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Harry POV:
"Harry, for fucks sake man! If you keep pacing around your dressing room you're going to burn a hole in the ground," Jeff called out from the other side of the door.
I rushed over the door whipping it open, "Jeff, do you really think I can be calm right now? It's the last fucking show and Cecelia hasn't reached out to me yet. I don't even know if she's coming," I cried out in frustration as I ran my hand through my hair, tugging on the roots harshly.
Jeff sighed coming in and closing the door behind him, "Harry, I know you're stressed out okay? But still remember you have one last show for the fans. After tonight you can get on a plane and disappear if you don't want to see anyone ever again. Just for tonight, reel it in," he spoke with pleading eyes.
I sighed sitting back on the couch, "Yeah, yeah. I'll try and keep my shit together."
"And if Cecelia does show up, I will definitely let you know," he smiled before walking out and closing the door.
"Fuck," I whispered as I leaned back, closing my eyes when I felt tears prickling at the surface.
It's been just over a week since I flew back from Paris. To say Jeff was pissed was understatement. I mean, why wouldn't he be?
I left right after the show in Spain and didn't say a word to anyone.
Seeing her beautiful face after all these months in person only broke my heart even more. She didn't look the same as before. She looked really tired, but somehow she looked alive enough to make everyone else feel better.
I nearly dropped to my knees in front of her when she let me hold her hands and kiss her on her forehead. If that was the last time I got to hold her I... I would be okay with that. At least she knew how I felt. I just knew deep down inside she felt the same way. I mean she had to feel something if she was so upset at those fucking pictures of that Natasha girl, who I did fire before leaving Spain.
Rob was kind enough to cancel her internship when he found out Natasha and that Laura lady who initially helped with the interns had the same intentions as each other - sleep with me.
I think this was probably the 10th time I played around with the parting of my hair.
What if Cecelia doesn't like how my hair is parted?
Will she still take me back?
Maybe my outfit isn't good enough?
These were just some of the many questions floating around in my head. I anxiously looked at the clock at the wall that let me know we have 15 minutes left until the show started.
Still no Cecelia.
Fuck this is it. I'm never going to see her again, am I?
I quickly breathed in and out, holding back my tears, as I tried to calm myself down when a loud knock from my door, "It's time Harry!" Mitch called out before knocking again.
"I'm coming," I answered back, cursing myself when my voice cracked a tiny bit.
Get your shit together you fucking loser. If it's meant to be, she'll be standing on the opposite side of this door.
I looked over into the mirror before, heading out the door. Time put on that fake smile for the world, for hopefully the last time.
I opened the door, hearing and physically feeling my heart break down the center when I came to stand in the middle of a very empty hallway. I look both ways down the hall before I throw my head back, blinking away the tears, "You can do this, Harry," I whisper to myself as I walk towards everyone who were all huddled in the usual pre show circle.
"Ah there's our star!" Rob Stringer smiled as he patted my back.
"Hey Rob," I smiled weakly, shaking his hand.
"Are you ready for the last show? The fans are going absolutely crazy out there," he smiled, elated at the fact that the fans seem to be more happy to be here than me.
"Pretty good," I reply, easily lying through my teeth.
"Okay circle time everyone!" Jeff called out.
I walk over to Jeff, my eyes searching his face for any sign that Cecelia was here. I felt the pit in my stomach become hollow when he sadly smiled and shook his head as he mouth 'I'm sorry Harry'
I inhaled an uneven breath as I stiffly shook my head as I bowed my hand grabbing Sarah and Mitch's hands in the circle. They were really happy when they found out that I had flown out to see Cecelia in Paris. I also knew they were talking to Cecelia since Paris but just haven't told me anything. I don't know if that's either a good thing or a bad thing.
"Okay Harry we're just going to capture a quick clip of you walking over to the stage, can you just stand over there with Rob," Jeff instructed.
I sighed, turning on the charm as the red light on the camera flashed.
I walked up the stairs to the stage, taking in the sound of the extremely loud cheers that echoed through the Forum. The final show.
The familiar chords of Golden began as the screaming became louder when I stood on the top of the top little stage before climbing down and waving at everyone. I danced over to the mic glancing over at Mitch who sent me a smirk. I held back a confused frown as I began singing.
"Golden, golden, golden. As I open my eyes," I sing, my eyes glancing over the front row sending them a smile.
"Hold it, focus, hoping. Take me back to the light," my voice echoes as I quickly close them as I feel the vibration of the drums and bass in my chest.
"I know you were way too bright for me. I'm hopeless, broken," I open my eyes and freeze not believing what I was seeing.
Standing beside Jeff and Rob, wearing the same dress I told her she looked beautiful in during the goddamn livestream, my girl.
My cherry girl.
My beautiful cherry girl.
The biggest smile sketches itself permanently on my face when she winks at me sending me a small wave. It was so hard to sing with this smile. All I could do is keep my eyes on her.
I thought she wasn't going to show up?
"You're so Golden," I sing into the mic before moving away and dancing my heart out.
I swear I could hear that adorable giggle escape her lips over the music. I looked back at Sarah and Mitch as they grinned at me. Of course they fucking knew. I smiled back at them, my dimples on full display by now.
As the song ends and blends into Adore You, I take my time looking over at Cecelia who's cheering me on with her hands cupped over her mouth, sending me a thumbs up with a huge smile.
I was so tempted to stop the show and run over to her and pull her into my arms and never letting go. I took my last sip of water, turning around and doing one last whale as the lights in the arena blacked out giving me enough time to run backstage.
"Where is she?" I excitedly asked, still trying to catch my breath.
Jeff looked up at Rob nervously, hesitating to answer.
"Jeff spit it out. Where the hell is she?" I asked more worriedly as I looked around frantically.
"S-she left Harry," Jeff said with a pained expression.
I did a double take, looking at him in disbelief, "W-what do you mean s-she's gone?!"
"As soon as you finished Kiwi, she said she was leaving and left without another word," Jeff admitted.
No, no, no, no.
This can't be happening.
Jeff's voice blurs into the background as I stumble my way back to my dressing room, slamming the door behind me and sliding onto the floor.
She doesn't love me?
All those times I thought she was in love with me were all a fucking mistake.
Give up Harry.
There was no point fighting for this anymore. I warned myself that if she didn't show up that meant this was over for good. I gave myself a couple more minutes on the ground before picking myself up and heading over to the bathroom. I patted some water on my face to get rid of the redness and changed into the same outfit I arrived with earlier.
As I cleaned up the room, I couldn't help but think about the one question that keeps bugging me,
Why did she show up if she didn't love me?
I shook my head. No, it's over.
I kept my head down as I walked over to everyone who immediately greeted me with a big congratulations on finishing another tour. I smiled genuinely this time, shaking everyone's hand.
"Um I'd just like to say a couple things before I headed back home," I announced, clearing my throat.
Everyone came to a stand still, turning their attention to me, "I uh, just want to apologize for being such dick during the tour. I know there was a time when I either snapped or spoke rudely to each one of you and I just wanted to apologize for that. That was out of line and very disrespectful," I speak up, "I hope you all enjoy your evening tonight. I however won't be joining you. I'm feeling uh a bit under the weather after the show. Please have a drink on me. I hope to see you all soon," I smile when they all clap after I finish speaking.
"Group hug everyone! Bring it in!" Sarah yelled as everyone came rushing in towards me. I laughed, wrapping my arms around them, hugging them back. After saying goodbye to everyone I headed towards my car.
With my head hung low I couldn't help but think that I was going back to an empty house alone with no one to share it with.
I trudged towards the car as I dug out my keys from my pocket but immediately stopped in my tracks when I heard her voice echoing throughout the underground parking.
"For a 27 year old, you have terrible posture."
I snap my head up, my eyes nearly falling out of their sockets when I see her leaned up against the drivers side of my car, with her hands clasped in front of her body. A nervous smile playing on her lips. I watch as her chest rises and falls as her breaths become more shallow when she sees my reaction.
"Hi Harry," Cecelia barely speaks out as she stands up, pushing a strand of hair out of her face.
I gulp, dropping my bag as I start walking towards her while she does the same thing. Both of us, increasing our speed as we neared each other. Cecelia jumped up in my arms, wrapping her legs around my waist and arms around my neck pulling me extremely close to her. I choke back a sob as I wrap my arms around her, pulling her flush against my chest, burrowing my face in her neck as the familiar smell of her perfume fills my thoughts. I held her tighter when I felt her body shake as she cried into my shoulder.
I stood there, in the middle of the parking lot, with both of us wrapped up in each other, silently crying, not believing this was actually happening.
I can't believe I was holding my girl.
Cecelia pulled back with a big smile on her face as tears continued to stream down her perfect face, I reached out using my thumb to wipe away her tears. I grinned widely as she did the same, reaching out and wiping away my tears too.
I smiled as I struggled to find the right words to say, "I-I can't believe you're here," I whisper as her smile widens.
She took in a deep breath, "I couldn't go any longer without you, Harry. This is probably a long time overdue but... Harry Styles, I am so deeply in love with you, too."
I stopped breathing as I stared at her, my eyes flickering between her glossy eyes. My stomach did the biggest flip as she nodded smiling.
"I love you so much, Harry. I love you. I love you. I love you. I lo-"
I didn't give her a chance to finish as I crashed my lips into hers, taking her by surprise. She immediately kissed me back with just as much force and passion. This was the kiss that instantly healed the months of sadness we both experienced. This kiss made everything right in the world.
I forced myself to pull away when I started to lose my breath, staring into Cecelia's eyes, "Say it again, please?" I whisper, begging her to repeat it as I rested my forehead against hers.
"I love you, Harry," she lightly giggled, rubbing her nose against mine.
"I fucking love you too, Cecelia," I murmur before pulling her lips to mine again.
Our lips moved against each other as if there hadn't been all these months in between our last kiss. My knees almost gave in when a small whimper escaped her soft lips. She gasped when I squeezed her waist as I walked towards my car, pushing her against the drivers side with her legs still wrapped around me. She pulled at my roots as a deep-rumbling groan crept up my throat.
I don't know what it was but I remembered we were in the middle of a public parking lot, meaning anyone could walk in and see us. I reluctantly pulled away giving her a few short kisses. I gently set her on the ground as her arms wrapped around my waist pulling me to her body.
I couldn't help myself but I attacked her with kisses all over her face as her contagious giggle rang in my ears, making me smile into each kiss. I leaned back before slowly leaning down, capturing her lips with mine, giving her a gentle kiss.
"I love you so much, Cecelia. I've been waiting to do that for so long," I smile leaning my forehead against hers.
"Me too. I can't believe it took us so long," she lightly chuckled. I gave her one last peck before turning around, grabbing my bag from the floor.
"Let's get out of here," I smile, wrapping my arms around her shoulder, pulling her into my side, smiling as I kiss the top of her head.
"Yes, please," Cecelia smiled, turning her head to meet my lips. I let out a hum as I held her close not wanting to pull away. She laughs into the kiss pulling away, walking over to the passenger seat as I tossed my bag in the back seat.
"I'm feeling like some iced coffee. Should we get your regular at the Beachwood Café just like old times?" I smiled, leaning against the roof of the car, looking over to Cecelia who was mimicking my actions.
"Funny you should say that," she giggles, "I was going to say the same thing... What a Coincidence?" she smiled shrugging her shoulders which made me chuckle at her weirdness.
I love this woman so much...
I started the car after both of us buckled in as the radio came to life. I turned to Cecelia, intertwining her hand with mine, placing a kiss on the back of her hand, "Yes, Rose. That truly is a Coincidence."
She smiled before leaning over the console as her lips ghosted against mine, "I love you Harry," she whispered, before giving me a deep kiss.
I threaded my other hand through her hair kissing her before pulling back mumbling against her velvet lips, "I love you too, my sweet Rose."
A/N:
IM SO EMOTIONAL
Thank you to everyone who read this book. I've been pushing myself to try out something new. This has been such a great experience. Thank you once again!!
Alsoooo....
I'm just gonna leave this here... it may or may not involve the epilogue that may or may not be coming soon... 👀