Numbness fills my body. Or am I just cold? I can feel myself try to wake up. A pain tings through my head.
"AAHHH!" I scream out in pain and nurses come through the door. I look down and see my wrists and ankles strapped down. "Get me out!"
"Ma'am you need to calm down." 2 nurses try to calm me down but I cant stop. I cant even think straight.
"Where is he?" My breathing is heavy and ny eye sight blurs.
"Who?" One of the nurses cleans my arm so she can inject me with a needle.
"What are you putting in me? Stop!" I try to rip my hands away from the straps but I cant.
"This is just to calm you down. You need to calm down." One nurse holds my arm down while the other injects me with the needle. "Now who are you asking for?"
"No please stop it. I cant go threw this again!" The nurse takes the needle out of my arm and it goes numb.
"We will be back soon." I slam my head down on the pillow as the pain in my head grows. I scream for someone to help me then suddenly my breathing relaxes. I clench my eyes tightly then relax them when my head pain calms down.
"Please..." I let out one final word before falling back asleep.
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"What should we do with her?"
"She's not a criminal."
"Yet she did criminal acts."
"Only becuase Loki was in her head."
"What's done, is done. It's bad enough you let Loki get away with everything SHEILD has in its program."
"We have the Scepter. Does that not mean anything?"
"Not as much as I would like too. We are compromised if Loki gives that hard drive away."
"Can we just focus on Elissa?"
"The mission is not over yet. That's on you Stark."
This has been going on for what I can tell about 30 minutes. I heard them talking about putting me in a cell before. I think I really messed up this time.
I can hear someone moving and a door shuts. Then just silence except my breathing. A chair next to me gets moved and someone sits in it.
"Take my powers away." I mumble out. I hear him turn. I open my eyes to see Tony sitting there surprised. "Find a way to take my powers out of me."
He shakes his head slowly. "You heard eveyething?"
"Most of it." I turn my head to my body. I'm still strapped to the same bed. This is the same room I woke up in from my coma. "Either put me away somewhere. Or take them away"
Tony doesnt answer. He just sighs and looks down. Eventually he shakes his head no.
"I'm not gunna let that happen."
"You were all for it when it came to me being in a relationship." He bits his lip and clenches his jaw.
"I know what I said but it was your idea." He chuckles at himself. "Roger's was pissed when he found out about our deal."
I snap my head at him. "Oh no. You told him?" I try to lift my hands but they are still strapped to the bed.
"You didnt tell him?"
"I didnt tell anyone. How mad was he?"
"His face got a little red but I've seen him worse." As much as I hoped it would make me feel better, it didnt. "Wait I thought nothing was going ok between you two?" He sat up looking at me.
"There isnt. I mean there are obvious....feelings." I glance at him and he takes a big sigh. "But there isnt.... we arnt.... you know together."
He gives me an eye and I look away from him. In totally screwed arnt I?
"Wait?! What happened? Where am I?"
Tony laughed at me. "You've been awake for like 10 minutes and your just now asking what happened?"
"It didnt connect in my head." I force a smile.
"Do you remember Loki?" I snap my head at him.
"Thors brother?" Tony nods. "Yeah I remember him following me. He grabbed me and took me threw some door. We ended up someplace. I dont know how to describe it. Like, out of this world kinda."
"Do you remember anything else?"
I try to think. "I remember driving a jeep in the woods. I remember Loki and I..... being friendly." I nervously chuckle. Tony looks more surprised.
"Did you guys uh.." he makes a guester with his hands. "You know. Do it."
"No. God no. He just, I guess, fancied me. In a way." My mind flashbacks to the room we were in. I remember seeing him come close to me and feeling his hand on my throat.
"Oh God not another person." Tony leans back in his chair dramatically.
"Its not my fault. I didnt force any of them to do anything."
"Anyways... you, Clint and Loki attacked the hellicarier after stealing a jet from the compound. Turns out Loki had a hard drive with all of SHEILD's programs on it."
My eyes widen. "Uh yeah about that..." I glance at him and chuckle nervously. He borrows his eyebrow at him. "It was me Tony. I did it and gave it to him."
Tony stands up with his hands over his mouth and his eyes wide.
"They are already trying to imprison you for stealing a jet and working with a wanted man! You do not need this on you too." He started pacing back and forth.
"Tony please release me from these straps." I try to lift my arms again. He opens the door and calls for a nurse.
"I'm sorry we cant unhook you until we get a full evaluation." She seems nice but I roll my eyes. He frowns then leaves the room, shutting the door.
"Sorry kid." I sigh again placing my head on my pillow.
"How many people did I hurt?"
Tony stops pacing and looks at me.
"Tony?"
He sits on the bed next to me and places his hand on mine.
"2 agents are dead." I couldnt believe what he was saying. I frantically starting shaking my head no. Ny breathing became very heavy and I was having a panic attack. Tony grips my hand tighter and places his other hand on my heart.
"I killed them? Is anyone else hurt?" Tears start forming in my eyes. He looks down at the bed. "I did didn't I?"
"You dont need to hear this right now." He's quiet despite my frantic breathing.
"Who is it?" He tried to slip his hand away from mine but I grip harder. He looks at me.
"Steve..."
That's the one name I dont want to hear. Crys come from inside me. The tears break and if they flow down my cheek. Tony tries to wipe them away.
"He isnt dead. Elissa listen to me. Hes just a little hurt." I look at Tony and his nose is red.
"How bad?" I breath in and out to try and calm myself.
"He's fine. Asleep for now in the next room."
I nod and I close my eyes. The tears dont stop though.
"I cant believe I hurt anyone." I slowly shake my head. I open my eyes and look at him. "That's it. Tony. I'm gone. Take me away."
He clenches his jaw and shakes his head no. "We'll work something out. Ok just worry about yourself for now."
"Why should I?" My tone goes dark but I cant help it.
"Just get some rest. I'm going to check up on Cap." He squeezes my hand before getting up. He sniffles and walks out.
My mind traces back to what's been happening. I dont remember much just the key points. I still cant believe I killed 2 people. Thank God I didnt kill Steve. I dont think if could live with myself if I killed him. Hell, I dont know if I can live with myself now. I never pictured myself hurting anyone.
Once I get out of here, I'm never going back.