"Get up, it's time to go" Jackson said tugging my arms to get up. I got up and put on my shoes and a black hoodie. We make our way down the common room, Blaise and Pansy are sleeping on the couch.
We quietly open the door and head out to towards the cold halls. We made a couple stops because Snape was roaming around.
Jackson and I decided to make a quick stop at the library until Snape stopped roaming around this section of the castle. We went inside and hid between the book shelves.
"So who's side are you really on Jackson?" I finally looked up at him.
"I- did it for you, I just wanted... to do the right thing... they-" I cut him off before he continued.
"The right thing! What... are you even listening to yourself, people think we are bad. That's all we will ever be just bad people and there's no changing that". He looked hurt as if every word I just said stabbed him.
I sighed trying to keep my cool, " Jackson if you didn't want to be part of this you could've just said something, but it's fine go ahead try to prove people they are wrong about you". Why couldn't he see that people were never going to accept us no matter what. All they did was pity us and made us think that being weak was okay, when simply we are nothing close to that.
" I don't...want you to do this...we can be so much better than this. Your really going to risk everything for father after he killed Eden? He's going after all of them". I knew I couldn't trust Jackson with the task anymore, the mention of Eden hurts me but if I was going through with the task I couldn't let any of this get to me.
"Yes even after all of this I'm still willing to help father and I won't let you or anyone else get in the way of it. If you say anything to anyone you know that you'll be next". I hurt me to threaten him but I really couldn't risk any of this anymore.
I got up and left him in the library, I made my way to the gryffindor tower and there was Harry.
"Where's Jackson?". Looking past me to see if he was coming.
"He should be here soon snap was roaming around so we made a quick stop". He nodded and pulled down to the room of requirements. This is were they've been all along.
We walked inside and everyone was already there, practicing spells and others were dueling. Harry have his little motivational speech and everyone went back to what they were doing before.
Harry and I paired up for a duel, I went easy on him and so far he was doing great. I decided to go a little harder on him.
"Everte Statun", Harry was thrown backwards
He got up and without any further hesitation, "Carpe Retractum". I saw a rope of light reach me and pulling me towards Harry.
Before I could let Harry react I decided to finish this off now. Yes Harry was good but he needed to react faster.
"Expillelliramus" and his wand flew out of his hands.
"Bombarda" this made Harry run making the spell to miss him. Now he was running around the room at every spell I threw. But I couldn't stop, people's fear is what kept me going.
"Avis!", a flock of birds flew towards Harry and were now poking him. His hands were in the air trying to shoo away.
"Incarcerous!" Harry falls to the grown now tied up. He rolled on the floor and squirmed around trying to release himself.
"Alarte Ascendare!". This sent Harry up in the air, everything seemed to slow down in that moment. I see Ron, Ethan and Dean run to catch a falling potter . The impact of Harry's fall made them all fall to the ground.
"You could've killed him!" Ethan said in an angry tone. He got up and stormed towards me, now he was towering over me.
"What the hell is wrong with you!" He spat back making me flinch. Ethan and I have never really argued, if we were made we would just ignore each other.
"There's nothing wrong with me!, I was just trying to get Harry to defend himself and have a quicker reaction to things". Ethan pushed me back trying to make me fall but it never worked. Instead he only created distance between us.
I scoffed at what he had just done, "Why do you do that all the time". He didn't say anything at first he just looked away and turned around walking up to Harry and the boys.
I was already frustrated with him always ignoring me and I wasn't going to let him go without a fight. I ran up to him and pulled his shoulder so now he was facing me. "I asked you a question!, why do you!", Ethan still said nothing he just stood quite.
I hated this silence, I hated him for all those years he pushed me away. I hated him more than anything but his world. I hit his chest multiple times, "Why!". I kept hit harder and pushing him back and he did absolutely nothing which angered me even more.
"SAY SOMETHING!". I felt someone's arms wrap around my waist, stopping me from hitting Ethan.
"Let me go!", I kept squirming trying to get out of this persons grip.
"Can you just calm down", I recognized the voice. It was Jackson, and so I did what I was told. There was no use in fighting Jackson when I knew he was going to let go.
"Fine you want to know! Because I'm SCARED. OF. YOU!. This person you've became isn't the same girl I meet long ago". His words hurt me, but my ego was so much I didn't allow anyone to see it. I'm thankful that my father made me like this. I hated feeling this or showing weakness.
"THAT GIRL WAS SO STUPID! I'm glad she's gone because now I've learned, never to depend on idiots like YOU!". I ripped myself off from Jackson and stormed out of the room.
I went into the library instead, I wanted to get this over with. I just wanted to finish the task and go home and get the hell out of here. I don't care what my father has done, I will go through this.
I decided to try to use this time and practice the geminio spell. I took a deep breath and just tried to relax I didn't want go around and making a million copies of this thing.
I raised my wand over the book, "Geminio". To my surprise the book made a copy of itself. I was hesitant to touch it, in fear it would multiply. To my luck it didn't.
I did the Geminio spell on a couple other books I would need. After I finished I made my way inside the common room. Jackson stood up from the couch and made his way over me he put a hand on my shoulder, "So Christmas is in a couple of weeks, what do you have in mind?". I smiled I knew I couldn't stay mad at him for ever. I tried so much too but it wouldn't work.
He knew it was my favorite time of the year, also because it was Ethans birthday that same day. But after tonight I think this year would be different.
"I don't know..I just want to go to sleep". I made my way to the stairs, I turned around to see Jackson walking towards the boys room.
"Jackson...I love you okay, don't ever think I will hate you for anything you do. Promise me you won't push me away". My eyes were tearing up but I trying hard to hold them back. It's not the first time Jackson has seen me vulnerable, but it was still embarrassing to break down in front of him.
He stopped walking up and looked over at me, " I love you too, and I promise I won't ever leave you". I nodded and I headed towards my room.
I hopped into the shower taking in all the warmth, once I was done I changed into my pjs. I opened the door to let all the steam out. I went over to the counter and grabbed the brush.
I walked out of the bathroom and I saw a figure coming in the corner of my eye, I didn't have my wand so I smacked this person with my brush.
I heard a thud and a person groan. I look down to see Draco, I ran over him and kneeled to the side to help him up. "I'm so sorry I didn't mea-, actually no I did mean to because lately you've been acting like an asshole".
This made him laugh I was surprised he wasn't mad or at the edge of killing me. "It's fine I deserve that for invading your room and acting like an "asshole". He said putting his fingers up quoting asshole.
I helped him up and walked him over to the chair. I felt bad but I couldn't help but laugh at what just happened.
"So why are you here", I couldn't help it but laugh still, a bruise was staring to show up on his upper left eyebrow.
"Well I wanted to talk to you, about...the whole Ryker thing". I sat down on my bed and started brushing my hair, I wasn't even sure were this was going to go.
"I don't know what happened between you two but I'm pretty sure I remind you of him in many ways, but you can trust me and tell me what is bothering". I don't think he was actually prepared for anyone of this, he wasn't good with talking about his feelings and neither was I.
"Look don't take this the wrong way but I really don't want to talk about that, it's in the past and I've learned to deal with it. What happened it was just...well I just...". My frustration started to build up, I didn't want to have another argument.
I got up and opened the door, " I think it's time for you to leave, I don't want to have another argument. I don't want you to get the idea that I like you because I can't bring myself to do that. Your a great guy and all but I have problems of my own and I don't want you to be dealing with it". He was hurt by my words but he understood.
Draco walked towards me slowly, never taking his eyes off me. It bugged me to look how sad he was but I couldn't bring myself to love him, I was just going to hurt him.
He reached for my hand and squeezed it softly and closed the door behind me. I took a couple steps back until my back reached the door. He was walking closer to me until there was no space between us. "Muffliato" , he muttered.
I tried to control my breathing but just having him this close made me feel helpless. He cupped my face and made me look up to him, "I don't care if you hurt me, if you can't bring yourself to love me fully. I won't hurt you, I just want you to be happy with me. So please just let me in". It broke my heart to break his but what if I couldn't be the one to return the love back.
He rested his forehead on mine and whispered, "please just let me show you how love isn't always bad". Seeing him beg was strange but what is he was right.
I sighed and just tried to breath, " fine but this doesn't mean we are official, we will take things slowly". Draco smiled
"Thank you", he pull me closer to him. One of his hands fell to my waist and the other on my neck. I stared into his eyes, I always found his eye color really beautiful.
"Can I kiss you?" I nodded and I felt his soft lips on mine. His hand that was on my waist was pressing me back to the door. I put my hand behind his head and started playing with his hair. The kissing were slow and passionate.
He picked me up and placed me on my bed, he turned off the lamp and quickly hovered over me. I looked up to him and see how the moonlight made his face look softer, not the mean look he always had. He lowered himself slowly and his lips found mine. This time the kisses were slower than before, he bit my bottom. He muttered something while kissing me.
"What" I muttered back but when I said that he slipped his tongue. I broke the kiss and I couldn't help but laugh at what he had done.
"I bit your lip hoping you would give entrance and you didn't so I had to go with my other option". He said chuckling.
"Well I gotta give it to your very clever". I put my hand on the back of his head and brought him back down for another kiss. After awhile he's kisses went down to my neck.
He stopped and grabbed the sheets to get in bed with me. We cuddled and talked for a little longer until he fell asleep, leaving me with my own thoughts.
I just wanted to get out of here soon. I wanted it more than anything.