Athena P.O.V
I finally got in the car, not being in the mood for putting music on. That's what made me realize that I was broken, I always listened to music, I always wanted to listen to music.
I looked at myself in the little car mirror, my mascara was a mess, my eyes were red and puffy, my nose was runny, and my hair was full of frizz. I was a mess
After a long cry session in my car I decided that it was time to head home, I needed to see Anna and tell her about this. Anna and I were so close, we told eachother everything. She's is the one that helps me with every single problem that I have, and I couldn't be more grateful for having her.
Ten minutes later I was at my door, still crying. I know I was probably exaggerating, but it still hurts. It hurts knowing that your bestfriend doesn't think you are good enough. My relationship with Sophie was never the healthiest, and if im being honest she was kinda toxic, but deep inside, i knew she cared for me, i knew that despite all the bad comments about how i dressed, how I sung, how I laughed, she still loved me. Or so I thought
I quickly got the key from my pocket and entered the house. Anna was sitting in the couch, a cup of coffee in one of her hands, and her phone in the other one. She looked up to me and her eyes were filled with worry
"Oh my god, Ath what happened?" She quickly wrapped her arms around me and I proceeded to bury my face in her shoulder and cry a bit more
"Ath, please tell me why are you crying" She said while stroking my hair, worry all over her tone
I tried calming myself down while taking deep breaths, sobbing with asthma wasn't the easiest thing to do. I told her everything, with sobs in between. I couldn't stop crying, it was like I was gonna drown in my own tears.
"Im gonna kick that bitch with a salami stick, I swear to God and the virgin Mary"
I let out a chuckle
"Thank you Ann" My voice came out more like a whisper, but it was loud enough for her to hear
"For what?"
"For making me laugh even when im broken"
"That's why im here for, you will always be my baby sister and I will always love you"
"I love you too. I think I'll head to my room"
"Okay Ath, remember, you are enough!"
"Okay..." I said not being convinced about that statement
When I entered my room I knew exactly what was I gonna do. Sing
I thought my situation could be happening to other people, so before I started to sing I decided to set up my phone and record myself. I quickly cleaned my tears, washed my face and took deep breaths.
I pressed the record buttton:
"Hey everyone, it's Ath here, today wasn't a good day for me and my insecurities, so I decided to do a little reminder for all of you. You are all so beautiful, inside and out. You deserve to be loved and you deserve to be happy. Thank you for living, thank you for existing, im so proud of you, even if the only thing you did all day was wake up, im proud that you did. This is Perfect Now by our dear Louis Tomlinson"
I grabbed my guitar and started playing a very familiar tune of one of my favorite songs that was perfect for this moment
[You say to me your jeans don't fit
You don't feel pretty and it's hard to miss
I wish that you could see my point of view...]
I finished singing and grabbed my phone to check the way the video has turned out, and i decided to post it, even if that little voice in my head was telling me not to, I did it anyways.
@Athena.Rivers: "I guess some queens don't need a crown <3"
*video*
I hit the post button and left my guitar back in it's place
'Hi, we are One Direction! Someone's calling you, answer your phone! Unless you don't like them, then you can just pretend that you didn't hear me. Which I would never do to anyone cause it would be mean. Unless they smell...
Wow! You are popular! Someone's calling you pick up your pho-'
"This damn ringtone" I muttered to myself
"Hey Ath!" Niall's face popped in my screen
Fuck, I forgot about Niall
"Niall! Oh my god I totally forgot about everything, im so sorry it's been a tough day I'm-"
"Hey hey Ath it's fine don't apologize" He reassured
"Im sorry"
"I just told you, don't apologize"
"Right, sorry" i slapped my forehead "I did it again, sorry. Oh my god sorry! I hate myself"
Niall was laughing out loud with the most beautiful smile in his face, while I was blushing like crazy
"So, how are you?"
I put my best fake smile on my face
"Im great, how about you"
"Are you sure you are alright?"
"Yeah why wouldn't I be?" I asked a bit confused
"I dont know"
"It's fine Niall, im alright I promise"
"You keep saying that you're alright but I can see through the fake smile, you know?"
How the fuck-
But I couldn't tell him what happened, because if I told him what happened I would have to tell him that Sophie told me not to get my hopes up about being with -him-, and I couldn't do that
Oh dear God eat me up and spit me out in Japan please
"I just had some trouble with my bestfriend that's all" I managed to say
"Do you want to tell me about it? Im a great listener"
"Um, so she didn't think I was enough for a guy" I tried not to get nervous, but it was impossible
"What the fuck? Why would she say that?"
"I wish I knew Niall, I wish I knew" That familiar lump in my throat was forming again
"Ath don't cry, you don't deserve to cry because of her. We've known eachother for a short period of time but I assure you that you are an amazing girl, and any boy would be lucky to have you"
"You really think so?"
"I do not think so, I know so"
"Thank you"
"Now, let's cheer you up a bit, do you want to show me some of your songs?"
"What?"
"Yeah I never heard one of your songs, show me" He said excited like a little kid
"Um sure" I headed over my piano and started playing one of my tunes
A/N: Song: Naked by James Arthur
Hey, you there
Can we take it to the next level?
Baby, do you dare?
Don't be scared
'Cause if you can say the words
I don't know why I should care
'Cause here I am
I'm giving all I can
But all you ever do is mess it up
Yeah, I'm right here
I'm trying to make it clear
That getting half of you just ain't enough
I'm not gonna wait until you're done
Pretending you don't need anyone
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm not gonna try 'til you decide
You're ready to swallow all your pride
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
Hey, get out
I've got nothing left to give
And you give me nothing now
Read my mouth
If you ever want me back
Then your walls need breaking down
'Cause here I am
I'm giving all I can
But all you ever do is mess it up
Yeah, I'm right here
I'm trying to make it clear
Getting half of you just ain't enough
I'm not gonna wait until you're done
Pretending you don't need anyone
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm not gonna try 'til you decide
You're ready to swallow all your pride
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I wanna give you everything
I wanna give you everything
I wanna give you everything
I wanna give you everything
I'm not gonna wait until you're done
'Cause you pretended you don't need anyone
Can't you see that I'm naked? (naked, naked)
Oh, you see that I'm naked (naked, naked)
I'm not gonna try 'til you decide
You're ready to swallow all your pride
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm standing here naked (naked, naked)
I'm standing
I'm standing here
"Oh wow" Was the only thing he managed to say
"It's not my best work but I'm proud of it" I smiled and looked down
"No, that's actually really good" he softly spoke
"What?" I said a bit too surprised
"Did I stutter? That song is amazing?"
"You mean it?" And instead of tears, there was now a smile on my face, and i loved it
"I do mean it! See, I wasn't wrong by trusting you"
"If you don't stop I'm gonna cry"
"No don't cry, sorry babe" His lips were now a pout, and it was so adorable
"I won't, you could never make me cry" I smiled
We continued talking for a while, a while a lot. It was now 2:00 AM, it amazing how our best conversations were always Made in the A:M.
I could see myself starting to like Niall, but just a bit. I hope I don't fall for him, because it's a Long Way Down
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A/N: GUESS WHAT
THIS IS EDITED AS WELL
Okay bye