IMPORTANT FYI: This is a separate Oneshot and has NO RELEVANCE to the main storyline of the book!! Essentially, it's just a scenario/imagine-if chapter (enjoy none the less :D)
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"C-C-Cassie..." I sobbed through the phone to my friend- the one who I had met at the wedding JJ and I had snuck into. We had started meeting up and becoming friendlier, but I now had a feeling that there were more important matters than our friendship at the moment.
"Jesus Christ, Sadie- what's going on?!" Cass questioned, shocked to hear me crying.
"O-O-Oh my God, Cass..." I sobbed, sliding down against the wall, putting my hands in my head and shaking it.
"Sadie, Sadie- I'm gonna need you to, uhm, take a deep breath in and explain what's going on." Cass stated shakily, trying to calm myself and herself down.
"I-I-I-I can't." I stuttered, unable to stop sobbing and eventually hyperventilating. I tried to clasp a hand over my mouth to stop the noise- unable to do anything because of how shaky my hands were.
"Sadie?" Cass asked after a few moments of silence. "Sadie I need you to confirm you're fine."
"I'm not, I'm really not." I managed to get out before choking upon my words and letting out a fresh batch of sobs.
"O-Okay Sadie- just hang in there, okay? I-I'm on the way to pick you up." Cass rushed out. "Okay?"
"Mh-hmm-m." I managed to hum with breaks between.
I let out a shaky sob once I heard the end call button ringing, signalling that Cass had dropped the call. I buried my head back into my hands, letting out all of my sobs out- muffled by the hands covering my mouth and face. I felt my heart dropping and shoulders feel weight piled upon them.
JJ was going to hate me and break up.
Ethan will be ashamed and kick me out of the apartment.
The girls will think bad of me for going through the experience before me.
The modelling company would resign me.
I continued hyperventilating at the thought of the endless negative possibilities of reactions.
"Sadie...?" I heard Ethan's voice outside my room. My breath hitched as I gulped back my cries in order to reply with a straight voice.
"Yes...?" I asked, my voice breaking at the end making myself cringe.
The door was opened, revealing Ethan holding a concerned expression. His expression fell even further as he found me in a small space against the wall, eyes bloodshot and face paler than the white wall behind me.
I looked at him, trying to calm my breathing and not cry. My chest rose and fell quickly as I kept bottling the sobs that tried to escape my mouth.
"Oh God Sadie, what's going on?" Ethan asked, crouching down besides me and rubbing my shoulder.
I couldn't tell him what was going on.
He would hate me, maybe he'd be disappointed- maybe angry, I could even destroy his relationship with other people if I told him.
"I-I can't say" I whispered, my voice hurting from crying so much already.
"Sadie, please just tell me what's wrong..." Ethan replied softly. I looked up at him to see himself getting unhappy to see me crying. "I hate to see you like this..."
"Ethan... Please..." I whispered, my voice barely audible at this point. I sunk my head back into my knees, hugging my legs which were tucked up into my chest, before hearing the doorbell going off.
"I'll get that." Ethan sighed.
"No- It's my friend- we're going out to talk." I stated with a slightly stronger voice. Ethan sighed before nodding and exiting the room.
I slowly started getting up from the floor, using the wall as a grip to rise up. I felt my knees buckling as I got up, but didn't allow myself to fall back down.
As I began walking towards the door, I heard ringing in my ears, saw black around the edges of what I saw, and felt heavy and drowsy- like I weighed the same as marble did. None the less I dragged myself towards the door, slowly opening it to see Cassie behind it, holding her bag and a worried expression.
"Oh my dear Jesus Sadie, what's happened with you?!" She exclaimed, raising a hand and making me flinch. I felt embarrassed when I realised she had only raised it to touch my forehead to take my temperature.
"C-Can we just go back to your place?" I mumbled the questioned.
"As long as you're gonna explain what's going on, we can go wherever, babes." Cass allowed, taking me down the stairs before getting into the car- helping me to buckle my seatbelt due to my shaky hands.
"Okay, to my house, right?" Cass questioned again. I nodded to confirm.
She started driving and an a tension filled silence settled into the car.
"...Cass..?" I whispered.
"Mhm, what's up?" She replied instantly.
"I-I-... Can we quickly stop at the pharmacy?" I asked.
"Sure- what do you need? I can go get it for you... You know, unless you need to show a certificate that you've been issued whatever you need, then you might have to go-"
"C-C-Can you get me, uhm, a... pregnancy test...?" I mumbled, letting out a dry sob afterwards.
"Huh...?" Cass turned and faced me, a pitiful and shocked expression on her face.
"I was meant to have my period last fucking week, but I still haven't had it- or any signs of having it." I sniffed, unable to cry any more tears. "I've been throwing up recently as well, and feeling fatigued, and feeling nauseous when I wasn't vomiting- not to mention that-"
"Sadie- do you know who the dad is." Cass asked assertively.
"I-yes. I haven't slept with any other people other than JJ... And we uhm, did it about two weeks ago." I explained quietly. "Oh my God, JJ's gonna hate me- he's gonna break up... He's said before that he isn't ready for kids... Oh my God, he might make me get an abort-"
"Hey, snap out of it." Cass snapped her fingers in my face, shocking me. "Okay I'll admit that was slightly harsh... Look, just.. breath. He can't make you abort if you want the child if you want it- you can sack him off and live with Ethan still... Or if even he doesn't want you, you can ALWAYS come stay with me and Marissa! Not that Ethan would ever-"
"Cass, I don't even know if I want the child..." I breathed. "I'm 25! Twenty-fucking-five, and I can't raise a child on my own... And neither do I want an abortion..."
"Hey, look- there's a chance you aren't even pregnant, maybe you just... Have cancer!"
I managed to let out a chuckle despite the sad tone.
"Hey, look- here's the pharmacy- I'll go in and get you... Five tests- All Clearblue of course, and then we'll see what it is." Cass reassured me.
"Money." I handed her a wad of money.
"Nope." She threw it back into my lap making myself roll my eyes. Before I could protest any more she already had walked away from the car and to the pharmacy.
Five minutes later she returned holding a bag which I could only assumed was filled with the pregnancy tests.
"Okay, I got the stuff but I also got Calpol in case you're hurting and just because who doesn't occasionally want to drink some Calpol for no reason?" Cass asked, making myself chuckle slightly as well.
"Thank you so much Cass." I thanked, taking the bag off her as she got into her seat and turned the car back on.
"It's fine, of course it is! I mean, I'd do this for anyone- it's just a decent thing to do." Cass shrugged. "Anyways, we going to my house now?"
"Yes please." I confirmed.
"Alright- By the way, Marissa might be home when we get there." Cass alerted me.
"That's fine if she is." I stated.
"Great, then let's go." Cass began the drive.
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"Okay, you ready to see the result?" Cass asked, crouching down and sitting against the wall beside me. I inhaled deeply before nodding. "Right, go inside and check the results then, babes."
"GOOD LUCK!" Marissa called from one of the other rooms.
I chuckled lightly before slowly getting up.
"I'm so fucked if it comes out positive." I stated honestly, before turning around and leaving Cass in teh other room, instead advancing to the tests in the bathroom.
Positive.
Positive.
Positive.
Positive.
Positive.
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