" Who is that ? " paisley asked
" An asshole." I said
" Awe Cmon baby." He said putting his arm around me.
" Austin stop ! " I yelled pushing him away from me.
" I know you want me." He said running in front of me.
" Never in a million years." I said
" Cmon." He said getting barely inches away from me.
" St-" was all I could say before he put his lips on mine.
" FUCKING PIG ! " I yelled pushing him away from me.
" Cmon we know you liked it." He said
" I would like for you to leave me alone !" I yelled
" I told you I get what I want." He angrily and getting close to me.
" What are you gonna do ? Be the second man to abuse me ? " I said in a low voice.
I pushed passed him and I said ;
" Cmon paisley. "
I showed her around the school and then we walked to our first hour.
• skips to lunch •
" What did Austin say to you earlier that made you yell fucking pig ?" Addie asked
" I don't even remember." I lied
" Hey Ashton." I heard a guy say.
I looked over to see Alex. Austins best friend.
" What. " I growled.
" Come with me ." He said
" Why can't you guys just leave me alone ? " I groaned standing up
I followed him to a hall way and Alex said ;
" It would be great if you could stop calling Austin an asshole and a pig and saying he uses girls. Words do hurt you know. "
" Are you fucking serious right now ? You know how much he's called other people worse names ? You know how many times he's called me a slut and a whore in the past ? Maybe you should tell him words fucking hurt and tell him that words can help in someone's suicide. Ask him how bad he would feel if he was the reason he pushed someone over the edge and they killed themselves and then come talk to me about 'words hurting' " I said then stormed away.
I walked back into the cafeteria and sat down.
I put my head in my hands and I felt my phone go off.
It was an unknown number.
From : Unknown.
Go Kill yourself you worthless piece of shit.
I locked it and brushed it off.. Well tried.
I felt it keep going off .
From : Unknown.
Cut yourself deeper.
From : Unknown.
Drink bleach.
From : Unknown.
Why are you still here ?
From : Unknown.
Nobody wants you.
I held back my tears and felt it keep going off. The same messages over and over and over again.
• skips to the end of the day •
I ran outside and slammed my car door shut causing it to crack.
I broke down in tears and quickly drove away. The girls had a ride home.
I screeched into my drive way and ran into my room. I threw my stuff down. I was home alone once again.
I heard a knock on my balcony door and I ignored it. I heard footsteps and someone knelt beside me.
" Hey are you okay ? " they asked
" why do you care ? " I asked.
" Because I just do." He said hesitantly touching my back.
I looked up and seen Austin.
" Why are you here ? " I asked angrily.
" Because I saw you crying when you pulled up and I wanted to see if you were okay." He said
" No. You were just trying to be nosey. So you can go tell Alex Robert and Zach everything you find out about me. Just because I won't date you or hook up with you or fuck you." I said
" No. That's not what I'm doing." He said
" Lies." I said standing up and walking to my bathroom.
" You know Alex came up and talked to me today saying how I just stop calling you things because words hurt." I said
" He did ? " he asked
" Yeah. You have damaged more people than I know. I don't know who the fuck he thinks he is telling ME that words hurt. But he should tell you not me. " I said
" I'm sorry Ashton."
" No your not Austin. Your not sorry for any of it. Your just saying that so I think you have changed. "
" No I'm not ." He said
" Yes you are Kaleb ! " I yelled
" Kaleb ? " Austin said confused.
Tears filled my eyes and my mouth opened a little.
I can not believe I just said that. Kaleb is my ex boyfriend that cheated on me with my ex best friend Sophie.
" Wait Kaleb Halverson ? " he asked
I didn't say anything and walked back into the bathroom. I sat on my counter and put my head into my knees.
" What did he do ? " Austin asked hesitantly.
" It does matter." I said it sounded muffled.
" If it's making you sad that it does matter. " he said
I looked up and him and he said ;
" What happened ? "
" Sophie's God damn family happened. First my dad cheats on my mom with her mom then my boyfriend cheats on me with her." I said
" Wait your dad is having an affair.?" He asked
" Yeah. And he thinks I told my mom about it." I said
" Is that why he ..?" He said trailing off.
" Raped and beat me ? Yeah." I said
" HE RAPED YOU ?! YOUR OWN DAD ?! " he yelled
" Then right after he did that we saw each other when I was taking a walk." I said
" Wait.. I told you that right after he did that to you ? " he asked
" Mhm." I said
I felt like I was gonna cry but nothing was coming out. My eyes were completely dry. But my throat was burning. I had that feeling when you about to cry but I've cried so much I can't cry anymore.
" I'm so sorry.." He whispered.
" Don't be. I deserved it." I said
" NO YOU DIDNT ! " he yelled
" Yeah I did. " I said
" No you didn't. You didn't deserve anything that happened that day. You didn't deserved to get raped , beaten and I know words hurt. But I just realized it. I'm so fucking sorry for being such an asshole. " he said tears on the rim of his eye.
" Don't cry over me. " I said
" I feel really bad .. " he said
" Don't. You told me the truth. That's all I've ever wanted to hear." I said
" But it's not the truth. " he said
" Then what is." I said
" I'll tell you in exactly one week. But you have to give me a chance." He said.
" But I'm suppose to hate you. " I said
" Then we will keep it a secret." He said
" Well how are we suppose to keep it a secret ? " I asked
" Well hang out after school. But my mom can't find out about it." He said
" Neither can my parents. " I said
" Mmm. I don't know I think your too goody two shoes for it ." He smirked
" I am not a goody 2 shoes. " I said.
" Name one bad thing you've done in your life. " He said
" I cussed at my dad."
" Ho-ly shit. We've gotta rebel over here ! " he yelled
" Shhh. My dad might be here. He usually get homes around now." I said Putting my hand over his mouth.
He smiled and licked my hand.
" Ew ! Austin ! " I said wiping my hand on him.
He laughed and ran to my bed and plopped on it.
" Hey ! " I said
" What ?" He asked
" Don't plop sit. " I said softly sitting on it.
" You are such a goody 2 shoes." He said
" Am not ! " I said
He looked at my for a second than said ;
" If you laugh when I do this your a goody 2 shoes."
I looked at him with a confused face and he quickly sat on my and started tickling my sides.
I busted into laughter and said ;
" Austin... Stop." Between laughs.
" See your a goody 2 shoes." He laughed
" Am not. " I said.
" Stop denying it." He said
" Make me." I said
" You really wanna go there ." He said.
" Come at me." I said standing up.
" Help me up." He said reaching for me.
" Lazyass." I laughed laying back down on my bed.
" Hey ! " he said
I smiled at him and he stood up.
" Cmon lets go." He said pulling my up.
" Where are we going ? " I asked
" My house. My mom isn't gonna be home for a while and your parents could come home anytime." He said
" You expect me to climb down that balcony." I asked
" Mhm." He smiled.
I sighed and we walked to the balcony.
" Watch me. " he said climbing down.
" Ashton ! " I heard my dad yell.
I looked at him and he said ;
" Be ready in 5 minutes we are gonna be leaving. " he said
I looked at Austin and i whispered ;
" My dad is taking me somewhere."
" Just come with me ! " he said
" No I can't.. " I said
" I'll be back when you get home !" He yelled than ran to his house.
" ASHTON ! " my dad yelled from downstairs.
It's been like 30 seconds dafuq ?
I grabbed my phone and ran downstairs.
We walked to the car and I saw Austin. He didn't the message me signal and I nodded.
We got in the car and I said ;
" Where are we going ? "
" Valerie's.." He smirked.
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