Bri
June 11
5:00 pm
"She's been here all week kay" I whispered into the phone, talking to karma about my momma. She laughed
"Doing what?"
"She literally deep cleansed this entire house. My house smells like pine sol, bleach and incense"
"She lit incense too?"
"Girl yes! And I can't take this nomore. She scaring jr and you know jr ain scared of shit.. and shy just comes straight home from work, takes a shower and goes to bed. Don't say shit to nobody"
"He hate your mom that bad?"
"That's how much they both hate each other kay"
"Damn"
"Brionna" I heard my name being called from the living room and I sighed
"Ima talk to you later"
"Alright, have fun" she laughed and I sucked my teeth before hanging up. I stood up off of the bed and left the bedroom going into the living room seeing jr on the couch while my momma lit sage and I looked at her crazy
"WHAT are you doing?"
"Finishing up the cleansing" she casually answered
"Cleansing of what?"
"The negativity and bad spirits in this house"
"Ma, whatchu talkin bout"
"You might be okay with living in this kind of negative environment but my innocent grandson is not about to be drained because of your choices"
"My choices? And if anything jr is far from innocent"
"If that's the case it's still not his fault. He couldn't choose his genetic makeup"
I rolled my eyes knowing she was throwing shade at me being with shy
"What do you have so bad against shy?"
"Where should I start? Other than the fact that he treats you like shit.. he's a lousy father, a sorry excuse for a man-"
I rose my eyebrow "ima go ahead and stop you right there. No shy is not the best, but I'm not about to let you do that to him"
"Do what? Point out the fact that he's almost never with his son? That boy ran the streets behind his sorry ass friends while you played housewife without a damn ring like a nut.. and let's not forget how he managed to get himself locked up practically your entire pregnancy. He just barely got out in time to see jr be born"
"And you remind him of that every single time you see him then wonders why he don't wanna be around you. He made mistakes... a lot of em but what human is perfect? And he is with his son, a lot but you don't know that because you don't live here. But he also has to work and pay bills and I let him go have fun with his friends because I know when he's gone I can let jr do him and I have my moment of peace. The moment I couldn't have all week because you popped up with all this cleansing shit"
"Well if you felt like that then why didn't you say something"
"I have been ALL week but you don't listen or care"
She just nonchalantly shrugged "if you want me to leave then just say that"
"I want you to leave"
"Fine then.. I'll leave... Sunday morning but in the mean time come help me in the kitchen with dinner"
My eyes followed her as she walked off to the kitchen and then I looked over at the chair seeing jr sitting there watching tv with a plate in his lap
"What are you eating?"
"Grandma made me some brownies. You want one"
I looked over at him for a second before going over to the chair, he held the plate up for me to get one and I grabbed a brownie before walking off going back to the room
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After shy came home he went straight to the shower just like I told kay then went to bed. I sat on the side of the bed watching him sleep for a while
"Shy" I eventually called out his name, tapping his face until she eventually got up and sat up with a mug on his face
"The fuck is you doing?"
"Get up"
"Really bri?"
I nodded "yes really. I miss you shy"
"And I miss coming home to MY house"
"I tried to get her to leave"
" I know" he replied while grabbing my arm and pulling me on the bed to lay with him. He laid his head on me and I sighed
"Do you love me?"
"You know I love you bri. Why?"
"It's just two more days. Please just deal with her these last two days"
"Ima think about it"
"Please shy"
He looked up at me before letting out a dramatic ass sigh
"You owe me"
"I got you. I promise" I smiled before leaning down and kissed him
"Ima need more than that" he told me as he sat all the way up and grabbed my legs, wrapping them around him making me laugh before I heard a knock on the room door
"Ma. I wanna sleep with y'all" jr said from the other side of the door and I groaned
"Come in jr" I yelled loud enough for him to hear me as shy got off of me and jr walked in the room with his Nintendo switch and got in the bed
"Why you can't sleep in yo bed?" Shy asked him
"Grandma put that stick thing in there and ion like how it smell" he answered before turning on his side and stared playing his game. Shy side eyed me
"Two days" I told him "just two days"
MJ
10:44 pm
"What the fuck bitch" I told Lani with a smile "you went and got married and ain told none of us"
"Because we wanted to enjoy the first couple of days with just us, you know"
"I understand. Well I'm so happy for you. How does it feel? Being married and shit"
"I'm still tryina get used to saying it, but it feels good. Especially since we did it with just the two of us. Everything seemed so genuine and intimate and that's all I wanted"
"Who all know so far?"
"Just you. I ain told nobody else yet. Ion know when ima tell Kay and them"
"Although I feel special, whenever you tell her.. don't tell her I already know cause kay will kill the both of us"
"For what? I wanted to tell you first, she can't get mad"
"Well alright then"
My phone vibrated on my lap and I saw it was Meechie texting me but I didn't bother to open it
"Why you gotta look like that? Who pissed you off that fast?" Lani asked with a laugh
"I just realized how much I hate my ex"
"Meechie? MJ what the hell happened with y'all?"
"It's not really about the fact that we broke up at this point.. This right here is the reason why I told him from the beginning I didn't wanna relationship because look at us now. We been fuckin around for the last month and I don't wanna fall back in love with him again but it's hard"
"Why not?"
"I just don't believe relationships are supposed to be my thing"
Lani sighed as I finished sweeping up the hair over the floor in the shop. The door opened and Meechie walked in but instead of completely acknowledging his presence I just continued to sweep
"Well I guess I can head out now" Lani said with a smile "ima call you tomorrow"
"Alright"
Lani grabbed her stuff and left leaving just me and Meechie. I continued to sweep until he grabbed the broom from me leaning it against the wall and sat down
"Why would you do that?"
"You sweeping that same pile of hair. Stop it mary"
"What do you want?"
"Ima keep it real witchu. We both grown as hell so we should at least know what we want and all I know is ima be 26 in December. I'm a grown ass man and ion wanna keep doing this childish ass shit we got going on. You know I love you and I always loved you but I can't keep waiting on you to decide whatchu wanna do. And I'm trying my hardest to keep holding on to see if you end up changing your mind and wanna get back together but now I realized I can't wait nomore so you gotta Lemme know right now whatchu wanna do. Either we gone work to get back together or we done for good"
I just stared at Meechie while he looked me right back in the face. I could tell he was hurt by the look in his eyes as he waited for my answer. I looked off to the left for a minute before looking down at little
"I'm done" I mumbled, not even making eye contact with him at all
Without saying another word Meechie just got up and walked out of the shop. Once he left I finally breathed while sitting down and but down hard on my bottom lip, trying so hard not to cry but a tear just fell
"Stupid, why am I crying" I said to myself as I wiped the tears away
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After I left the shop I didn't feel like going home so I just came to the club and I've been tending the bar the whole time, damn near fucked up
"Wassup stranger"
I looked to my right and saw Lucas approach me with a smile.
"Hey" I blandly spoke
"I'm surprised you ain tell me to get out yo face"
"I guess I'm changing.. plus I'm too drunk to argue right now" I laughed a little before finishing the drink in my hand
"Well wassup witchu. I heard you been single for a lil minute now"
"I'm sorry but I'm not interested in dating so please-"
"I ain say shit bout dating" Lucas chuckled and I looked at him. He was looking kinda fine right now, I mean he always been cute but right now I'm just a little emotional and drunk
"Well wassup then?"
He flashed a smiled before looking at the time on his phone "shit, it's only midnight, Whatchu tryina do?"
I sat the cup down and grabbed my phone while standing up "come on"
"Bet" he continued to smile while following me out of the club