All my life
I'm chasing
after putrid dreams
and vague schemes
For what?
—to outlive
the years of neglect
just so I could
feel love once more?
All my life
I've wished
for things I am
not allowed to achieve
For what?
—to taste the forbidden
clouds of heaven
just so I could know
how to live once more?
Sadly,
regretably,
all my life
I've been dreaming
and as I dream
I end up giving
up my hope
just so I could
live up to myself
and my thoughts
screaming I won't make it
All my life
I've been doubting
whether I could do it or not
that I forget
how to live in the present
until the present bleeds
to a past I can't take back
All my life
I've chased the wrong things
and I realized that
I've done nothing
for me to be remembered
All my life