- Olivia -
My fathers expression was stern, my eyes moved from him to my mother then to Narcissa to see if any of there faces held an expression of this being a joke.
"We have arranged you and Draco to be married" this time the words made it into my brain clearly. I gave a humorous chuckle still thinking this is some type of sick joke but their faces didn't change.
"Wait you're serious about this" my face drops.
"Yes why would we not be the papers are signed and everything" Lucius placed a few papers on the table, without thinking I stood up rushing over to them. I held them up scanning over the words briefly.
The signatures of our parents were printed nice and large at the bottom consoling the marriage. Everyone watched me in silence as my breathing got heavier the more I read the more it became real.
Malfoy hasn't said one thing it was like he knew about it, but he couldn't have. All my effort to stay away from him, even if it wasn't much effort I just set it clear and it worked this time. Just for this to happen.
I should be beaming with joy as I get to spend the rest of my like with him but I was feeling anything but that. It wouldn't be real, and it would never be real. Yes the thought of being with him brought a flutter to my stomach but not like this, this made me feel sick.
I dropped the papers back on the table backing away, of all the fucked up things my parents did this was hands down the worst. They basically just signed my life away.
The rims of my eyes started to fill with water, I wasn't going to cry over this in front of them. I turned on my heels heading straight to the door. The sound of a chair scraping on the wooden floor echoed in the dinning hall.
"Olivia Windfront this is no way to act" my mother called out, I ignored it and bursted through through the door.
"Just let her be, this is big news and she just needs to process it" I heard Narcissa's voice boom just before the door closed behind me.
I didn't go to my room though, I headed straight to the library going deep into the many rows of books.
The tiny cove that had a single couch and side table with a night lamp resting on it was just calling my name. I knew no one was coming in here and definitely not this deep in so I felt safe to let my tears run.
A sob escaped my lips as my head rested in my hands. I felt like I was melting into the old couch, the worst part is that I know he doesn't want this just like me. But not cause it's forced, cause it's not with her. I know Malfoy so I know he won't fight it just to make his father happy.
My face felt dry and wet at the same time, i'm not sure how long I had been sitting here in tears but I was pulled out of my bubble as a voice chimed over me making me jump.
"Pull yourself together I raised you better then to act like this"
I looked at her wiping off the wet line drying on my cheek standing up to face her.
"What do you mean you raised me? the last time I recalled the house elf's took more care of me then you ever did and will in my entire life-" I spat my fist clenched at my sides.
"You think cause you gave me a few tips on how to look better and stand up straighter that you raised me, you had better things to do like get drunk and argue with dad then you would leave for work without a second thought about your daughter who would sit on the steps listening to you guys scream till on of you were to high off of whiskey to stand-" I swallowed thickly taking a slow step around the couch.
"Olivia you don't-"
"Don't what? mean it ? Understand? I do, you haven't even been in my life long enough to decide who I will and won't marry let alone not even ask me about it since it's my life not yours or dads, mine." I saw a flicker of hurt in her eyes but it didn't faze me, if she would even spare me a glance at times she would see the same thing.
"You're right and i'm sorry but-" she kept her voice stern and powerful, I let out a chuckle of disbelief.
"It's already done you and me both know that contract can't be un done, sorry isn't going to cut it not this time and not ever again. Do you know how hard and frustrating it is to be your daughter at times, fuck I think of Narcissa as a mother more then you" I felt a few tears escape as my voice got raspy.
"That's not fair, you know that me and you father aren't the best and are trying to work on it" she weakly defended not even on topic that much.
"And i'm so glad that you are but that doesn't involve me anymore, if you think it did you are about two years late for that. After last year I stop caring weather you and dad were fighting or not cause at the end of each day I didn't even want to be around anymore to hear it or hear what anyone else had to say about me, the way you treated me showed me that you could careless if I was around or not and I chose not to be around anymore but I even failed at that-" I sniffled thickly swallowing again to push down the huge lump in my throat.
Her eyes widened at my words understanding what I was saying. "Olivia you could have talked to us" her voice was now soft, she reached out for me but I threw my hands up taking a step back.
"No I couldn't have, dad was off with the slut he found merlin knows where and you couldn't even form an audible sentence let alone sit up straight, you guys didn't think about me, no one ever thinks about me." I cried out, my hand clutched my stomach.
"I don't want this marriage cause I know I will end up just like you and dad, because even when me and Malfoy wed he will chose her. He will think of her at night as he lies next to me, go sneaking off with her just like dad does, I don't want it, none of it" I stormed past her, and of course she couldn't even mutter up a single word.
Nothing to even stop me from walking away, she just let me go like always just letting me walk away. I was screaming inside, I just wanted my mother was that so much to ask. To feel her hugs and hear her voice sooth me just like when I was a child.
I needed it more now then I did then, but I wasn't going to get what I needed. I never got what I wanted even if I fought for it, nothing was ever in my favor and it was tiring always getting the shit end of the stick.
As I walked quickly out of the library I saw a figure standing in front of the large window looking back at me. His eyes were soft and a look of pity was planted across his face. He heard everything, it wasn't hard to listen from the mix of my screaming and the hallow room.
His blue and grey eyes poured into mine I didn't feel the flutter or the urge to be held in his arms. I only felt a stab in the heart knowing our future, it wasn't going to be what every little girl dreamed of. Nothing was in my case.
It would be filled of resentment, towards me and us, I took his future away that he could have had with her. The one he truly wanted to spend the rest of his life with as he so kindly told me a while ago.
My feet took my to the door in a fast pace, I saw from the corner of my eye his hand reach out for me taking a single step forward but no words left his mouth. My feet didn't stop as I made it all the way to my room.
I didn't even bother changing as I kicked my shoes off and climbed on top of the bed curling up into a ball. My finger traced circled on my calf trying to clam my breathing down.
A soft knock was on my door, I hurried to my feet thinking it was my father. A head with white streaks of hair popped in her small smile making my shoulder drop in relaxation. She walked over to me and held her arms out as they fell on my shoulders.
I couldn't even look her in the eyes, she was probably upset with the way I have reacted since it was her son. She was probably offended. "I'm sorry for the way I have acted" I mumbled, she scoffed and pulled me into a tight hug.
"No need to be sorry dear, I understand how you feel. Overwhelmed, like you just lost your freedom, scared, hurt?" she whispered in my ear, my grip around her torso got tighter as I nuzzled into her neck letting out a sob.
"I don't want this, not that Malfoy isn't a great guy but there is nothing there for us. To much history to push aside for this" I felt her head tilt slightly in confusion with the surname but she let it go.
"I know, but you two are the strongest people I know and will come out of this okay" she tried to assure me, we would come out of this anything but.
I felt my breathing calm down and the tears come to a stop as her motherly hug made the pain and guilt wash away.
A/N- we love Cissy <3