Margaux POV
I'm sweating and really nervous. Caleb and I are here in Doctor Comnena's office. I just had some test for my check up and we're just waiting for the results.
She took a sigh first while holding the papers. I look at my husband who's sitting on my right side. He tightly held my hand for his moral support.
"Relax. Everything is fine." He whispers and I nodded to agree.
"Mrs. Hedley. I'm afraid to tell that you're experiencing infertility. We need to wait for a few more weeks to confirm." May halong lungkot sa boses niya. She's my ob-gyn at isa siya sa kilala at tiwalang doktor.
Nanlamig ako at lalong natakot. Please tell me I can still bear a child. Please. "What do you mean doc?"
"Well I understand that your period are back to normal at nakatulong ang mga gamot sayo. But I also noticed that you're underweight hija, and that's also one of the reasons kaya hirap ka mabuntis."
I looked down. It's my fault and I'm aware of my imbalance diet. Busy din ako sa shop since I pursue my fashion designing plus I'm also a part of the company, kaya pati doon ay may trabaho ako. There are times that I always forgot to eat at hindi tama ang mga kinakain ko.
I realized na kumakain lang ako ng maayos whenever we go out for a date. Kagaya ngayon, huling kumain ako ng matino ay noong kasal pa ni Jake which is two days ago pa.
"Try to eat healthy while still waiting for the final results. We will undergo more tests and I need the two of you to cooperate." We looked at each other questionably. Ang alam ko, sakin lang naman ang my problema. My husband is healthy.
"What do I need to do?" Maagap niyang tanong. I know how much he's longing for a child at ganoon din ako. At masakit na ako ang dahilan kung bakit hindi ito mabuo.
"Please try to quit smoking. I know it's hard Caleb but it also affects the lining of uterus, making implantation issue." Smoking has been an issue for the past years. He never smoke before pero nag simula lang siya kung kailan kinasal na kami at hawak na niya ang kompanya. He really changed.
Hindi ko alam kung pinaiikot ikot lang ba kami ni doktora. I know there's still a small chance na mabuntis ako, pero sana lang hindi niya ko pinapaasa sa wala. She can go straight to the point.
"Then what if, after we tried everything.. it still doesn'work? Hindi parin ako mabuntis. What does it mean doc?" I asked worriedly. After all those years, I thought I'm living a healthy life. Masyado akong nag pakasiguro kahit wala namang history ng infertility sa pamilya namin.
"Then you are diagnosed with Polycystic Ovary Syndrome. Which is a disorder that reduces the ovaries ability to mature and release eggs. I suggest you to consult a nutritionist too. Do everything habang kaya pang agapan."
I want to cry and make my self believe that it's not true. Pero pinili kong kalmahin ang sarili ko.
"Then hindi na kami mag kakaanak? Yun ba gusto mong sabihin?" Caleb asked horribly. Parang bangungot na malaman na posibleng hindi kami maging isang pamilya.
"We can try in a scientific way. A test tube baby probably. But to tell you frankly, Malaki ang magagastos niyo and there's a big chance that we'll fail the first attempt. Pwede naman natin paulit ulitin ang tests hanggang sa makabuo. But like what I've said, you'll waste a lot of money."
We really need to talk about this. I was advised na mag consult sa doctor ko regularly, lalo na ngayon na mag uundergo pa ko ng maraming tests. There's no point of being afraid.
Palabas na kami ng hospital ngayon at nag lalakad papuntang parking area. Caleb is not in the mood. Halata mo ang lalim ng iniisip niya. In fact naiiwan nga niya ko sa pag lalakad.
I noticed that he thinks a lot simula nung bumalik kami mula sa kasal ni Jake. I'm afraid that he's affected dahil sa pag kikita nila ni Sidney. I saw how he looked at her. Ayokong mag duda at mas gusto kong magtiwala dahil asawa ko parin siya.
"Sweetie, what do think about the test tube thing? If ever I was diagnosed with PCOS." Tanong ko sa kanya habang hinahabol ko ito na papunta na sa kotse namin.
But still he didn't answer back hanggang narating na namin ang kinaroroonan ng kotse niya.
"Sweetie." Pag uulit ko pa.
"What?" He sound startling at kunot noo niya kong tinignan.
Yeah, I'm right. He wasn't paying attention. Ganoon ba kalalim ang iniisip niya para hindi naintindihan ang sinabi ko? Mabilis siyang pumasok sa loob ng kotse kaya sumunod na din ako.
"As I was saying. Wala naman siguro masama kung itry natin yung sinasabi ni doktora. The scientific way. Maybe it'll work. What do you think?" He sighed heavily at hinilamos ang mukha niya. Kahit labag sa loob ko. I'm willing to try everything para lang mag kaanak kami.
"Narinig mo naman diba? We'll waste a lot of money. I'd still go in a natural way. But if it doesn't work.. yeah.. we can try that option." He quickly held my hand at hinalikan ito ng sandali. Then he starts the engine at pinatakbo na ang kotse.
Why do I feel bad? Dahil ba sa akin ang problema? I need to try everything dahil ayokong mag dulot ng problema sa relasyon namin ang hindi ko pag bubuntis.
Most especially because Sidney is back. Why do I feel like aagawin niya sakin ang asawa ko? I shouldn't be thinking this way. They are over. I'm his wife now at kinalimutan na siya ni Caleb. He's happy with me.
Sidney's POV
We're both in the middle of our main course. Pagkatapos namin manood ng movie ni Vixen, dumiretso kami sa isang fine dining restaurant dito sa Libis. Pinag bigyan ko siya sa date na hinihiling niya. After what he did for us especially to my son, deserve nya ang isang date.
"Thank you Sid for this night. I'll make sure you wont regret this." And he wink at nag tawanan kaming dalawa. I chose a surf and turf while he's eating a medium rare angus rib eye steak for main course.
He looked so handsome in his suit that matches his linen shirt inside. While I decided to wear a close neck sleeveless dress na kulay red. Tatlong taon na simula nung huli akong nakipag date. Nakakamiss din pala yung ganito.
"Wag ka mag alala, hindi ako madadala. This also my way of saying thanks to you. Sa hindi mabilang mong pag tulong samin ng anak ko." I'm so sure of giving him a chance. Wala naman sigurong masama kung nag mahal ako ulit. Vixen is a good man.
"Can you please stay longer? I'll surely miss this. Kapag umalis ka, sigurado ako busy ka nanaman sa pagiging workaholic mo." I chew a piece of prawn at nilunok ito bago ako mag salita. This restaurant is good. Masasarap ang pagkain nila. Time really flies at mag iisang linggo na ko dito sa Pinas.
I still have five days before I fly back in London. Namimiss ko na din sila Mama at Papa. Kung kailan naeenjoy ko na dito siyaka din naman nalalapit na ulit ang pag alis ko. This Sunday I'll meet some of my college friends at dalawa sa mga officemates ko before. Lumipat na din kasi sila ng work at hindi na sa company ni Vixen.
"You know that it's not possible. My work is waiting for me. Pwede ka naman bumisita sa London whenever you want to. At welcome ka naman sa bahay ko." Bitin nga naman ang bakasyon ko after three years akong nawala. But at least it's worth it. Hindi ko man nakuha yung closure na gusto ko. Nakita ko naman na masaya na siya at ganun din dapat ako.
"So hindi mo parin ba ko sasagutin? Ilang taon na kitang nililigawan. Naiinip na ko sa matamis mong oo." I burst out laughing. At ngayon minamadali na niya ko ha?
"Why? Are you giving up?" Mayabang kong tanong sa kanya at siyaka ako nag patuloy sa pagkain ko. Atat na talaga tong lalaking to. Kung sabagay, matagal tagal na din talaga ang pinag hintay niya.
"You know that I will never give you up. Until wala ka ng choice kundi ang sagutin ako." And there we laugh again. Kahit seryosong seryoso ang boses niya, hindi rin niya napigilan ang tawanan ang sarili.
"So sapilitan na talaga to ha? Puro ka talaga kalokohan Vixen. But still you never fail to make me smile. And thanks to that." He stare at my eyes seriously at napaka gawapo ng ng ngiti nito.
Sandali niyang binitiwan ang fork and knife na hawak niya para hawakan naman ang kaliwang kamay ko sa lamesa.
"Kinilig ako. Seriously." He grins widely at hindi ko maiwasan ang hindi tumawa sa sinabi niya.
"Para kang bata Vixen. Sige na, kumain ka na." We continue our chit chat while eating together. We usually eat together or have some coffee in London. Pero this is the third time that I will consider this a date with him.
Vixen is a romantic lover. Nakikita ko yun. Bakit nga ba hindi ko na lang siya sagutin? Bakit hindi ko pa siya noon sinagot? Masyado ba akong pakipot? Or talagang hindi pa lang ako ganun ka-handa.
We decided to walk along the place habang papunta kami sa parking area. Nagulat ako when he held my hand kaya HHWW ang peg namin. I find everything so perfect and romantic. Na parang naaayon talaga samin ang gabi.
"You know what? Minsan naisip kong mag pasalamat dahil nag kasakit si Dad, four years ago." Kunot noo ko naman itong tinignan. Grabe naman siya? Parang siya lang ata ang kilala kong masaya pang nagkasakit ang magulang niya.
"Bakit naman? Abnormal ka din talaga minsan noh?" Pag bibiro ko pa dito.
"Because I became the CEO and I get a chance to meet you." I look away to bite my lower lip. I hope I'm not blushing. Aasarin nanaman ako niyan pag nakita niya.
"Hindi ka kasi masyadong bumibisita sa Company nyo. Edi sana mas maaga mo pa kong nakilala." Kung nauna ko siyang nakilala, siguro sa kanya ako may anak ngayon at hindi ako nasaktan. But still I didn't regret my relationship with Caleb. Aminado naman akong my nineteen months with him are the best days of my life.
"I was busy being a perfect son to him. Pero alam ko naman na hindi parin huli ang lahat. You're with me now, and I'm still makin' you happy"
Saglit siyang tumigil sa paglalakad at ganun din ako. He held my both hands kaya mag kaharap kami ngayon.
He was looking at my eyes. Straight to my soul. I swallowed hard because he moved closer at hinawi ang buhok ko.
"V-Vixen." I whispered. Lalo pa ito lumapit until he kissed my forehead. I closed my eyes para namnamin ang matamis niyang halik.
"I love you so much Sidney.. And I can make you happy.. more than what you deserve." After kissing my forehead he slowly placed his arms around me para yakapin ako.
Napaka sincere niya and I can feel how much he loves me. That he is going to wait for me. Why I can't just let him love me? And try to love him back? Hindi yon mahirap gawin pero hindi ko magawa.
"Do you really think that I deserved your love?" Tanong ko sa kanya while I decided to hig him back. I feel safe. Na lahat ng pinag daaanan ko for three years ay biglang nawala dahil sa yakap niya.
"You are worth loving for Sidney.. And I can't let you go." And now he is caressing my back. Maybe this is the reason why I get back in the Philippines.
To make me realized that I had everything. At nandito lang sa tabi ko ang totoong nag papaligaya sakin and he can help me make a better start. I can't lose someone like Vixen.
I can't.
Caleb's POV
I took the last hit of my cigarette while facing the big clear window. It's late at night and I'm sure that my wife is getting worried. Everything is done and I'm not staying because of work.
It has been two days and why the hell I'm still thinking about her? That fucking girl. A part me wants to ask her why did she do that? Why did she left me?
Nag lakad ako papunta sa sa writing desk at umupo sa swivel chair. I need to focus to my wife, especially now that she needs me.
"Sidney.. Antoinette.. Madrigal.." I whispered to my self at siyaka ko hinilot ang sintido ko. Images are flashing back again.
I saw them. I saw her with my cousin. She's happy, they are happy. We used to be like that. Ano ba talagang nangyari sa kanya in the past three years?
Why do you still care Caleb?
Bakit bumalik yata ang lahat ng sakit na naramdaman ko? I woke up from coma and tried to make myself believe that everything is not true. Pero nakita ko sila in London. And it hurts me like hell.
And then I saw them again in Balesin. In love and very happy.
Vixen and Sidney.
And now they are family? They had a son? Lalo yata akong nagalit knowing that I can't have my own child. After what they did to me? Why I can't truly be happy? I've moved on and I'm more powerful than anyone else.
Tapos ngayon? Nalaman ko pang posible akong hindi mag kaanak? Hindi sila ang dapat masaya! Karma should be killing them. Lalong lalo ka na Sidney.
The feeling of having your own son. Yun ang wala ako. Which Vixen has. Nag bunga din pala ang kataksilan na ginawa nila. I doubt na magugustuhan siya ng Papa ni Vixen.
She's nothing but a gold digger. Kaya siguro hindi pa sila kasal hanggang ngayon.
Poor kid. He can't have a perfect family. They can't be happy.
It's time for payback Sidney.
Kahit konti, matikman mo ang sakit na naramdaman ko. I pick up my phone and immediately call my executive assistant.
"Hello Ivler!" In this case, baka maging masaya na talaga ko. I need to do this.
"I'm going to give you an assignment. Use all my connections.."
Call me evil or whatever she likes. Kailangan niyang pag sisisihan ang ginawa niya. She doesn't deserve to be happy. Ang gold digger, user at manlolokong kagaya niya ay hindi dapat tahimik at masaya ang buhay.
"I need all the details of a girl named Sidney Antoinette Madrigal. Every details of the past three years of her life. I need it as soon as possible Ivler."
Now let's see.. Who really owns the happiness.
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A/N: Hey guys. This is all what I can do. Hope you like my update.
By the way. The legal wife to your media 😉
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