Sana: Sidharth this is no topic to joke around.
Sid: You crazy Shehnaaz, itne serious topic par why would I joke around.
Sana(crying) : But. . I swear I don't.... I love just you Sidharth.... Mujhe nhi pta how and when...
Sid: Shsh I know that meri jaan, tumse bola kya maine kuch, I know it's one sided but mujhe bura lag raha ha uske liye
Sana: Mujhe dar lag raha hai Sidharth.
Sid: Kyun baby?
Sana: Kiran too loves you and result toh humne dekha hai na, 6 saal Sidharth, we lost 6 years of being together... Ab agar kuch hua na vaisa mujhse nhi hoga yaar...
Sid: Shehnaaz aisa kuch nhi hoga theek hai, tab hum bache the baby ab nhi hai....
Sana: Doesn't mean dar khatam ho jayega. Tujhe nhi hoga par mujhe hai tujhe vapis khone ka dar.
Sid: Shehnaaz stop before you regret something later.
*
Sana: Sidharth
Sid: Abhi nhi Shehnaaz let me concentrate on driving.
Sana: Sorry na bebu, I was scared.
Sid: Tum bol dogi toh tum ho aur main nhi bolta toh nhi hoon aise nhi chalta Shehnaaz, please abhi ke liye chup raho I am dropping you at your home kal subah baat karenge.
Sana: Nhi.
Sid: What? Baat nhi karni theek hai no problem.
Sana: bas yaar....mujhe ghar nhi jaana aur aaj hume Tumhare ghar jaana tha Maa Baba must be waiting.
Sid: Haalat dekhi hai khud ki, udhar aise jaayenge na I'm sure meri band baj jayegi toh nhi I'm not going.
Sana: Sidharth.. Mujhe jaana hai chal na please.
Sid: Nopes not happening.
Sana: Please na yaar maine kafi dino se nhi dekha unhe.
Sid: Fine, I'm leaving you there chali jao aur call kardena free hokar I will drop you back but don't ask me to come there for now.
Sana: Mat kar na bebu.
Sid: Dimaag mat sadao abhi chup baitho, roka tumhe milne se nhi na jaao phir tum.
Sana: Nhi jaana mujhe.
Sid: Decide kar lo pehle ek baar, do baar ghuma chuka hoon gaadi.
Sana: Tu pyaar se nhi bol sakta kya?
Sid: Mujhe isse zyada pyaar karna nhi aata, tum soch sakti ho abhi bhi time hai because still we aren't connected by some.....
Sana(tears) : Sidharth please mana gussa hai but you are hurting me, itna bhi kya kiya yaar maine, do you still think hume connected rehne ke liye kisi rishte ka naam chahiye.
I was hurt this time and so was he after speaking this, his eyes have always been the mirror of his heart but this time he spoke a bit above boundary. I turned on the radio not wanting this silence to affect us in any way and to my help the song that was playing was his current favourite.
Yoon Toh Teri Mehfil Mein Oh Maahi
Kitni Dafaa Hum Hain Aaye
Haan Tu Hi Hai Tujhse Hi Hua Hai
Ishq Tujhe Yeh Bataye
I started singing along while looking towards him hoping he would just spare a glance.
Tujhse Hi Karoon Gallan Dil Di Sachiyan
Tere Hi Liye Bandh Dora Pakkiyan
Chhaddeya Main Jag Saara Chhaddi Duniya
Maahi Teri Yaarian Na Honi Kachiyan
Mere Liye Tu Hai Mera
Mere Liye Main Hoon Tera Haan Haan
I was still looking at him when he suddenly applied breaks and due to posture I was sitting in I might have banged my head on the dashboard if his hand have not been there to protect me.
Sid: Seatbelt naam ki cheez di hai bhagwaan ne.
Sana: Tu gussa kyun hai?
I still waited For him to speak but he was adamant then I looked around to see we were in the parking of his home, like his actual home. I saw sideways only to realize he was standing holding the gate of my side for me to come out.
Sana : Sidharth....
Sid: Just go and meet them, message me once done.
Saying this he was about to sit back in the car when I held his hand.
Sana: Please andar chal tu bhi
He looked at me and saw me straight in my eyes, his eyes weren't complaining infact I could see that he needed assurance at this point. There was no anger no complaints yet he was so lost.
Sana: Please bebu, chal na I promise agar tujhe sahi nhi feel hua toh hum ussi samay vapis aa jayenge. I won't force you even for a second.
Sid: Nhi hoga Shehnaaz.
Sana: Sidharth parents hai voh tere aise kab tak chalega bebu?
Sid: Yaar I'm not angry mera haq hi nhi hai voh, it's just I feel guilty of letting them through this when they....
Sana: I understand Sidharth but ab please isko side rakhte hai chal na bebu, unka bhi toh haq hai na jaan ne ka ki Mom Dad just agreed for us.
Sid: Tu mere saath rahegi.
Sana: On every step of life.
Sid: Pakka?
Sana: Humari kasam humesha.
*
Aliya: Naaz bacha bahar kyun khadi hai aaja andar.
Sana: Maa voh Baba...
Aliya: Tu andar toh aa.... Raj
Maa called Baba and when he came he wrapped me in his protective arms.
Raj: Naaz kaisi hai bacha sorry voh kal hum busy the isliye nhi aa paye...
Sana(giggling): Arey bas ..... Itna miss kiya Mujhe ki chodne ka hi plan nhi hai.
Acha dekhiye kon aaya hai.
I broke the hug and then they looked at my back where Sidharth was standing with moist eyes but a heartwarming smile. I saw their eyes becoming moist too. Maa was the first one to hug him and cry.
Aliya: Mera bacha .. Tu theek hai na?
Sid: Ekdum aur aap kya ro rahe ho, aapse toh milta hi tha
But she was still crying and I saw Baba looking at them with all the love in his eyes.
Sid: Arey bas Maa, dekho meri shirt gili ho gayi.
And we laughed at this. Oh god how can he be back to his "shirt kharab nhi honi chaiye meri" mode but everyone present there knew that it was to make the situation less awkward.
Aliya(holding his ear) : Acha ab maa se zyada shirt zaroori hai.
Sid: Ahhh Maa Ahh.... Chodo yaar....
Sana: Nhi bilkul nhi mat chodna.
Sid: Tu ruk , tujhe baad main dekhunga.
Sana: Baba dekho aapke saamne dhamki de raha hai.
I said hoping him to speak something because from the time he saw Sidharth he was quite.
Baba: Apne aap nipto dono ab toh bache nhi ho.
Sid : Aapke liye toh humesha bache hi rahenge. I'm sorry Baba please ab toh maaf kar dijiye.
He said looking straight in his eyes and I hoped that everything should sort out.
Sid: Baba.....
And this broke the control Baba was holding and he hugged him tightly and both of them were crying.
Sid: I'm sorry... I'm so sorry Baba.
Raj: Nhi bacha I'm sorry mujhe teri baat manni hi nhi chaiye thi.
Sid: Nhi... Aap kyu sorry bol rahe hai.
Raj: Shshsh chup reh na thodi der.
I felt a hand caressing me and found Maa there.
Aliya: Thank u Naaz main taras gayi thi inko aise dekhne ke liye.
Sana: Nhi Maa maine kuch nhi kiya.
Aliya: Sab kuch tumne kiya hai bacha, pehle bhi hume humara beta tumhari vajah se mila tha aur aaj itne saalon baad bhi.
I wiped her tears and hugged her tightly but then I realized that Sidharth and Baba are still on their sorry sorry games. I looked at maa to do something otherwise whole night we would be standing here doing nothing but just hearing sorry.
She blinked her eyes in response.
Aliya: Sahi hai Beta ab teri shirt nhi gandi ho rahi hai.
She said holding his other ear this time and he winced again.
Sid: Ahh maa aaj aap mere kaan ke dushman kyun ban gaye ho chodo...
Aliya: Nhi meri baari main toh teri shirt gili ho gayi thi na.
Sid: Haan toh abhi bhi... Ahh.... Ho gayi but sukh jayegi.
Raj: Aliya kyun dukhi kar rahi ho chod do.
Maa left his ear and looked at me before speaking.
Aliya: Dekh rahi hai na Shehnaaz, inko bhi ab meri koi value nhi hai beta joh mil gaya vapis.
But before I could speak anything both Sidharth and Baba pulled maa in a group hug and I was left admiring them.
I just wish ki ab ye humesha aise hi khush rahe.
I was about to get aside from Sidharth not having an intention to break this moment when I felt him holding my hand and breaking the hug himself.
I looked at him confused but instead of answering he asked me in a stern voice.
Sid: Tu kahan jaa rahi hai?
Sana: Kahin bhi toh nhi.
And before I could guess he engulfed me in his arms and his face in crook of my neck and I could feel his tears on my skin.
Sana: Sidharth...
Sid: Shhsh Thank you so much, tu nhi laati toh shayad kabhi pta hi nhi chalta ki I was missing him and this home so damn much.
Sana: Sidharth ro mat na bebu chod mujhe.
He wiped his tears and broke the hug and gave me that bunny smile but his eyes showed how emotional he was.
Sana: Acha Baba
Raj: Haan
Sana: Hum yahin se vapis jaaye ya andar aane doge.
Raj: Arey haan chalo dono andar.
*
We were done with dinner when baba got whole of our attention.
Raj: Sidharth...
Sid: Ji.
Raj: Tumne mujhe maaf kar diya na?
Sid: Baba main gussa tha hi nhi.
Raj: Sidharth see uss time par maine joh bhi kiya na voh...
Sid: It's ok baba.
Raj: Nhi let me complete it this time.
I held his hand to stop him from interfering this time because like everyone Baba has suffered a lot to and he has the right to vent it out.
Raj: Sidharth jab uss din tune bola na ki you have broke up with her, sahi boloon toh bahut gussa aaya but then samajh aaya ki shayad jhagde honge, bache the na bahut common hota hai uss waqt.
But itna yakeen tha ki alag nhi hoge, kyunki maine iss bachi ki aankhon main dekha tha how she loves you, bahut badi baate hai but hume tazurba hai bacha teri usse pehle ki kisi girlfriend se hume voh vibes nhi aayi par Naaz ke aane ke baad hume pta tha ki tum dono ek doosre ke liye bane ho, humne tumhe saath main haste hue, rote hue, jhagdte hue sab tarah dekha hai, but kabhi ye nhi socha tha ki tum alag ho jaoge. Reason toh mujhe aaj bhi pta nhi hai par itna pta hai voh faisla tera tha Sidharth, kyunki jis din Naaz last time ghar aayi thi na voh bahut khush thi tujhse milne ke liye par tu usse gusse main lekar bahar nikla tha, hume shayad uss din hi rokna chaiye tha par pta nhi we thought tumhari age zaroor kam hai but you are much sensible to handle it.
And when you said That you are dating Kiran now I just couldn't take it and on the top of that you were telling us you are leaving for London how could you accept me to handle all this in a moment Sidharth. Tu beta tha toh voh bhi toh beti thi na, tera dukh dikhta tha toh uska bhi toh dikhta tha. I said don't enter this house until Shehnaaz forgives you, ye tumhe nikalne ke liye isliye kahan tha ki shayad tujhe realize ho aur tum dono sort out kar lo but shayad main galat tha mere toh dono bache mujhse dur ho gaye na, itni toh galti nhi thi humari Sidharth.
I can't hold it in myself now, Baba crying and expressing himself was never I thought him to be, he always carried that I don't care wala attitude but seeing him like this I realize that just because of us they have suffered so much.
I hugged him tightly and whispered.
Sana: I'm sorry baba aapki koi galti nhi hai, it's my fault I should have not left you like that.
Sid: Baba....
Sidharth sat in front of him and took his hands in his, thus I left him and Maa hugged me. He wiped his tears and started saying...
Sid: Pta hai baba maine joh kiya tha voh isliye hi kiya tha taaki aap mujhse nafrat karo, Shayad sab mujhse nafrat kare kyunki uss time main khud se itni nafrat kar raha tha na ki koi aur mujhse pyaar karta bhi na toh mujhe voh galat hi lagta, jo kiya uske piche ka reason jab tak pta chala tab itna guilt tha ki cheeze sahi karne ka man hi nhi kiya, khud ko akele rakhna chahta tha, successful hona chahta tha taki man kisi aur direction main lag jaye but shayad bhool gaya tha ki family ke support se hi sab theek ho sakta hai, aur pta hai humesha lagta tha ki Shehnaaz hai aap dono ke pass, pta hota ki yeh meri vajah se sab se door ho jayegi toh kabhi nhi karta vaise... Isliye I'm sorry.
Sana: Nhi I'm sorry meri vajah se aap dono....
Raj: Nhi bacha tum dono toh bache the lekin main toh bada tha na, in fact agar thoda try karta toh shayad tum kabhi alag hote hi nhi.
Aliya: Raj, Naaz Sid joh ho gaya bhool jao and aage badho teeno, aise guilt main kab tak rahoge, chalo now c'mon bahut ho gaya ye sorry chalo jaldi sab happy happy smile karo abhi aur ek promise tum dono ki kabhi bhi purani cheeze lekar khud ko guilty nhi manoge.
How could I promise this? It is actually because of me everyone has suffered, how could I forget everything in a blink.
Sid: I Promise maa I will try not to remember the past.
Raj: Naaz...
Sana: Sorry but ye mujhse nhi hoga.
With this I ran outside because no matter what a guilt of destroying this will always be inside me.
Aliya: Naaz bacha sun toh.
Raj: Naaz.
Sid: Main dekhta hoon baba aap tension mat lo aur kafi late ho gaya hai na toh hum kal milte hai.
Aliya: Kal milte hai matlab tu yahi rahega ab se..
Sid: Maa abhi Shehnaaz ko meri zaroorat hai, we will talk about this later
Raj: Theek keh raha hai voh Aliya Tu dhyaan rakhna Sidharth.
*
I was standing holding the handle of the car with tears flowing Continuously from my eyes when I heard Sidharth shouted my name. This is what I always do? Once again he has to leave his parents because of me. I wiped my tears before he could see them but guess what I was wrong.
Sid: Shehnaaz....
Sana.... U promised me ki mere saath rahegi andar.... Kya hua uska?
I was still trying to control my tears when he rotated me and held my shoulders.
Sid: Apne aansun mujhse bhi chupayegi?
And this was it. I hugged him tightly and cried my heart out till the time I felt I could not cry more and he didn't said anything till the time I cried.
Sid: Ro liya?
I nodded my head in a yes.
Sid: Aur rona hai?
I nodded in no still lost somewhere when he opened the car door and made me sit in the passengers seat and gave me a bottle of water. He came from other side and started the car while I looked at him in shock.... Because the first time he didn't asked why did I cried?
Sid: Aise mat dekh aur paani pi?
Sana: Par hum jaa kahan rahe hai?
Sid: Jahnum main..
Sana(whinned) : kya hai yaar Sidharth?
Sid: Humare Ghar jaa rahe hai sweetheart.
Sana: Rone ka reason nhi puchega?
Sid: Teri aankhen bata deti hai, I have said u a hundred times to stop blaming yourself for whatever happened but.... It's not worth it.
I sighed as how could I forget he knows me better than I know myself and so I drank the water not wanting to upset him more when my phone started ringing
Sana: Y is he calling at this time?
Sid: Kon hai?
Sana: Aryan... Utha loon kuch kaam hoga
Sid (anger) : Nhi this is not a time to call rehne de.
And before I could protest it disconnected and I looked at Sidharth and realized he has been holding the steering tightly which was bruising his hands. I held his hand and he looked at me for a second.
Sid: kya hua?
Sana: You promised to not hurt yourself in anger.
His hold loosened but his words made me realize that he is actually hurt because of me today.
Sid: Sweetheart promise toh tune bhi kiya hai kafi kuch joh tu nahi nibha rahi.
This time his phone rang and it was written Krish calling. He picked up the call connecting it to Bluetooth on speaker still driving.
Sid: Haan Krish?
K: Kidhar hai tu?
Sid: Ghar jaa raha hoon.
K: Sanu saath main hai?
Sid: Haan kyun kya hua?
K: Rachit hoga shayad tere ghar par.
Sid(shocked) : What par kyun?
K: Pta nhi Aryan ne bola mujhe I think he is upto something again just...
Before he could speak Sidharth disconnected the Bluetooth and the phone was in hand in mode after he parked the car at a safe side, I was thinking something because that again word messed me up badly.
What we're they hiding this time? Why the hell Sidharth became so angry on just the mention of Aryan? Is it something related to these years that I don't know?
So finally done with the update....
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