- Draco -
I ignored the knocks on my door as sat relaxed in the arm chair that sat in the corner of my room. My eyes were heavy begging for sleep but I didn't even blink a single ounce of it. To many things ran through my head.
The thought of not spending the rest of my life without Astoria pained me but the choice wasn't mine to make, and I couldn't even blame Liv cause last night in the library showed that she didn't want this just as much as me.
What she told me the night of the party always looped through my head every time I looked into her eyes. Was it true? did she really fancy me and I was to blind to see it so I turned my back on her? or was it just all the alcohol she consumed that night?
Her words were right though there was no denying them, I wanted Astoria. It will be her when I wake up and when I lay down to sleep.
My eyes snapped to the door as I creaked open. My father stood tall with his hands in front of him, his expression was the same as it never seemed to change. It was stern and held power with no emotion, I don't know how he did it all the time it was exhausting holding up a front like that.
"Draco I hope you can fix whatever mess you have made to make Olivia resent this arrangement so much and we can all move along" he never cared about how I felt on things, nothing was ever my choice, never my opinion unless it was exactly like his.
I hated him so much but I thrived to prove myself to him, but why? Nothing would ever be good enough for him, so why bother trying.
"Father is there anyway we can break this arrangement, I will marry anyone else. Perhaps the Greengrasses Youngest, she is an extraordinary talented witch and fits all your standers" I pleaded standing up.
He shook his head with a look of disgust on his face "Why would we do such, the Windfront and Malfoy's are the most powerful families why would we not want to come together, this is final so I suggest you get over your little school crush and face that you shall marry Olivia and that is final." he sneered.
"Am I understood, I don't care if you guys have a dying hatred for each other you will go through with this no questions asked" he spat storming out without another word. My blood began to boil as a loud grunt left from the back on my throat.
My hand found the vase that sat on top of my dresser and it slammed against my wall shattering.
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I didn't see Liv much today, mainly at meals and nothing more.
We crossed paths in the hallway but nothing was said, mainly cause neither of new what to say. Even though I knew her my whole life it was like we were two strangers who's lives just got signed to each other.
Her eyes were puffy and red at breakfast, the urge to hold her in my arms last night when she ran out of the library consumed me knowing that if it was anyone else she was in this situation in she wouldn't be this hurt.
She has this power over me, in a way I want to be there for her and comfort her. Heal her wounds and care for her back to health, but what I once really felt for her was gone. It didn't transfer to Astoria, no what I feel for her is more.
Astoria... fuck Astoria what am I going to tell her, she wanted a break and I go get technically engaged to the one girl that caused her to doubt our relationship. I was screwed.
I didn't know if I should owl her or wait till school, the more I thought I remember we had our ball after Christmas. She would there and my parents would most likely announce it then.
"Draco, darling" my eyes snapped up from the book resting on my lap over to my mother who was standing in the door way of my room. Her eyes softened as she looked at me.
"Yes mother"
"Would you like to join me in the garden so a stroll, the snow has stopped and it is very lovely at the moment" I could never say no to my mother but not for the same reason as my father, my mother has been the only person to truly love me and we have always been close.
I've only felt like this with one other person which was Astoria. The more I think about how our future was crushed the more I just want to crawl under my covers and never come out .
"Of course" I closed my book tossing it on my bed and grabbing my coat.
The wind out side was light and made my cheeks turn pink. My mother held great pride in her garden, she cared for it almost as much as she cared for me.
"How is quidditch going?"
"Good, we won our first match and our next one will be when we return to school" Potter never stood a chance getting the snitch. I was always a better seeker then him everyone knew it.
"I would love to attend that game-"
we both gave each other a smile implying that I would love nothing more.
"Do you know that me and your father were Arranged" she started.
"No, I did not" she always told me that they went to Hogwarts together and fell in love, is the sweet and short version. I never understood how she loved him but love came in strange ways I hear so makes sense.
"You're old enough for me to talk to you about this but I don't love your father" I stopped in my tracks turning to look at her, she didn't stop though. Her face held the same peaceful smile that you could always find.
I caught up with her shoving my hands deeper into my coat pocket. " I do love him but not in the way you want to spend the rest of your life love, Me and him were friends at Hogwarts but I never liked his ways-."
"Over time after the weeding I found little things that I love about him, like how he gave me you, how he would do anything for us, and other little things. But all the little things add up enough-" she stopped in front of her rose bush picking one out.
"I know right now things feel odd and that your life might be over but I assure you, over time things will get better, become more natural" she handed me the rose, I looked down at it twirling it in my fingers.
"I don't know mom, things are different with me and Liv. She hates me and I-"
"I don't know about me" I huffed dropping my hand to my side and looking over at her.
"I don't think that's true but if it is, i'm not telling you to fall madly in love with her but show her that you care and everything will be okay. I know both of you need that reassurance but you can only get it from each other, this isn't about anyone else but you two"
She was right, but this was so much more than just us two.
"I'll try"
I felt guilty, so guilty that the thought of marrying Liv didn't make me cringe. This wasn't the worst thing in my eyes but it's not what I want. I want Astoria but everything good comes to an end.
But what if I don't want it to come to an end?
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The next day was quite.
Liv wasn't at lunch or dinner, her mother said she was out shopping for gifts. Another day past where I just thought.
Thought about everything and anything.
It was almost midnight now and I decided to finally talk to Liv, but this time neither of us were walking away until I was done. She needed to hear me out.
My door creaked open as I walked into the cold corridor, her room was just down the hall so I didn't walk far.
My heart felt like it was in my throat oddly enough. I raised my hand and hesitated before I planted a soft but firm knock. But nothing.
Not a sound from the other side, a call back. Nothing.
I knocked once more but same thing. She should most definitely be home by now, the library crossed my mind since I knew she loved it there.
If she was in there I would want to talk with her, that was her favorite place and she already had a fight - kind of - with her mom in there. I don't know how this is going to go but I didn't want to ruin yet another thing for her.
My hand moved down to the nob, the cold metal was stinging my hand. I slowly opened the door peaking my head in.
"Liv-"
A/N- Cissy bringing them together, hm maybe.
Might post another chapter today, should I?