Hi guys I decided to write the actual ending that I planed. So If you dont wanna read angst, dont read it-
okay have fun reading that-
BUT AGAIN NO NEED TO READ IT
Its been five months...
Five month since hes in coma.
I visited him everyday. Always talked about my day and how I am feeling. But it wasnt the same. I miss his weird comments he made when I ranted about something. I miss that smile he always wore.
Now Im just sitting every day in that stupid room and wait for him to wake up. I dont even want to think about the fact that he maybe never wake up. I just need to think positive.
Some days, mostly once a week, his family joined to talk to Mattsun. It was also nice seeing them again. I realized a while ago that the twins looked really down. They barley smiled. So I decided to do some fun stuff to make them happier. At least a bit. I want to help them. It hurts me seeing them like this. They are like a second family to me. I cant leave them like this. I would feel guilty if I did that.
I often went out with them to the movies or restaurants. We even were at a concert. The two said they loved spending time with me. And I cant lie, I also liked it. The only problem is that theyre reminding me of Mattsun way to much. Every time they make a joke I see Mattsuns face and it hurts. Every single damn time I aw him in those two I wanted to burst out crying, but I never did.
Months passed.. Now he was over a year in coma. Were already in our third year of high school. I just wish that he will wake up soon.
It was a day like every other. I woke up, walked to school the usual stuff. It was lunch time when I got a call.
"Hello?"
'Hello Hanamaki-kun.'
"Oh hello Matsukawa-san. Do you need something. Are the twins begging you again so that I would come over later?"
She chuckled.
'No its not them today. Actually I wanted to speak to you. Is it possible for you to come to our house after school?'
"Uhh yeah I can do that."
'Thats great. See you later Hanamaki-kun.'
"yeah see you."
I ended the call. "What does she want?" Oikawa asked me. "Oh she just want to see me after school. She sounded so serious." Oikawa just nodded.
"Okay and how are you Makki?" Iwa looked over to me. "Im okay." He rolled his eyes. "No I didnt asked for a lie." I looked down. "Im okay.. really" i looked up to Iwaizumi. "Its just that I miss him, nothing more." I smiled. "If you say so, but so you know we are always here to listen to you." I nodded. "I really appreciate it."
Then the bell rang and we all went to our classes. The whole time I didnt listen to the teacher because I thought about what Matsukawa-san want. Maybe its something about the twins? Mattsun? Herself? Me?
The class ended and I went to practice.. I couldnt concentrate at all. "Hanamaki are you okay?" My captain asked me. "uh yeah Im fine. Just a bit tired." He nodded. "Okay, then maybe go home for today." I nodded. "Thank you captain." I went changing and before I left I informed Iwaizumi that I already go home.
I went directly to Mattsuns house. I rang the doorbell and it revealed the twins. "Were you two fighting about who opens the door again?" I asked them. "Nooo?" The both said. "Ahh sure. Where is your mom?" She pointed at the Kitchen. I stepped inside.
"Hello Hanamaki-san!" I greeted her. She looked up and smiled. "Hello Hanamaki-kun, Do you want a tea?" I nodded. "That would be nice. I ll take the one I usually drink." She stood up and started boiling water.
She looked sadder than usual. "Did something happen?" I asked her and she nodded slowly. "Something happened.." She sat down again and gave me my tea. "What happened?"
"The hospital called me earlier..." My heart stopped beating for a second. "W-What did they say?" I asked her. I was shaking a bit. She started crying. "They-" she stopped. She was sobbing so hard. I rushed over to her and hugged her.
We stayed like this for a bit till she calmed down a bit. "They said that they want to turn off the machines for him. Its been one and a half year and- and theyre giving up on him." "W-what?"
They- They want to give him up? I broke down. I cried so hard. So loud. Matsukawa-san tried to calm me down, but it didnt helped. The twins heard me and rushed into the kitchen. They looked to me. "W-what happened, Makki-san?", The girl asked me and her brother Immediately came to me and hugged me, she then followed.
I guess their mom didnt told them anything and i dont wanna be the one telling them this and in my current state I wasnt able to talk at all. It was just all to hard to process.
Eventually I calmed down. It took me a while. "Are you okay now, Makki-san?" I nodded. "Thanks you two and Im okay now." The two left the room. "Im sorry for what happened. What did you say?"
"Oh no need to be sorry. I said that they should give him a few more month." I nodded. "And then they said they give him 6 more month. If he doesnt wake up after that time, they will turn off the machines." I gulped. "I hope he wakes up..." "Me to Hanamaki-kun"
After I finished drinking my tea, I went home. I changed and directly went to Mattsun.
"Heyy Mattsun!" I sat beside him. "You know you really need to wake up. I dont want to loose you. The doctor give you 6 month. So hurry up and wake up! I really dont want you to die. I couldnt even confess to you yet. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with you. If you die here I wont ever forgive you."
I went silent. The only things that could be heard were the machines and some birds outside. I wanted to speak again but then the machine starts peeping really fast. The doctor heard it and rushed into the the room with some nurses.
One nurse told me to leave the room. I did as I was told. I was standing in the hallway totally confused. What just happened? Tears were streaming down my face. I did the one thing I though was right.
'Makki?'
"Kawa. J-just come t-to the hospital asap."
I ended the call. I knew I didn't need to call Iwaizumi because Kawa would bring him anyways.
After 30 Minutes Mattsuns family arrived, again without father. The twins immediately run up to me. "ho-how is Issei!?" I looked down. "I- I don't know..."
I opened my arms to hug them. Both accepted the hug and just cried. After 10 minutes Iwa and Oikawa arrived. The twins let go of me and I rushed towards Kawa. I just hugged him, because his hugs were the best after Mattsuns...
"Makki what happened." I looked over to Iwa. "He- h-" I couldn't talk. I sobbed just by the thought of loosing him. His mom stepped towards us and explained everything. The both also start crying.
Now we just wait
One hour passed.
Another passed.
Another passed.
After four hours a doctor finally came out. I jumped out of my seat. "H-how is he?" I asked. My hopes went up. I know he's alive.
He didn't say anything at first.
"I'm sorry for your loss."
"w-what?"
I can't believe it. Its just a joke, r-right?
"We did everything we could do, but nothing helped."
I turned around to see his mom and the twins.
The twins were sobbing really hard and Matsukawa-San looked like she just saw a ghost.
"Thank you for trying." She just said and the doctor left.
I looked over to Iwaizumi and Oikawa. Oikawa was crying really hard and Iwaizumi tried to calm him down, but also crying.
I broke down. The second time today.
"He- he..." That's all I could say in my current state.
I just lost my best friend, the person that I love, the person that I trusted the most. The one, I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
I could feel arms wrapped around me. It was Oikawa and Iwaizumi. We three just sat there and cried.
Time skip to after Mattsuns funeral
Almost everyone left. It was just us three Kawa, Iwa and me. We stood in front of his grave.
"Hey.. Issei. I hope you're doing well in hell obviously because in heaven is it to boring for you," we chuckled a bit.
"I still can't believe you left me. You left me... You- why did you do that? Why would you leave me." I started crying.
"Why must you get hit with a car. Why did you die? I- and then the same way my dad died. I just don't understand how the good people, the people I love the most die first?! AND I NEVER GOT THE CHANCE TO CONFESS TO YOU." I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Sorry... Didn't mean to yell. I just can't understand what you left me. We wanted to so so much together. I don't know how I will be able to move on. I jidt- I just love you to damn much. Actually I wanted to confess for a while now. But who-ohh... I can't anymore."
I could hear sniffles from behind me. "I just wanted to tell you that I miss you... Thank you for every moment we had together. These memories are irreplaceable. Thank you for every time you made me laugh. For every time you helped me sleeping for just everything. Thank you for stepping into my life."
"I love you Mattsun. But this time...
Full Homo."