Seungjin: Hold Me Tightly

How are you?

*Seungmin's POV*

“Two weeks since you're gone. Honestly, too many good things happened to Stray Kids. We won the rookie of the year, we got our very first award. But what a waste, you're not here with us. I know you need to break from what happened. Manager hyung has told us everything. Its okay take your time, Hyunie. Just take care of yourself.”

I closed my diary. This is the only way I have, to talk to my boyfriend. My eyes start bawling, realizing that I was just talking to an empty papers, lonely book.

I missed him like crazy. Why did the universe really hate to see us together? Hyunjin, if you can hear me please... Please.. please come back home. Come back to me again! I will wait, just like how I used to wait for you before.

I hug my knees, imagining Hyunjin warm hug wrapping around my body.

Suddenly someone came inside the room, he hug me from the back.

"Its okay, Minnie. I know you're strong..." That soft voice... That comforting touch, the way he calls me...

I turn to my back. Poof! I only could see dust. There's no one behind me, its just a sign that I have gone crazy. I couldnt help but crying my eyes out. Gosh!! I miss him!! Why cant you hear me??!!

"Yah, Seungmin ah.. are you okay?" Shouted Changbin hyung from outside as he rushed towards me who already on the floor, crying.

He hugs me. Even though his hug feel nothing like Hyunjin's but its a bit healing at this point.

He help me get up and bring me to my bed. Lying me down and cover me with blanket.

"What happen?" Changbin hyung looking so worried.

I fix my eyes on the ceiling. "No, hyung. Sorry for disturbing you."

"What in the world are you saying? No one in this house ever disturbed me. But if you keep crying like this, its really worried me. Was it about him?"

I slowly nods as my tears still flowing down.

"He can go as far as he wants. I wont stop him. But, at least.. call me or text me. It would be more than enough." My voice trembling.

"Seungmin look, at this point we need to respect his decisions. Maybe, we missed him like crazy, especially you. But, do you ever think about Hyunjin? How he's feeling? Bet he misses us just like us do."

I didnt response. Thinking deeply about how true Changbin is.

"I think you understand what am I saying, right. Its okay, just dont say anything."

At this point, Changbin hyung really is helping me waking up from my own despair. "Thanks, hyung. I just realized now."

Hyung just smiled at me.

"Cry everything's out and rest yourself, always remember that Hyunjin wants you to be strong for him. Alright? I'm going, Felix might sulking by now." He ruffled my hair before leave the room.

I gave him a small smile.

Hyung is right, I forgot that Hyunjin left to have a break. I shouldn't acts like this. Wake up Seungmin, you have to stop being a crying baby like this. If Hyunjin was around, he must be upset to see you behaving like this. Look, you got this Seungmin. Stay strong, for Hyunjin.

"Felix's POV*

I was so worried. Seungmin has been like that since Hyunjin's gone. Spacing out, writing, painting, and he will be crying all night long. He looks like a living corpse. Pale face and eyes swollen. Only god knows how many nights he did not sleep.