.
I just gaze at him for while. "Hyung.. you get handsomer everyday. I cant relate.." I just dont want to stressed out.
"Look at you, praising me. Why so sudden? No.. I'm not giving you my candies." He said while adjusting his blanket.
I just chuckles. "Why not? Give me some... It must be sweet, right?" I teased him.
"Nope. Go buy yourself. All of this is mine and Han's only." His savageness something getting out of my nerves.
I just laughed and surrender. Fighting with him? Not a good idea..
I lay down on bed, rub around my hands on the bed to feel Hyunjin presence.
Jinnie... Goodnight. Sleep well, dream about me, about us. I love you so much. And, I miss you.
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*Hyunjin's POV*
with some sort of forced, I opened my eyes as if something was controlling me. What is that? I can hear someone's calling my name.
I look around.. I still in my room. Was it just a dream? I breath in and out as a small sweat began to splash all over my face.
All of a sudden, Seungmin's face cross my mind. His little giggles, his puppy jumping, his sweet smiles, his angelic voice.. Damn! I terribly missed him.
I wish I could pull him in my arms now. Stroking his hair back, comfort him. I am really a bad person! I'm a monster! Seungmin.. hold on, I will comeback to you...
Again.
Wait for me, okay?
Good night, love.
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