chap 52: touch you
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"spin."
mattia squatted down before swiftly spinning the bottle with the flick of his wrist, the circled crowd watching as the fragile object spun so fast it blurred into a brown blob for a second.
and it seemed to spin on forever, a couple of people from the group looking up at mattia with an unimpressed expression when the bottle showed no signs of slowing to a stop after twenty long seconds.
"did you have to spin it that hard?" ale commented after a moment.
"my bad." mattia muttered, debating on just stopping it himself before deciding against it.
kairi watched the spinning object as well, the fast pace making his eyes unfocus along with his brain as he stared.
so much so that he didn't seem to notice that it stopped, not until the gaze that fell upon him became too heavy to not notice.
shit please don't tell me it's me.
kairi's now focused eyes made direct eye contact with the bottle top.
it's me.
he inwardly groaned before making sharp eye contact with ale.
"i never said i was going to play."
immediate complaints were shot towards him to "not be such a fucking party pooper" and to "just do it." kairi rolled his eyes at all of them.
"i didn't realize you guys wanted two guys to kiss so bad." he commented, hoping that would make them shut up,
and it did—for the most part.
"cmon kai you guys don't actually have to kiss, just go in the shack and chill for seven minutes." abby said softly.
"doesn't that defeat the purpose of the game?" he shot back, which was only met with several eye rolls and unamused stares.
inwardly admitting defeat to a battle that he knew he was probably gonna lose anyways, he looked towards mattia who was acting as if he could care less about whether kairi played or not.
"fine. whatever....weird motherfuckers." he muttered under his breath as he got up from the chair, swiftly passing by mattia without so much of a second glance as he made his way to the shack.
but it was more like a shed.
if there was that much of a difference.
he quickly pulled on the cold metal handle, sighing in disapproval when he felt how cold it was—and unnecessarily dark.
nonetheless, he stepped in, not really caring if mattia was behind him or not as he closed the door.
"thanks asshole." was the first thing the taller grumbled when he opened the door just a spilt second after it was closed and kairi tried not to smirk, despite the darkness.
"i didn't realize you were behind me."
mattia scoffed. "whatever."
and then the door was shut closed.
they stood in silence for a couple of seconds before an undeniable click was heard, making them both whips their heads towards the entrance.
"did someone just lock the door?"
they both reached out to check and then simultaneously pulled back when there fingers touched.
"you can check." kairi mumbled before crossing his arms around his chest.
and in an attempt to make things less awkward mattia wordlessly complied, reaching out again to jiggle the knob and sighing under his breath when their suspicions were confirmed.
"the doors locked."
the brunette rested his head against the wall behind him. "i bet it was ale's bitchass—this is why i didn't want to come."
"are you just going to complain the whole time?" mattia suddenly questioned, his tone seemingly annoyed.
kairi scoffed.
"you say that as if you've been with me the whole time." he replied sassily.
"might as well have been for the amount of times you were staring at me."
kairi scrunched his face up at that but for some reason couldn't find anything to comeback with.
mattia was always better at that.
"i wasn't staring—can you fucking back up?" the boy snapped, annoyed that he had been caught staring even though he knew it was obvious, and even more annoyed that the close space was starting to affect him.
"can you stop fucking shouting?" mattia snapped back, his friends'—well maybe who knows at this point— sour attitude starting to seep into his own. "and no, it's fucking dark in here. i'm not gonna risk hurting myself just so you can have two more inches of space."
"i'm not gonna risk hurting myself just so you can have two more inches of space." kairi mocked before grumbling under his breath. "bullshit."
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on the outside of the shack:
"they're....talking really loudly."
"yeah...."
"i didn't realize kai and mattia had beef."
"do you not follow their spams?"
"i do but i don't keep up."
"me either apparently i had no idea they were arguing."
"they're always arguing." ale and robert said at the same time, briefly making eye contact before shaking their heads and looking away.
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"gosh you give me a fucking headache." mattia groaned, whipping out the vape that he had stuffed in his pocket before he spun the bottle.
kairi rolled his eyes at the small object in the younger's hand. "well now you know how everybody else feels."
"the fuck is that supposed to mean?"
"what i just said."
mattia narrowed his eyes at that, and just to unintentionally prove what kairi said, he blew the smoke that had temporarily been held in his mouth right onto the kairi's face, making the boy scrunch his face up.
coughing at the sudden infiltration of smoke into his lungs, the brunette coughed and blindly shoved mattia away from him.
which sent the teen toppling down to the floor.
"fuck."
it was silent for a couple of seconds as kairi looked down into the darkness—waiting for some kind of movement from the other.
"motherfucker get off the ground."
"i cut my self you dumbass." mattia shot back.
"oh shit....maybe you should be more careful next time." kairi replied back while blindly skimming the walls for some kind of light switch and vaguely wondering why he didn't think to do that earlier.
"maybe you should shut the fuck up cum guzzler." mattia retorted right as kairi found the light switch, the light momentarily blinding them and making
them both squint.
⚠️: depiction of blood.
the younger didn't bother getting up from the floor, instead sitting up and scooting back so that his back was rested against the wall, taking this time to exam the deep gnash across his palm.
he bit his lip as he watched the crimson dyed liquid flow down his palm in a steady stream before dropping onto the asphalt ground.
"oh shit...." kairi whispered under his breath once he bent down, finally taking in mattia's cut and a overwhelming whiff of copper. "fuck." he cringed.
"yeah you did this."
kai's mouth dropped open in offense. "not on purpose!"
"whatever ass fuck." mattia grumbled, his eyes never straying from the blood that seemed to constantly drip from his palm to the ground.
and kairi watched as well, slight guilt washing over him every time mattia's eyebrows crumpled in pain.
"what did you even cut yourself on?"
"who fucking knows—there's so much shit in here."
the brunette hummed in agreement, a slight pout coming to his lips once the weird silence settled over them once again. he felt a lot worse then he would like to about this accident, that was just purely that,
an accident.
kairi suddenly hopped up from his spot in front of mattia, his gaze jumping from random spots inside the shack. "i wonder if there's a first aid kit in here." he wondered aloud.
the latter shrugged before suddenly realizing that something hard was under him.
"oh wait i'm sitting on it." he announced.
kairi turned around with an incredulous look on his face. "and you just now noticed that?" he questioned.
mattia shrugged again. "it's not my fault my ass is fat."
kai let out a sharp laugh before catching himself and clearing his throat, rolling his eyes for extra emphasis.
"right." he muttered before squatting down again and holding his hand out.
mattia arched an eyebrow. "what?"
kairi arched an eyebrow as well. "the first aid kit."
they stared each other for a couple of moments, both of the teens being unnecessarily difficult with each other.
"i can do it."
"dude-" kai let out a deep breath. "tia just let me do it, i'm the one who pushed you." he said quietly but still with a harsh tone, being annoyed that he was even feeling this way when he was supposed to be mad.
and mattia had been caught off guard with the use of the nickname, giving kairi the chance to snatch the kit away from him.
i fucked up with him for the nth time and he's still willing—wanting to help me?
the boy didn't understand.
he didn't understand how kairi always came back. even if he hadn't forgave him yet....he was still here, helping him with a cut that was honestly his fault, not kairi's.
"can you stop fucking staring." the brunette snapped sharply, making mattia quickly look away, not even realizing he had been doing so.
"sorry." mattia apologized softly.
kai said nothing in reply, instead focused on gathering the stuff he needed to clean the other's cut.
he pulled out the rubbing alcohol and bandages, already starting to cringe in his head with how bad the wound was probably going to sting.
they still had a good five minutes left in the shabby shed, shack, whatever and the smell of blood was really starting to get to the shorter male.
kairi bit his bottom lip before looking up at mattia. "hand please." he requested as he held out his own, watching as the younger glanced down at it for a second before hesitantly laying his hand upon kairi's.
kairi gazed down at the cut again, that same wash of guilt going through him as he grabbed one of the cotton balls from the first aid kit before dousing it in rubbing alcohol.
"i'm sorry." he said in advance before gently pressing the cotton onto the blood and cringing when mattia hissed sharply.
"fuck, kairi be careful."
"the fuck do you think i'm doing?" the boy replied defensively.
mattia only let out a huff, his hand flinching just the slightest when kairi started to clean it again. his eyes suddenly flickered up to the boy's face again and immediately noticed the concentration plastered on it.
mattia let his lips quirk up into a small grin.
and of course the other noticed because the raven's gaze was always heavy and intimidating on his skin, but he decided not to say anything since the teen wasn't flinching as much anymore.
plus, truth be told, he didn't want mattia to see the cut he had caused. it was deep and something that would make your stomach queasy. kairi knew it hurt an ass load so if his face made the cleaning more bearable then he didn't mind being slightly uncomfortable.
"almost done." he mumbled after a couple of moments of silence, pressing his fourth cotton ball on the ninety percent cleaned wound, since the other three were drenched in red.
"ok." mattia mumbled back, his eyes still heavily trained on the smaller's features.
his hand suddenly jutted out of know where, reaching out to kairi's face before flinching back at the same time the other boy did. kairi's eyes sharply went over to mattia and the male gulped.
"s-sorry you had-" he pointed to kai's head as his eyes stuttered between the brunette's eyes and his hair. "your hair—um-your, sorry." he finally shut up once he realized he was rambling before letting his arm flop back to his side.
"my hair is in my eyes?" kairi questioned with an arched eyebrow making mattia awkwardly nod.
mf what is wrong with you?
"yeah..." he confirmed softly.
kairi hummed before looking towards mattia's hand again. "you can move it out of the way, i don't care." he replied nonchalantly, even though he was feeling anything but.
the younger gazed at him with uncertainty for a second, hesitantly reaching out his hand out before a sudden intruding thought of—he's not gonna bite dumbass—infiltrated his thoughts and made him boldly just go for it.
he swiftly pulled kairi's hair away from his eyes, tucking the strands behind the boy's ear before softly flicking away a few more stray hairs.
his fingers ended up softly tracing down from kai's ears to his jaw, and the brunette felt his heart beat pick up speed when mattia fondly rubbed his cheek with his thumb.
kairi quickly threw the cotton ball to the floor before grabbing the bandages, making haste to wrap his wound with it so that he could pull away. the gesture was too intimate and yet he didn't have the will to verbally say something about it to the other.
"done." kairi announced before snapping his gaze up to mattia's, the eye contact they both immediately shared making something weird stir inside the both of them.
mattia's hand was still in kairi's two smaller ones and he was starting to form a certain look on his face, a look that the asian boy was way too familiar with.
shit, not again. i cant let this happen again. he's not going to kiss me is he? but he's giving me that stupid fucking look again....that motherfucker wouldn't.
he wouldn't.
i wouldn't.
so then why was his head moving forward this time too? and why was mattia's hand pulling his closer to him?
and his eyes were going down to his lips-
"i shouldn't have kissed you."
oh.
kairi almost scoffed at his own idiocy.
"what do you want kairi?" bounced around in his brain.
"can you look at me please?"
the older wordlessly raised his head up to look back at mattia after having unknowingly looked down at his lap.
"it was stupid of me and i knew that i shouldn't have done it and i did it anyways." mattia continued, regret heavy on his words. "i purposely hurt people that are the closest to me and i hate how you were no exception—if anything i hurt you the most."
a sigh left his lips after finally hearing those words come out of his mouth, after finally letting himself admit the truth.
"i had no right to kiss you after the shit i said and did to you just because i was—" mattia immediately shut his mouth at that, clearing his throat when he noticed kairi was looking at him expectantly.
he shrugged.
"because i was being stupid i guess....i wasn't thinking straight." he said, knowing that the last word had a double meaning in this case. he wondered if kairi thought the same.
it was quiet for a couple of moments before the younger spoke up again. "so....i've actually been thinking and....i think it'd be best if we took a break....from this friendship, ya know?" he said hesitantly.
kairi immediately scrunched his face up at the idea. "what?" he questioned, his hands starting to slip away from mattia's and the teen frantically reached out to grab them again.
"wait just hear me out kairi."
"i don't want to hear you out. that shits stupid." kai quickly cut him off with a shake of his head making mattia sigh.
"kai you can't deny we've both been acting toxic since my birthday-"
the brunette groaned.
"you know it's true!" mattia said harshly—he just wanted kairi to listen to him. he truly felt like this would be the best for both of them....just until he could figure out how to stop being a dick every time things got too confusing for him.
"i'm not saying i regret what happened but-"
"but it would've been better if it never happened." kairi finished off for him, not really enjoying the conversation they were having right now.
mattia didn't reply to that—instead hoping a simple shrug would communicate what he was trying to convey.
and it did.
maybe not in the best way though.
"but that's not what i want mattia. i want—" kairi paused and this time it was the other boy's turn to look at him expectantly. "i want—" he tried again as he gathered his thoughts.
"i want us to be....i don't know, how we always were? back when we didn't make a big deal out of stupid petty shit....just be bros again."
kairi's eyes scanned mattia's face as the teen wordlessly looked down at his lap.
why wasn't he saying anything?
"isn't that what you want too?" kairi added.
"i mean-" mattia shrugged. "you just wanna put everything behind us and forget about it?"
kai shrugged as well. "not forget about it but just—stop letting it affect our friendship. we're best friends. that's it."
"i know."
"okay." kairi finalized. "so then we're good?"
mattia nodded. "we're good."
a pause,
"actually no. what the fuck is up with you and ro-"
suddenly a click was heard and the shack door was flung open, revealing alejandro and robert at the entrance.
the pair looked at the duo in confusion just as a couple more people from the group came to see what the two best friends were doing.
i guess none of them were expecting to see kairi and mattia sitting in front of each other, holding hands and looking at each other like they just confessed their love for one another.
"are you guys having a fucking therapy session?"
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an:
jan 29:
that was way longer than necessary:/
❓- show ur currently watching? (whether it be anime/ kdrama/bl other.)
❗️- lols finally started on demon slayer